2009.

A few more hours to 2009 ,
Hais, im not going to be happy .
Fuck la , why so fast .
Why this year pass so fast ?
While last year passed so slow ? ..
When we're having fun , it passed so fast .
Fuck it la , ._.
One blink of eye and we're already stepping up .
Like, wth ?
I want to step up & get older , yea .
But i dont wanna leave secondary life .
The faster it passes the faster i'll graduate .
Heh, im only sec one this year ,
And in a few hours time im sec two .
I swear 2008 is the bestt year of my life .
Fun , Freedom , Precious boyf, Beautiful memories especially on my birthday .
Urghhhhhhhhhhh.
I dont want luhhhhs,
Getting back to school is asking me to take my own life .
Though i miss KC's life and friends there , seniors and fun
But i dont want to go back to schooooool ):
Once i go back to school , hell is getting me ):
DM will be announcing my name during assembly , _l_
Scolding me because of my piercings , my uniform , my socks ?
My hair , -.-
Then, giving me detention again ?
Six hours , wtf ?
Getting up early and study ?
_l_
Worst, i wont get to see my baby often ):
Cause of reasons .
-x His O's .
-x My streaming .
-x Studies .
-x Programmes .
-x Tuitions .
-x Lessons .
-x CCA .
-x Preparation of SYF .
-x Working hard to get into express stream during mid year .
Then, when 2010 comes worst isnt it ?
If i get into express stream ,
There goes my holidays .
Sec three holidays , have lessons cause of next year's O's .
What else ? Performance .
Fuck la , then , baby will either be in poly or jc .
Absolutely no time for each otherrrr. ):
OH GOD ,
WILL YOU PLEASE STOP THE TIME ?!
JUST FOR A DAY AT LEAST .
PLEASEEEEEEEE .
ARGHHHHHHHHH,
Oh well, if time really do stop , it'll be miracle .
Hah, which will never happen .
Im going off for countdown party now .
Goodbye 2008 ,
Haiss, welcome 2009 ):

lazyy to upload the rest -.-

tomorrow then upload ba , cause vehhry tired ):

Tuesday,

Bla !
Today had plans to go snow city TNS tgt ,
But in the end talya could'nt make it ):
That's fucking sad k.
So me and natalie went snow city like at JURONG EAST YOU KNOW .
We all the way marine parade cab to JURONG .
Like wtfffff.
Hahahahah ^^
So long la the queue , then got tickets then changed to long pants then bla bla bla .
Got in , its . its . its .
FUCKING COLD .
ITS - 5 DEGREES !
Likeeeee, wtf!
Hahahha, fuck sia!
Then my ears frozed , my lips frozed too .
Got out w natalie 3 times and warmed ourself up .
Coudnt take any photos inside cause hands were TOO NUMB to take .
HAHHA, bastardddd .
Then, took photos outsideeee(:
After that went in and did the sled thingy .
SUPER FUNNNN :D
But hor, first time my arsezxz got wet cause of the ice & the ice went into my jeans & socks . ):
Paiiinnnnn , alot ):
Ran all the way out to take the ice out .
Siannnnn,
Went back in and did one last time before we go out ^^
but this time kena my faceee .
Hahaha, but fuck sia got someone fell off the seat ? -.-
then one guy wanted to help , climbed up , slipped and fall .
HAHAHHAHAHAHA , fucker! -.-
So after that went out , changed and viewed photos .
Went to science shop and browse throughh .
Then to macs then nat's mum picked us up .
Went to her house and rest , watched lil nonya & then took real load of photos .
Camwhoredddd :D
HAHAHAH, yay ^^
Waited for baby to comeee ;D
Yea, then come home lorrrr .
Laughs,

Baby, if you're looking at this , then its when our game starts :D
TWENTY PEOPLE EACH HOR .
SO RESTART ! :D
Hahahaha,
So each is 0 - 0 .
Hahaha, wait till you come online then we start! :D

Tuesday,

Wooohoooo,
My mood is back :D
Love's love's ! ^^
Yesterday, woke up , bathe , got frustrated cause we were late fer-badminton .
HEH!
Hahhaha,
Then, reached there, some cina coach took our court .
Like wth la ?
Then paid us back the money , then we booked court from 6-7 .
Well, when finished , supposed to follow levon & haikal to paya lebar .
But like ya , sorry i dint follow .
Then there were some unhappy arguements between me and andrea ):
Cried , and ran away from andrea .
Ran ran ran , and amazingly while running i did not shed a tear ?!
Like , uh the wind blew my heart awayyyyy , blew my feelings away .
Blew my troubles away , like wow ?
Yea, *laughs .
But was'nt in the right mind , then i stopped in the middle of a road ? ..
Squat down and cried . ._.''
Car honked 3 times at me then i got up .
The uncle scolded me for squatting in the middle of a road .
Saying that im crazy and'll .
Then started telling me about what will happen if he knocks me over and blah .
I was like, cant be bothered to listen because i was thinking of stuff .
Said a simple sorry and went off .
Smsed andrea asking where she .
Immediately she called me & asked where am i .
Met her at marine parade galleria .
Told her everything why .
& she started thinking also .
Levon/Haikal started calling andrea .
But she dint want to pick it up cause she is angry at em .
HAHHA, SERVE YOU RIGHTTTT xD
Yea, switched off my phone because i seriously dint have the mood to even answer anything .
Told andrea to tell anyone who tries to contact me saying that she dont know where i am .
Sorry people , i really dint have the mood to entertain any of you . =/
Hahhhhh, then finally im back to myself but not really though .
Went to buy my school shoes , then walked around .
Wanted to eat Hans, but gussed not .
Went to eat bak kut tehh instead D:
HAHAHA xD
Went home and sorta emo ? But Jiayi twinny cheered me up(:
Thanks twinnyyyy! x3
LIKE YA .
TODAY , AND LIKE NOW ,
Im getting ready to go snow cityyyyy :D
Actually wanted to make plans w chuan shen , earnest all ?
But guessed they dint want to make the trip to jurong -.-
LOL ,
So , only me , talya & natalie is going(:
TNS cheers ! :D
Hahaha, but sadly andrea cant join us ):
argh argh argh .
Laughs, ATNS :D

