Generations :)

Alright, so here it is .
People have been asking me to blog and post what i've preached the other day .
Purpose of Life (:
I will C&P here then :D

What on Earth are we here for .

Firstly it all starts with God.

It’s not all about us.

And the purpose of our life is far greater than our own personal fulfillment, peace of mind, or even our happiness. If we really want to know why we are placed on this planet, we all must begin with God. We were born by his purpose and for his purpose .

Many people has been searching for the purpose of life and it also has puzzled many people for many years. Because why ? We’re typically beginning at the wrong starting point which is ourselves. We always ask self centered questions like, "what do I want to be?" "What should I do with MY life?" "what are MY goals?" "what are MY ambitions, my dreams, my future?"
However we have NEVER thought and ask questions like "what do GOD want me to be?" "what is GOD doing with my life?" "what are my goals to GOD?" "what did GOD set for me, my dreams, my future and my ambitions?"

By focusing on ourseleves will NEVER reveal on our life’s purpose.

The Bible says " It is God who directs the lives of his creatures; everyone’s life is in HIS power."

We won’t discover our life’s meaning by looking within ourself. Why? Cause we did not create ourselves so there was no way we can tell ourselves what we were created for. If i were to hand you an invention that you have never seen it before in your life, you wouldn’t know it’s purpose and how it works.
The invention itself wouldn’t be able to tell you either. Then who would reveal the purpose of this invention?

The only person whom can reveal this invention is the creator of this invention or the owner’s manual.

Example; I once got lost in the mountains and started asking for directions to the other side. I stopped by at someone and asked how to get to the other side but i was told "You can never get there from here, You must start from the other side of the mountain."

Same thing as we cannot arrive at our life’s purpose by starting a focus on ourselves.

But, we must begin with God, our Creator.

We exist only because God wills that you exist.

You were made by God and for God.

And untill you understand that, life will never make sense.
It is only in God that we discover our origin, our identity, our purposes and meaning.

Our significance, and also our destiny.

If you have tried any other means, it’ll only lead you to an dead end :)

We were made for God and not otherwise.

Life is about letting God use you for his purposes and not you using him for your own purposes. The bible says " obsessions with self in these matters is a dead end; attention to God leads us out into the open, into a spacious, free life."

We’ve often hear and figure out what we’re good at, and clarify our values.

We set goals and we aim high.

We believe we can achieve and be discipline to never give up.

Of course, all these are often good and lead great successes.

We usually succeed in reaching a goal if we put our mind and soul into it.

However, being successful and fulfilling our life’s purposes are not at all the same issue.
We could all reach our personal goals and becoming a raving success by the world’s standard and still miss the purposes for which God created us.

Jesus Christ once said, "self help is no help at all. Self sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self."
Knowing your purpose will allow you to do less in life, by focusing on what matters most.

It is about becoming what God created you to be. Well, How, then, do we discover the purpose we are created for?

You have only two options for this.

And your first option is; Speculation.
Speculation is where most people are.

They just guess or speculate the purpose of life. When someone says "I’ve always thought the purpose of life is ..." actually what they’re really saying is that "This is the best guess what i can really come up with"
There is better alternative to speculation about the meaning and purpose of life.

The easiest way to discover the purpose of an invention is to ask the creator to explain it.

Which is also the same method that works for discovering your life’s purposes.

We can always find what God, our Creator, has revealed about life in his Word which also means the Bible. Revelation beats spevulation anyday.
God has not left us in the dark to wonder and guess. (Why?) – Cause he has clearly revealed his five purposes for our lives, through the Bible ( if you have read, if not go home and read bout it :) )
It is our Owner’s Manual explaining why are we alive, how life works, what to avoid and what to expect in the future. It explains what no self help or philosophy book could know. "God’s wisdom, goes deep into the interior of his purposes, it’s not the latest message, but more like the oldest.

What God determined as the way to bring out his best in us.

God is just no a starting point of your life, but he is the source of it.

To find out the purpose of life we must turn to God’s Word not the world’s best guesses.

You must build you life on unchanging, eternal truths, not the everchanging opinions of talk shows, pop psychology fads, success motivation seminars.
Bible says "It’s in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ and got our hopes up, he had his eyes on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose he is working out in everything and everyone."

Through this verse we can point our 3 insights into your purpose.
First, discover your identity and purpose through a relationship with Jesus Christ.
Second, God was thinking of you long before you ever thought about him.
His purpose for your life predates your conception. He planned it all before you even existed without your input. You may choose your career, your spouse, your hobbies, and many other parts of your life but you don’t get to choose your purpose.
Thirdly, the purpose of your life fits into a much larger, cosmic purpose that God has designed for eternity.

Questions to consider ;
Have you ever wondered about of felt confused about the purpose of your life?
What ways have you tried to discover your life’s purpose that haven’t worked ?
Why do you think people try to discover their life’s purrpose without turning to God, their creator?

I hope this helps :)

Though i am not here to preach, but i hope what you've read from here depicks what you want to know ? (:

He is the Holy Spirit, who leads into all truth." John 14:17
I think most of us wish the Holy Spirit led us into all comfort. We might even settle for partial truth. But all truth? Most of us would rather surround ourselves with people who will simply validate what we falsely believe about ourselves. That isn't the Holy Spirit. Like a good counselor, He'll take you places you don't want to go so you can get where He wants you to go. He'll reveal things you don't want to know so you can become who He wants you to be.
I think many of us get frustrated at times because it seems like God is silent. Here's a thought: if you cannot hear the voice of God maybe it's because you aren't willing to hear everything He has to say?
You can't tune out His convicting voice and still hear His guiding voice or wise voice or comforting voice. You cannot listen to half of what the Holy Spirit has to say. It's a package deal. If you tune out His convicting voice you won't hear anything He has to say.

Truth is found in the tension of opposite .

I am really really worned out from today & yesterday .

Yesterday finished school @ 1130 cause of founder's day, as usual it was a bore to me .

Then bussed down to Tampines with, Gwendolyn, Talya, Victoria Anne, Joan, Weizhen and the others but i am not sure whom else gone, Sorry . Watch Night at the Museum 2 .

Then went to Century to window shop, but bought a shades :)

Totally was obsessed with this beautiful bag wich cost $22 @ Bluez, had cash with me but din't want to spend it :( :( so yea, i'm still not sure if i should buy it . D:
So today was KC Family Day, fun & exciting :)

I woke up late ( argh ) and had to rush for duty but realised my duty is the 2nd shift ._.

So stone and walked around, went Haunted House four times :)

First time i was freaked out, they grab my leg and all pull my shorts and i was like annoyed, Hah.

Alright, so i had to stay there and around 345 we started packing till like 430 .

430 headed down to Ocean Park for Zone Service & Sabby preached today :)

We heard about Secular Music, that's the music where alot people are listening to .

Yes, i agree that it affects people's emotions, feelings and it is a great effect to the world, the society to us and our souls .

Sometimes, we don't know why when we hear certain Secular Music we tend to be emo .

Ever wondered why ? That's because of it's great impact of music .

When these composers write their songs, it is on how they really felt and what mood they are .

Take example, Just So You Know - JesseMcartney .

Isn't that song somehow relate to a fact of a failed, broken relationship or rather we say heart ?

Lyrics goes like ; I shouldn't love you, but i want to .

I don't know how to be fine when i am not . How to make a feeling stop . I've tried my best to let go . Do you want me to hide the feelings . This feeling is taking control .

From these lines we're able to conclude what he was trying to write and express in his song .

Isn't it ? Everything is written black and white on his song and lyrics .

But do you know by playing it Back Mask, it is actually DIFFERENT from what you hear ?

Jonas Brother's song We're the kids of the future .

Forward Lyrics are ; We're the kids, we're the kids, we're the kids of the future .

Backward Lyrics ( Backmask ) are ; Satan, Satan, you're the one, you're my father .

Amazing isn't it ? Do you believe it ? Obviously you will not . If you don't believe, feel free to add me on my MSN email and ask me to send the soundwav to you . It is heard clearly . And also, in order to Backmask a music, you need a backmasking software .

I DID NOT MAKE THIS UP, IT IS REAL . Don't believe ? Just ask and you will receive .

Another one, Pokemon's rap, Gonna catcha in the head .

Playing is forward will be ; Gonna catcha, catcha in the head .

Backmasking it will be ; Satan, Satan, i love Satan .

Go Youtube search " Backmask Stairways to heaven " .

I swear you will get super super freaked out .

Anyway, i have stopped listening to Secular Music, or rather maybe seldom .

Because only Christian songs anoints love and power into my life and also into me .

