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Came to blog ,
Really no mood .
I'm sad , guilty & confuse .
Daddy , i'm sorry .
My dad passed away today at five plus in the morning ..
I dint get to see him for the last time ,
Daddy , i just want to tell you that whenever i ignore and say i hate you
I dint mean it , deep inside my heart i really love you ,
I'm sorry that i'm not going for the wake , but im going tomorrow ,
I'm sorry for yelling and throwing my temper at you ,
I'm sorry for not visiting you at the hospital ,
I'm sorry that im a unfilial daughter ,
Since young , i always dislike you because you show favourtism ..
You love jie more then me ,
It's pretty obvious ..
But i also know you loved me too ..
I just want to say this ,
Daddy , i love you .
It has been long since i have said this three words to you .
Long , very long .
Daddy , i want to say this to you too .
I never regret having you as my father ,
Even though how much hurt you have done to me ,
The pasts that you have hurt mummy ,
I never regret .
Because i know whenever i need someone , you'll always be there .
You don't show it , but i know it .
The fact is i'm only jealous that you're better to jie ,
I dont hate you at all .
Daddy , im sorry .
Daddy , im sorry .
Daddy , im sorry .
Daddy , i love you .
Daddy , i love you .
Daddy , i love you .
Daddy , forgive me .
Daddy , forgive me .
Daddy , forgive me .

I hope you're in heaven now , because i'll always miss youu ,
Daddy , rest in peace .
I'll pray for you .
Don't worry , i will fulfil your wishhh, i know since young you asked & persuaded me
to show my talents to otherrs , which is singing , but i never have the confidence to .
Because i think that my voice sucks , but now , since i have a chance ,
Campus Superstar , i will do my best .
I will go for the audition , I will try to get in , fulfil your wish .
I'm sorry daddy .
I love you ..
Daphne says that the bible says that blessed are those who mourn ,
for they shall find comfort , i still have a heavenly father .
I'm going off now for practice ..
Dad , i love you .