Monday,

Mood : Vexed =/
i've nothing to say ,
I know nothing bout you ,
I'm an asshole ,
I suckkkkk .
Truly suck .
ALOT .
I'm sorry ,
I hate making decisions .
I hate it , i hate it , i hate it .
It's not that i din't want to follow .
Is , something , something is urging me not to go .
Idk what , but yea ..
When finally made up my mind that me and her follow you & him to where your destinations is ,
You practically shooed us off .
=/
I'm not hurt because of that .
But , im hurt because , because .
You din't ask me neither did you want to ask me if i want to go w you or to parkway .
I can always follow you because its you , not others .
But , you gave me that cold , answer .
When we walked off , i finally let my heart out .
It poured out on its own , like yea , i dint even know till she saw the tears .
Why , am i tearing or rather crying because of that ?
Because i hate making decisions ,
Whatever decisions i make are always wrong , and always hurt someone .
I dint want to face the fact that i cried .
I ran , & ran , & ran .
Amazingly i din't know how far i ran ,
I don't feel tired at all , i din't stop rather .
I felt reliefed , i felt light , i felt nothing .
It's like the wind blow my feelings away , god healing my heart .
I stopped , yea stopped .
Din't know whats around me , and i stopped in the middle of a road .
Squatting ,
A silver car was on speed , damn fast .
Amazingly it dint hurt me ?
It dint knock me down .
Was that god protecting me or my father .
Then when the driver honked at least 3 times , then i got up and walk off .
With my mind cleared .
Up till now , idk how to face reality .
WIll you teach me how ? =/

sorryyyy, i dont wanna let anyone read =/
thats why i canceled out .
Like yea,
Today, woke up , bathed , eat , out .
Badminton , buy shoe , home .
And my mood is not gooood .
Hais,

Saturday,

i lay my love on you ,
that's all i want to do .


Today , did nothing .
Stone at home the whole day .
Not fun at all .
):
Liars sucks .
I hate liars , ):
Stop lying , she keeps lying .
She is a freaking hypocrite .
Fuck her , fuck her .
Bang , die bitch ):
Talked to andrea on phone , w her ex .
Jeeva , fuck him too .
Called me a bitchhh , i'll show you whats bitch .
Fuck you , called me a dog yea ?
At least , A DOG IS FUCKING CUTER .
At least , A DOG IS MORE LOYAL THEN YOU .
At least , A DOG HAS A HEART .
At least , A DOG IS NOT AS BASTARD AS WHO YOU ARE !
Before saying me , look at what you've done to andrea .
See whether you even have the fucking rights to call me one .
You're worst then a fucking bastard .
Worst then a fucking beast .
Who the fuck do you think you are .
I'm just speaking up for andrea .
Now andrea has haikal , jealous ?
Duh, you ought to be .
It was your lost , not her .
I told you , many guys out there are waiting for her ,
She doesnt only have you , mother fucker .
Go home, look at yourself in the mirror first before asking for andrea back .
Dare call her baby one more time and i'll bloody whack you like a fucking ugly beast .
No, WORST THEN ONE . Bastard .
Dare touch her , even one strand of her hair , you bloody mother fucking piece of shiet , you just watch and see k.
Don't think you 17 years old i scared .
PUI! If i scared of you , i wouldnt be here posting bout you .
Oi , bastard , you look here , mother fucker .
I know la , you big , i small .
But you don't need show off you bigger then me right ?
I know la , you want show people how big you are , big untill cannot big liao , correct ?
HAHAHA, LOSER .
I warn you , don't you ever fucking dare to hypnotise andrea and try winning her back .
Think its easy ?
Yea, just by saying those lovey dovey stuff to her ?
Tsk, cheebye , she not that easily be bribed by you k!
DONT FUCKING LOOK DOWN ON HER THAT WAY , BLOODY FUCK .
AND , IF SHE REALLY GOT TAKEN IN BY YOU WITH YOUR BLOODY CHEEBYE LOVEY DOVEY WORDS , SHE FUCKING NO MORE MY FRIEND .
AND BECAUSE I KNOW SHE WON'T , THATS WHY I DARE TO SAY THIS .
DON'T COME HERE KPKB WITH ME AND MAKE ANDREA FEEL LIKE SHE IS CHEAPSKATE ! MOTHER FUCKER !
SON OF A BITCH !
GO HOME , LOOK AT YOURSELF LA .
HAIKAL IS FARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR WAYYYYYYYYYYYY BETTER OFF THEN YOU .
AT LEAST HE IS LOYAL .
UNLIKE YOU , MAKE PEOPLE DO UNGLAM STUFF AND YOU STILL DARE BREAK WITH HER , MAKING UP BLOODY CHEEBYE EXCUSES , YOU THINK YOU WHAT .
THEN HURT HER , AFTER SHE FOUND A WAY BETTER OFF GUY THEN YOU , JEALOUS , WANT HER BACK ?
THEN , WHAT IF SHE COMES BACK TO YOU ?
YOU'LL START THE OLD SAME ROUTINE AGAIN ISN'T IT ?
LOSER .
FUCKER .
CHEEBYE .
BOH LANJIAO .
FUCK OFF ANDREA'S LIFE LA .
KNN , CHEEBYE .
I KNOW YOUR LIFE IS RUIN LA .
CAUSE IS YOU RUIN IT YOURSELF .
BUT DONT MAKE OTHER PEOPLE SUFFER WITH YOU LA .
DONT RUIN PEOPLE'S LIFE AND GET A LIFE LA , LOSER.
BLOODY FUCKING WORST THEN A BASTARD , BASTARD !
arghhh,
im so angry la .
wlao , fuckerrrr.
arghhh!
i shall go reply tags.
Rather then make myself angry over a fucking JEEVA bastard.

