Slack and all .
Went out in the night around 10 plus .
Actually supposed to watch movie but decided not to .
So me & natalie took a random bus to paya lebar grandlink .
LOL .
Then camwhored -.-
In the bus two bangala's behind us was saying " hey sweeties i love you "
Fuck sia , cheebye bangala . _l_
Then we got off and camwhored on the road .
tsktsk .
Took a cab to marine parade .
Went Macs(:
Then camwhored again & bla bla bla .
Lazy to list down .
I'm not in a good mood anyway .
Will post photo's maybe later or tmr .
Because i believed you ,
Your promises and everything .
But in the end it turned
up to be a lie .
Everything's wrong .
I'm not blaming you or anything =/
I'm just hurt , real hurt .
A promise that is so simple and you actually broke it .
It's okay then =/
Your choice , your life ,
i have no rights to even posts it here .
Neither do i have the rights to actually so called scold / lecture you .
Because to you , i'm nobody to you except for a gan .
But to me , you actually meant alot as a brother .
Like as though you're my real blood brother .
I'm not able to really type it out to you of how i really feel .
Because i don't think you'll even care but to think it's nonsense .
Yea, i used to be a smoker .
A daily smoker
rather .
3 packs per day .
Can you imagine ?
I've changed because i dont
want to lead that kind of life anymore .
I really don't want .
Do you even know that when i was leading that kind of life in the past ,
I cry myself to sleep everyday ? ..
While in the outside i'm actually some fucking ahlian that always tio taiji w people ?
I even scolded & shouted at my mother .
Not only that , but with vulgarities .
Can you imagine how hurt i've hurt my mother ? ..
When my father got admitted into the hospital , all i thought was . " Serve him right , he's getting retribution . "
Wth ?
What kind of fucking daughter am i ?!
I'm fucking unfilial .
And it's all because of one reason .
"Her"
Because i don't want to be back my old self
and that is why i'm angry at you .
You always say no matter what happens you'll always be by my side ,
But do you really mean it ? ..
You said it again , idk if to trust .
Because i trusted you too much & that's why i'm hurt =/
You don't know how i feel , because you're not in my shoes .
If you've heard the story i swear you would have cry .
& even want to punch those people .
But you din't hear ..
Because i din't want to tell .
Because i know
if i had told you , you would have hated her
But i dont want that to happen ? ..
It's okay lurhs , everything is meaningless already .
Enjoy & Happy Chinese New Year , (:
