Mood : Vexed =/
i've nothing to say ,
I know nothing bout you ,
I'm an asshole ,
I suckkkkk .
Truly suck .
ALOT .
I'm sorry ,
I hate making decisions .
I hate it , i hate it , i hate it .
It's not that i din't want to follow .
Is , something , something is urging me not to go .
Idk what , but yea ..
When finally made up my mind that me and her follow you & him to where your destinations is ,
You practically shooed us off .
=/
I'm not hurt because of that .
But , im hurt because , because .
You din't ask me neither did you want to ask me if i want to go w you or to parkway .
I can always follow you because its you , not others .
But , you gave me that cold , answer .
When we walked off , i finally let my heart out .
It poured out on its own , like yea , i dint even know till she saw the tears .
Why , am i tearing or rather crying because of that ?
Because i hate making decisions ,
Whatever decisions i make are always wrong , and always hurt someone .
I dint want to face the fact that i cried .
I ran , & ran , & ran .
Amazingly i din't know how far i ran ,
I don't feel tired at all , i din't stop rather .
I felt reliefed , i felt light , i felt nothing .
It's like the wind blow my feelings away , god healing my heart .
I stopped , yea stopped .
Din't know whats around me , and i stopped in the middle of a road .
Squatting ,
A silver car was on speed , damn fast .
Amazingly it dint hurt me ?
It dint knock me down .
Was that god protecting me or my father .
Then when the driver honked at least 3 times , then i got up and walk off .
With my mind cleared .
Up till now , idk how to face reality .
WIll you teach me how ?
sorryyyy, i dont wanna let anyone read =/
thats why i canceled out .
Like yea,
Today, woke up , bathed , eat , out .
Badminton , buy shoe , home .
And my mood is not gooood .
Hais,
I know nothing bout you ,
I'm an asshole ,
I suckkkkk .
Truly suck .
ALOT .
I'm sorry ,
I hate making decisions .
I hate it , i hate it , i hate it .
It's not that i din't want to follow .
Is , something , something is urging me not to go .
Idk what , but yea ..
When finally made up my mind that me and her follow you & him to where your destinations is ,
You practically shooed us off .
=/
I'm not hurt because of that .
But , im hurt because , because .
You din't ask me neither did you want to ask me if i want to go w you or to parkway .
I can always follow you because its you , not others .
But , you gave me that cold , answer .
When we walked off , i finally let my heart out .
It poured out on its own , like yea , i dint even know till she saw the tears .
Why , am i tearing or rather crying because of that ?
Because i hate making decisions ,
Whatever decisions i make are always wrong , and always hurt someone .
I dint want to face the fact that i cried .
I ran , & ran , & ran .
Amazingly i din't know how far i ran ,
I don't feel tired at all , i din't stop rather .
I felt reliefed , i felt light , i felt nothing .
It's like the wind blow my feelings away , god healing my heart .
I stopped , yea stopped .
Din't know whats around me , and i stopped in the middle of a road .
Squatting ,
A silver car was on speed , damn fast .
Amazingly it dint hurt me ?
It dint knock me down .
Was that god protecting me or my father .
Then when the driver honked at least 3 times , then i got up and walk off .
With my mind cleared .
Up till now , idk how to face reality .
WIll you teach me how ?
sorryyyy, i dont wanna let anyone read =/
thats why i canceled out .
Like yea,
Today, woke up , bathed , eat , out .
Badminton , buy shoe , home .
And my mood is not gooood .
Hais,