Tag's reply .
levon<3:>
- I love you toooo!(:
GENEVIEVE.: oi, chio bu, why never go out with me anymore, forget me ah! ): gen is veh veh sad.
- Oi , i not chio , you're cantikkkk, JAMBU :D where got never go out ! never forget you luhs ! dont sad lehhh):
XIAOHAN: Heys (: you're linked! stay chio
- Whats your link? forgot le , ps . stay chio too!(: and im not k! :D
Anne: okay will lnk soon:D
- Yea k!(:
Andrea(:: Boo! Lol. What am I suppose to say now chio bu?
- Fuck you , you're supposed to say " sonia is not chio ! she is buangcase ! i am cantik! :D "
HHAHAHAH .
levon<3:>
- Hahha, okayyy , you better ! (: i'll hug you whenever i see youuuu ! :D iloveyouu!
Jiayi: twinniiee (: nice photos
- Thanks twinnyy(:
NATALIE.: NO EYES!!!! NO EYES!!! SONIA LOST HER EYES!!!! HAHAHAHA!!!
- Like as if you got eyes ! HAHA .
Andrea(:: hahaha. aiya, fine lah. I'll wait but only for a month so he better quick. Why he like always don't dare to ask me sia? walao. aiya, fine lah. But what if I say I'm having second thoughts
- TMD , no way . dont you dareeeeee!
Earnest: thanks so much,really appreciate it alot (: at least i know i have a good friend here eh,take cares
- No problemmmm!(: anything ? im here fer you 24/7 ! :D
Zen: Hellos ! (:
- Heyyyy :D
JAIME.:Hey sonia! Link me!
- Linked.
J;acia: Sugarloveeeeee (:
- Sugarloveeee :D
genevieve(: hey hey! nah, its okay, oh yeah, thanks for saying that to muneera for me, sch starts we give her hell kkk? love you!!
- Sureeeee(: , love youu too ! :D
Linda: I LOVE JIAYI(:
- I LOVE LINDA(:!
patricia: relink me, ty!
- relinked.
Andrea: Sorry ah. Didn't mean to pangseh mah. my parents lah. you know when I reach the van I like started laughing to myself. damn funny lah. Lol. Don't know why I cry also.
- Its okayyy! ^^

babyyyy(:
I miss you so muchhh x3
I just want to tell you that is does'nt matter about next year .
Dont care bout next year , care now and lets treasure our moments now(:
Though next year is your o's and i know that you'll be busy studying , it does'nt matter .
I'll wait fer-youuuu(:
Don't need to worry about me too , there will be haikal (:
Remember, he and andrea stead le , somemore next year he no O's .
So , he'll be able to tell you how i've been .
Also, i want to meet you next year too ):
If can , lets study tgt ? ^^
With , andrea & haikal .
Like that , we're killing two birds w one stoneee! ^^
We can see each other & also studyyyyy (:
Iloveyouuu alot!
Best wishes and lucks for your O levels k! (:
iloveyou!x3

Friday.

Hoho,
Today quarreled w mummy before going out ):
Then, cabbed to andrea's and picked her up then to eunos mrt.
Met up w talya & nat .
Nagged at us like ahma's ! ._.
Cause we were later fer-thirty minutes .
HAHA, and they missed six trains .
NOT BAD NOT BAD ! ^^
HAHAHHAHA , sorry la . -.-
K, so trained down to city hall , followed andrea to pay off her blogshop things .
HAHA, k ,
Then went to raffles city & eat the chippy's .
Laughs, talked and talked like as if the mall is we own one -.-
I shouted many vulgaraties causezxz andrea is an arseholezxz.
Laughs, then went to change , and wore my purple contacts .
Which is so , not purple -.-
LOL! looks grey instead .
Train to orchard .
Then talya & nat's went off to lido to watch twilight while me & andrea went fareast to shopp .
Went there, then shop shop like crazy la .
Lucky never bomb my money sia , if not my laobu sure hantam me . ._.
Siann, Haha.
Then baby smsed to say that they coming to find us w gujuan & sha .
Wow , HAHA .
I think gujuan looks like meiyee though .
She's freakingzxz prettyzxz kkzxzx! like omg la .
Hahaha, meiyee TOTALLY lost to her .
SORRY MEIMEI ! HAHAHHA ^^
Which i dont think meimei will EVER mind , because she dont wanna be cantik but yandao .
Haha, damn you meimei .
You actually damn chio as a girl , then you wanna be a guy .
_l_ you sia !
Same la , chan also same -.-''
Fuck both of them upside down , inside out siol !
HAHHA ,
Yea, then went Kayun toast thingy wait fer-them .
Sat there and waited to talya & nat to come .
Take bus to suntec, but then talya pangseh us halfway .
Nice one . -.-
Then, another andrea .
Pangseh us halfway also .
Ask us go suntec, reach suntec le , she gotta go -.-!!! _l_ .
After she left, went coffee bean , bought drinks , played scissors paper stone w baby .
Bite here bite there , want bite nose somemore .
Think you cute ah! -.-
Hahaha, like w'everrr laaaa.
HAHAHA,
But i always catch up lehhh ^^
Not bad ehhh!
TSKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

-

Wednesday.

Woke up quite late ?

LOL .

Waited for genevieve to come my housezxz ,

Bathe , packed and waited downstairs my housezxz for nat's mother to send us .

Reached andrea's house , went to changed into formal ._.

Wore a black dress w shorts as it was like too short la .

Then, put on a lil make up luh -.-

Wore blue contacts yea , cool sia . HAHA ,

Yea then w a white hairband .

Well i looked retarded on that day cause i never wore SOO GIRLY in my life before .

Waited for guest to arrived .

The first few was Ashley , Daryl Koh , Jim , Stuward .

HAHHA, okay then followed by PRETTY TALYAAAA O:

And idoitic haikal , then babyy(:

HAHA, NICE FORMAL THOUGH ! :D

Ate , talk and finally the disaster .

Alec came to crash the party which made andrea sad & cried ):

Haikal was so worried bout her that he started running and say " andreaaaa! my loverrr! dont go ! "

LOL!! fuckingzxz funny k! -.-

Thens, yea they all left o.o ..

Left, talya , me , andrea , haikal and babyy ^^

We went to the park walk around w my damn heels , SUCKS MAN ! -.-

then , haikal kissed & asked andrea for stead ! :D

YAYYYYYYYYYYY ^^

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED ! :D

Baby tried wearing my high heels and walk -.-

WHICH , is -.- ..

HAHHA, then haikal & andrea started laughing . LOL .

Stayed at her house till 3 plus sia , then parents come home .

But my mother slept le , locked door , cant go home -.-

HAHA,

Then treated haikal & levon to breakfast which it took me VERY VERY long to convince them to like EAT ! -.-

ARSEHOLEZXZ! =x

Thursday .

Came home , slept till five plus .

Watched little nyonya online then went off dressing up .

Hais -.-

Came home then watched little nyonya again .

Dint get to tk-picture .

SORRRRYYYYYYYYYY .

Laughs ,

Friday .

Going out w andrea like at 0230 .

Haha, to orchard and shop .

Then meeting baby & haikal after that(:

Hahhaa, ^^

In the night then i blog ba ^^

Ciaooooooooo! (:

Andrea, im sorry .

Im sorry .
I should'nt have done that to you .
I din't mean it that way too .
I hope you understand why i did this .
Now you think that im trying to make you be in a bad state .
But its not that way ..
I really dont want to lose you as a friend ..
I know its your big day tomorrow ..
Maybe i'm really not fit to be your friend .
You're too good to be mine .
I regretted saying all that to you ,
Im sorry .
Now im crying my heart out because i've just lost you .
I dint want her to come because i know you love him alot .
What is she .
She is a girl that flirts .
I dont want you to get hurt .
I really dont want .
Whenever i see you cry , it pains me .
Im sorry for making you the bad one .
Im sorry ,
Im sorry ,
I've made a big mistake .
I did alot alot alot of effort to make you & him tgt .
Even caused my stead to misunderstand us .
Almost lose him too .
Im sorry , wish you all the best w him .
I wanted to sms you to say that im sorry , because i've gave it a thought .
Who cares if she is there , yea who cares .
I'll go , because its your sake .
I know how long you have been preparing for this big day .
How long you've been waiting for .
Im sorry .
Im ssorry .
I want to even thank you for helping me all these times .
I want you to know that im sorry & never meant to hurt you .
i love you girl .
I don't want to lose you .
But i guessed its all too late .
Thanks for doing lots of things for me .
You're one great friend (: .
Best wishes & merry christmas ! =/

Tuesday,

Tuesday .
Woke up at 6 cause of a call .
Showered , left the house .
Went aljunied w freda , levon & natalie .
Saw gabriel . Freda forgot her FA form so cabbed home to get it .
Took bus to bedok inter.
Then waited for gabriel & levon for the two brothers .
Bussed to PingYi Sec .
Roamed around the school w levonn .
Saw their military band , it waszxz freakingzxz goooodzxz !
Dint know weijian was there . LOL!
After that, went to the hall to see the band pluszxz lion dance .
Then went off to buy the uniform .
Cool sia , i tried on the uniform O:
I look like i from ITE . tskkkk,
Cool ehhhh D:
Bussed to bedok inter w levon , freda , gabriel .
Then bussed to parkway meet andrea .
Saw andrea but called mother and asked where she ,
Asked me to go paramount .
So went there w andrea & nat .
Ate & ran off to meet gabriel & levon .
Then talya , then bussed to bugis to pick up stuff then to pasir ris .
Bought christmas presents(:
And collected my contacts .
Collected my dress tooooo :D
Wearing a sliver dress , white heels , grey cardigan , blue contacts :D
Yayyyy, maybe curling my hair ?
Hahaha, tomorrow is the dayyyyyyyyy{:
Wednesday .
Today , going to meet talya @ parkway 0230 pm .
Actually asked my FRIEND to meet me cause i want her follow me to buy shoes & presents .
She lied , =/
She said she was out w her aunty & so she cannot .
I believed her , guessed what .
My other friend saw her @ parkway w rachal .
Right, guessed what , to think i trusted her SO MUCH .
What a liar , liar , liar .
At least tell me the truth ?
Is that so hard ? ..
IS THAT SO HARD ?!
IS IT ?!
And she is my closest closest friend .
My mother actually thinks she is an angel .
ANGEL . ANGEL . ANGEL .
IN DISGUISE .
FUCK HER .
I FUCKING HATE HER NOW .
WHO THE FUCK SHE THINK SHE IS .
LYING TO ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN WHEN I TRUST HER OVER AND OVER AGAIN .
WHENEVER YOU LIE , I KNOW BUT I KEEP QUIET , I DINT WANT TO SAY ANYTHING BOUT IT . BUT FUCK , THIS TIME . YOU FUCKING GONE TOO FAR .
YOU GAVE ME THAT ARROGANT KIND OF VOICE , THINKING YOU ARE THE BESTEST OF BESTEST GIRL THAT I CANT LIVE W'OUT YOU ?
FUCK YOU MAN .
JIBAI .
KNN , YOU THINK WHAT .
AND LIED TO ME ,
YOU'RE A FUCKING CATHOLIC , DONT YOU KNOW LYING IS A FUCKING SIN ?!
bitch.
you're not forgiven.
fuck off. _l_
spoiled my christmas mood.

Merry Christmas in advance(:

Sunday,

Nothing to blog about today actually ,
Hahhaa, okay w'ever .
Went to meet baby & natalie .
Caught a cab and went off to circuit road meet jerrick , gabriel and freda(:
Went to watch big bad wolf @ jerrick's housezxz .
Milky , his dog cant keep her mouth shut .
LOL! .
Yea, ate tang yuan @ his housezxz .
Tomorrow is dong zhi(:
Yuhh, went off jerrick's housezxz earlyy cause father coming home .
Caught a cab w baby & freda .
Hahaa, then dropped freda off at her housezxz then went off to telok kurau park to find andrea .
Sent baby off to the bus stop yea .
Then went 711 then flagged a cab for andrea .
Headed straight home after that .
Tomorrow, going to lots of placeszxz & get christmas presents .
Must buy heels ! O:
Andrea , Nat , coming (:
First heading to parkway, then to robinsons then to citylink mall then to fareast then cathay .
Hahaha,

Jiayi twinny :
Don't sad luhhhs ):
You sad i also sad lehhh =/
Don't brood about the matter anymoree .
Does'nt mean that you love her you must be w her .
Love is not everything .
You can always find other fishes out there , the sea is so big !
Try fishing again & you will catch a even better fish then this !
You know you can do it derhhh !
You love her, you want to give her happiness, but she love him , she wants him .
What can you do ?
You can keep loving her & be friends again , you can give her happiness as a friend and also by helping her w him .
Isnt that killing 2 birds w one stonee ? =/
Maybe you're not destined to be w her , but be friends .
Open your eyes bigger and look around you , there maybe someone out there yearning to be w you , yearning to get your love , yearning for you !
Dont waste time le k ? =/
JYJY okay ! i know you can do it ! (:

Earnest :
EARNESTTTTTTTT .
YOU'RE NOT USELESSS .
YOU'RE NOT , YOU'RE NOT , YOU'RE NOT !
STOP SAYING YOU ARE .
OR WE ARE NO MORE FRIENDS ! ):
She is not the only girl you know ..
As i said , love is not everything ! ):
So what if you everytime get rejected ?
That's not the end of the world !
Stop demoting yourself !
Stop emo-ing !
Everytime you get rejected , say " I , EARNEST LIM YUAN WON'T GET BEATEN SO EASILY ! I HAVE MANY CHOICES OUT THERE , GO GO GO EARNEST ! JYJY ! "
:D
Be positive lurhs ):
It hurts me seeing you like this you know ! ):
Anytime, if you need an listening ear , i'll always be here for you okay ? (:
What are friends called ? (:
GO GO GO EARNEST ! :D

Andrea :
ANDREA SHAWN KOW SHI YAN .
YOU BLOODY STOP THINKING NEGATIVE THOUGHTS YOU FUCKER .
I FUCKING TOLD YOU HOW MANY FUCKING TIMES , WAIT WAIT WAIT .
YOU BLOODY FUCKING WAIT FOR HIM OKAY .
DONT YOU DARE HAVE A BLOODY FUCKING SECOND THOUGHTS OF WAITING FOR HIM .
I KNOW YOU LOVE HIM .
I KNOW YOU'RE MAD OVER HIM .
I KNOW EVERYTHING .
SO STOP PRETENDING LIKE AS IF WE DON'T KNOW .
OR YOU'LL GET IT FROM ME ON THE 24 .
YOU BLOODY FUCKING WAIT FOR THE SURPRISE AND STOP ASKING ME .
ARGHHHH, YOU CHEEBYE .
HAHAHHAA, ILOVEYOU !
THINK POSITIVE OKAY !
TOMORROW, YOU BETTER PUT ON YOUR SWEETEST SMILE WHEN YOU SEE ME AND NO GIVE ME A SULKING LOOK OR I'LL FUCKING PINCH YOUR BLOODY NIPPLES !
HHAHAHHAA, go andrea go ! (:

Babyyy :
Babyyyyyyyy ! x3
I know everything kayyyyyy .
Hahhaa, i can read your mind ! (:
You don't have to keep things from me ! ):
Whatever is on your mind that you wanna say , just shoot it out !
Don't keep it in your heart !
It's miserable k the feeling ! ):
I don't want you to end up like him , I want you to be happyyyyy ! ):
I don't want anything to happen between us ):
Though your O's are next year and next year is my streaming year ,
I don't wish us to be far apart from each otherrrr ):
I don't mind waiting fer-you till you finish your O's .
But, i just don't want us to be too far apart ):
I know what's on your mind , i know what you're thinking ,
I can see , ):
Your expression & eyes betrayed youuuuu .
Whatever it is , i'll love you all the wayyy ohkay !
ILOVEYOUUUUUUU!(:

Saturday,

Wheeee.

Just came back from alot of places todayyyy .

Tiring bodoh !

Hahaha,

First woke up at one plus(:

Yesterday slept earlyyyyy ^^

So yea, bathed then went to meet SAKL sister fredaaa(:

Supposed to go for bbq @ yishun but in the end din't go .

Then, went parkway then to aljunied meet gabriel and calvin .

Stayed there for like 10 mins then went off tk-135 home .

Got home, waited for sister to come home then go off to orchard .

Ate at Crystal Jade(:

Went to orchard w natalie,mother,sister .

Shopped , tk-photos .

Bought new cameraaa .

Buying new phone soon ! :D

YEA ! HAHAHHA .

Should i get the same phone as babyyy ? (:

Harhar,

Then when i at fareast / whisma whatever that place is .

Got these group of guys approached me & natalie .

3 of em asked me for stead & number =/

Din't give em cause i said i have stead .

Keep pestering me till i gave up & gave nat's number .

SORRY NAT !

They from Chankat Changi Sec siaaa .

Name's bit funny , o.O

Cliff aka Clifford th-big red dog ! :D

HAHA, then got dominic and Guowei .

Then they keep sms-ing .

Nat din't reply . (:

Yay , way to go nat ! :D

The deco's and lights were really beautiful at orchard !

HAHA,

took pic's ! :D

Baby :

Babyyy, i miss you so so so so muchhhh !

I love you so much & i dont want to leave you !

Idc how long you wanna last w me , but i want to last long w you ! (:

Even if we break, i would never forget youuuuuuu !

You're just like him but even better !

Everything you do just makes you even more perfect then him .

Baby, i don't have any guys in mind .

I don't bother looking at em too .

You're the one that i wanna look at (:

Being w you really brighten my life .

Things would never be the same w'out you .

Those guys that asked for my number , PLEASE don't care bout that !

I don't care bout em !

I only care for you , and i only love youuuuuu okay !

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Friday.

Yesterday was funzxz .
But i don't want to talk bout it causezxz i was'nt really that happy yea .
Well took some photo's w nataliezxz & talya .

Babyyyyy ):

I'm sorry if i've hurt you todayyyyy . ):

I din't mean to ! ):

Maybe i played too far ):

Im sorrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy !

Forgiveeee me pleasezxz ! ):

iloveeeyouuuu! x3

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我我用力牵起没温度的双手过往温柔 已经被时间上锁只剩挥散不去的难过缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念我点燃烛火温暖随波到秋天金黄的到天边被风掠过像你的容颜我把爱烧成了落叶却换不回熟悉的那张脸

Photos :D

that's my boyfriend ! HAHAH, ilovehim so muchhhhhh x3 NICE RIGHT LEVON . :D

Thursday.

Wheeeee(:
LOL .
So, today woke up at four pluszxz :D
Then went to meet andrea & natalayzxz downstairs my housezxz (:
After that, went library to switch tops w andrea :)
She wear my that purple mango tank top super hot bodoh !
Hahaha ^^
Then waited for haikal & levon at borders :)
After that went walking around parkway w nat , andrea , haikal , levon(:
Haikal made me went nutszxz !
Harhar, then i shouted in parkwayyyy . ._.
Super ps luhs , DAMN YOU HAIKAL ! _l_
Natalie went off first .
So left me , levon , haikal , andrea .
Went to banquet to eat .
Actually din't really have the appetite .
But then, smell the food i want buyyyy X=
So bought carrot cake, then got the food le , don't feel like eating -.-
So i ate less then 1/4 . LOL !
Andrea needed to go watsons , asked me to go , but i din't really want to .
Hahhaa, so haikal followed her (:
Then, levon & i had the idea of putting lime inside andrea's water O: .
I mixed andrea's hokkien mee w my carrot cake!
Pluszxz the chilli la , then i put water &'ll .
Levon ate one spoooooon *yucks! ._.
Then he make me eat , but i spitted it out :D
Guess where la, it's on the plate of hokkien mee & carrot cake!
Oh, then they came back.
We purposely played the game dare & dare game .
HAHAHA, wha i super suay luhs .
First one is me lehhhh x_x
Had to eat one spoon of the hokkien mee , carrot cake , and saliva w lime & chilli T_T
Then heng uh , got chance ^^
Again ! Me ):
Suay eh !
So i din't want to eat ):
Then levon helped me (:
Thanks babyyyyyy ! x3
Then kena levon . ._.
So ate again .
Then kena him again ):
Heart pain siaaa ... )':
Lucky ! next is andreaaaaa O:
So she took the spoon , could'nt tk-it so spat it out on the plate -.-
Then kena haikal ! O:
Then haikal ate , tried to swollow cause got veggie's .
Laughs, he's face sibei funny lo .
Then again he kena, but kena andrea's , mine's , & levon's saliva . HAHAHHAHA .
So he ate .
HARHARHARH .
Wha, then could'nt continue th-game le .
So they played the sucking the lime juice up the noseeeee ! x_x
Fuckingzxz pain luhhhhhh .
I kena again firsttt !
Then chanceee.
Then andrea kena, then chance .
Then babyyyy , and he did it ):
Kena me againnnnnn !
Whaaaaa):
Din't want to do , but baby helped me again ! ):
Then i see him sufferrrr heart painnnnn x_x ..
LOL , then haikal do !
HAHAHA, fucking funny la .
Then they continued till takk bolehh tahan lo .
Went off to giant to buy my stuffs then to macs .
Andrea left , then sent haikal to th-bus stop .
Then me & baby went homeezxz(:
Baby I love you and i'll never let you go but if I have to boy I think that you should know all the love we make can never be erase and i'll promise that you'll never be replacedd ♥

Tuesday(:

Bleahhhhh,
Slept at 5 plus yesterdayyyy .
Cause help andrea do blogshop(:
Yea, opening one w herr .
Laugh's .
Then woke up at 2 plus causezxz i was angryyyy .
LOL! then kicked myself by accident ._.''
Bathe , do everything then went to meet babyyy(:
Walked to telok kurau park , sat there awhilee , waited for andrea to come .
Then, walked off to kembangan mrt to buy bubble tea(:
I ordered bandung , din't expected it will come w'out pearls ! -.-
So i stole baby's & andrea's ,
Hahaha, then went 7-11 cause andrea hungry .
Bought food and walked back to telok kurau park & slackkkk.
Andrea left at around seven pluszxz i guess , nearly to eight .
Then me & babyy was still there slackingggg .
I went off to sit at some castle thingyyyy ,
then i stole baby's slippers ! :D
AHAHA, so he got so -.- & stole my slippers !
Then some small boy came to me & said why you'll laughing .
Oh, fuck.
I thought he was those cute cute kind -.-
Guess what , NEVER DID I EXPECT HIM TO SCOLD ME KNN LEH .
WITH JIBAI BEHIND SOMEMORE -.-
i was like eh! fuck siol , what i do -.-
Then he & baby started having war -.-'' .. it's like stupid la .
He primary four i guess , from TaoNan leh ,
Wha sian, not only that la , then later he told me say .
I want to strip you . -.-
Wha, then he keep coming to me and say " strip you ! strip you ! "
-__________________________- '' ..
Worst la , he spitted at me & baby , YUCKS!
Then he fly fly on that bar thingy then kick my head -.-
Stepped on baby's pants -.- ..
What an outrageous boy !
Hahah, then bangala's keep stare stare @ us . ._.
Laughs,
Tomorrow me , natalie & talya going to east coasttt (:

i never had a dream come true till the day i've found you , you'll always be my baby ♥

Monday(:

Back from nataliezxz housezxz!
Hahaha, okay .
So today slack slack untill four plus then natalayyzxz came(:
Went to bathe & everything .
Then went parkway cut my hair !
YAY :)
So happyyyyyyyy ;DD
I cut my fringeeeee .
Laughs , i think next week i cutting again(:
Yea, so met rachall on the way to Nat's .
So she followed us go Nat's housezxz .
Whaaa, then i use comp while they talk bout camp ._.
Then's while rachall waszxz using the comp me & natalie camwhore(:
Yea, retarded photo's la! HAHAH,
So we started making EPISODES of ourself =x
Got recorded our voicesssszxz .
HAHAHA, then we sung all i want for chirstmas is my two front teeeth! xD
Haikal fell into the longkang ,
SADLY , HAHA .
Then his nose big big ._.
HAHAH, then we teach him how do get the swollen nose away(:
Well, he was dumb enough to ask , the egg cold or hot one ah ?
W shell or no shell ? -.-!!!
Hahhaa, came home around 0110 AM .
Got scolded by sister -,-'' ...
Then now talking tuhh nataliezxzx & andrea(:
Babyyyyy,
I miss you so so so muchhhh ! ):
Hahhaa, i feel like being w you every second & every minute siaaaa =x
Then can talk talk ! xD
Hahaha, want me be your teddehhh bear huhhhhh !
Hahhaaaa, (:
akucintakauuuuuuuu! ♥
i'll be your cloud up in the sky , i'll be your shoulder when you cry , and when all hope is gone i'm here , no matter how far you are i'm near , it makes no difference who you are , i'll be your angel ♥

Bad morning ):

Argh's !
What a bad day today is ! ):
But yesterday was not bad thoughhhhh(:
Hahahaaa, yesterday conferenced w levon,haikal,andrea(:
Hahaha, it waszxz so funnnn ;D
Haikal & Andrea sung a duet . O:
And levon sangggg ;DD
Finally get to hear his singing laaa , xD
I'm supposed to sing luhs , but i can't bring myself to sing infront of em .
Haissssss ):
Then later haikal and levon shut down at 0318 am .
Cause they got some recording todayyy(:
So i talked to andrea till 0330 am .
Then tried singing , HAHHA , omg and it sucks la . ._.
Wonder how choir conductors choose their voices siol .
I can't sing & i was in choir ._. ''
That's weird ? HAHHAA,
So i slept at four pluszxz going to five i guess , cause could'nt sleep && too cold ):
Oh , then woke up late fer-piano .
Mother not happy , don't know why .
Then after piano fell back asleep , at 10 plus mother shout shout at me -.-
Untill i cannot sleep , sian la .
Then went online , immediately a fucking sicko msg me .
Fucker , his mother bo jibai la -.-

(10:33 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l: hi mei
(10:32 AM) Jiayi,:
what la fucker .
(10:33 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
i never offend u lah
(10:33 AM) Jiayi,:
you bloody mother piece of shiet
(10:33 AM) Jiayi,:
make prank on my mother
(10:33 AM) Jiayi,:
jibai
(10:33 AM) Jiayi,:
HUANLO
(10:33 AM) Jiayi,:
fuck off la
(10:33 AM) Jiayi,:
nb .
(10:33 AM) Jiayi,:
_l_

(10:33 AM)
Fallenbaby88 & leleahboy84 AKA Darren has been blocked
(10:40 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
sonia dont be so mean lah
(10:41 AM) Jiayi,:
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(10:41 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
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(10:41 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
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(10:42 AM) Jiayi,:
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(10:43 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
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(10:43 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
maelk
(10:43 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
mael
(10:43 AM) Jiayi,:
NO THANKS .
(10:44 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
srry typo erroe
(10:44 AM) Jiayi,:
i don't accet anything from strangers .
(10:44 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
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(10:44 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
sonia
(10:45 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
i still sincely apologize
(10:46 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
sonia
(10:46 AM) Jiayi,:
WHAT LA
(10:46 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
come on stop being like tiz
(10:47 AM) Jiayi,:
i like leh , cannot ah ?
(10:48 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
srry lah
(10:49 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
wat u wanna me do
(10:49 AM) Jiayi,:
to die .
(10:49 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
mei u need be so mean rite
(10:51 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
Initiated a file transfer
(10:51 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
listen to tiz song
(10:52 AM)
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(10:52 AM) Jiayi,:
IM NOT YOUR FUCKING MEI -.-
(10:52 AM) Jiayi,:
AND I KNOW THAT SONG
(10:52 AM) Jiayi,:
ZZZ
(10:52 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
u nid to be likr tiz
(10:53 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
sonia h jiayi
(10:55 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
sonia
(10:57 AM) Jiayi,:
zzz
(10:58 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
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(10:58 AM) Jiayi,:
FUCK YOU
(10:58 AM) Jiayi,:
NO .

(10:58 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
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(10:59 AM) Jiayi,:
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(10:59 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
u are 1 started
(11:00 AM) Jiayi,:
YOUR MOTHER BO CHEEBYE IS IT .
(11:00 AM) Jiayi,:
IM ASKING YOU FUCK OFF LA
(11:00 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
no
(11:01 AM) Jiayi,:
guailan .
(11:03 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
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(11:04 AM) Jiayi,:
FUCK OFF LA .
(11:04 AM) Jiayi,:
YOU JIBAI .
(11:04 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
hahaha
(11:04 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
my toes are laughing
(11:05 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
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(11:05 AM) Jiayi,:
fyi , toes can't laugh .
(11:05 AM) Jiayi,:
YOU NB .
(11:05 AM) Jiayi,:
YOU WANT TRY IS IT .
(11:05 AM) Jiayi,:
WHAT POPULAR YOU WORKING .
(11:05 AM) Jiayi,:
BO LAMPA .
(11:05 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
suntec
(11:05 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
come linbu
(11:05 AM) Jiayi,:
SUNTEC YOUR MOTHER BLOODY JIBAI LA
(11:05 AM) Jiayi,:
YOU NOT WORKING THERE ANYMORE .
(11:05 AM) Jiayi,:
I CHECKED .
(11:05 AM) Jiayi,:
AND I ASKED .
(11:05 AM) Jiayi,:
NB ,
(11:06 AM) Jiayi,:
I NOT STUPID .
(11:06 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
oic
(11:06 AM) Jiayi,:
JIBAI .
(11:06 AM) Jiayi,:
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(11:06 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
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(11:06 AM) Jiayi,:
HOPELESS FUCK .
(11:06 AM) Jiayi,:
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(11:06 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
i wrk at restraunt
(11:06 AM) Jiayi,:
HOPELESS .
(11:06 AM) Jiayi,:
EEW ?
(11:06 AM) Jiayi,:
YOU ?
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(11:06 AM) Jiayi,:
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* POLLUTE
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tht 1 u
(11:07 AM) Fallenbaby88 & l:
turban\
(11:07 AM) Jiayi,:
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(11:07 AM) Jiayi,:
only know how fuck whores .
(11:07 AM) Jiayi,:
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(11:07 AM) Jiayi,:
HAHAHA
(11:07 AM) Jiayi,:
FUCKER
(11:07 AM)
Fallenbaby88 & leleahboy84 AKA Darren has been blocked

What a bloody sicko ehhhh ?
His name is Darren Tan .
Handphone ; 96628286 .
Address ; Laguna Park , Blk 5000B , level 13 , unit number not sure , either 13-05 ,
13-06 , 13-07 , 13-08 .
Go spam call him , go hang pig head outside his house ,
Go irritate him or whatever to him idc ,