I also would love to ask Christians and Catholics out there reading my blog .

When the day of Revelation arrives, will you still be looking at the noise of the devil and the world or flesh or would you be looking at the The Calling Of Holy ?

By listening to the noise of the devil, you'll never be able to be the sheep of God .

To be listening to your own flesh and to the world, you'll always be rebuking your rights .

Only by hearing and looking at The Calling Of Holy then you will be able to be the sheep of God, and only then you will be able to the Revival and Salvation of your family, friends, and school .

You can always rebuk with me now by saying " But Sonia/Jiayi ! I have the rights to not look at The Calling Of Holy, i have the rights to listen to Secular Music, i have the rights ... etc etc "

But think of this, did Jesus our Saviour rebuk at his father and said " But Father ! I've never sinned, i'm pure, i'm holy, why should i be misjudged and not worshipped ? Why must i be tortured and be hanged at the cross and be nailed to death ? Why ? " No, but Jesus in the end DID NOT rebuk for his rights and go with it . 3 days later he rose and now he is alive !

Start running with God, start to focus your eyes and love on God, start to yearn for his anointings .

Revival and Harvest is round the corner .

However, firstly YOU HAVE TO FIGHT A SPIRITUAL WAR to see the success .

The devil is attaking us very very soon because we do great things for God .

Run with God with Faith .

Be the Lord's son/daughter's Champion(:

Ah yes, i'm finally recovering :D :D :D

I can skip, hop, jump, walk, talk, run and eat maybe not eat la but IM LIKE A NORMAL PERSON ! YAY YAY YAY YAY YAYYYYYYY :DDDDDDD

Okkkk, i would really really love to thank kakak Huda & Sha ( if i spelled it right D: ) , Junlin, Chermaine, Sueyuan, Claudia, Generations 2.2 and Zone 2, Mummy, Jiejie, Talya, Natalie and all my lovelest friends and classmates for taking care of me and wishing me the best :D

Also, by filling in details for meeeeeeee (:

I so love you guys manszxz !

Especially you,

i really love you & i'm glad you love me too(:

I've decided to move on with you & only you .

I want to spend the rest of my life with you, even when i die i want to be with you .

When there is revelation, i will stick with you through thick and thin .

Of couse the devil is tring to deceive and tempt me, but he'll never get me .

I've moved on because you helped me to .

I've done well and being a happy going person again because of you .

You never failed to let me go and catch me when i fall .

If it weren't for you, what am i supposed to do ?

Seriously, i should have love you way before i loved him .

I should have considered on how you feel, and i know you're jealous .

Hahhahaa, you wouldn't want to share your women with other guys isn't it right ? (:

OI . YOU . I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS .

HAHAHAHHAHA, I HAVE GOTTEN OVER YOU .

YAY , YAY , YAY .

YOU ASSHOLE .

HAHAHAHAHAHHA .

WITHOUT YOU I REALISED THAT MY LIFE IS MUCH HAPPIER ;DDD

*no offence ^^

BUT NOT IN A BAD WAY LAR . HAHAHHAHAHA

MAYBE MISS THE MEMORIES, BUT WON'T MISS YOU !

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA .

OKKKKKKKKK, AND TREAT HER GOOD OR ELSE YOU DIE .

YOU SEE WHAT I DO, YOU KNOW . HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA .

DO WELL FOR YOUR O LEVELS, IF NOT I WILL CURSE TILL YOU FAIL .

TSK TSK, EVIL RIGHT . HAHAHAHHAHAHA

SO YOU BETTER GET YOUR ASS UP AND START TO BUCK UP ON YOUR STUDIES AND STOP JUST FOOLING AROUND AND PULLING PEOPLE DOWN !

LOL . OKK, NOT THAT WAY BUT STUDY .

STUDY ! STUDY ! DON'T KEEP THINKING OF PLAY LA IDIOT .

DON'T KNOW HOW TO MANAGE YOUR TIME AH , ASS .

I may be hurt BEFORE, but not now .

Though reading her blog on occasionally may hurt me a little, but it doesn't affect me anymore because i don't care and i don't love you anymore !

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I realised when i open my eyes wider there are other suitors out there .

Ha, now i won't get into relationship because of your damn hurt you gave to me and of course of him also . YOU BETTER REMEMBER THIS GUILT ASS !

HAHHAHAHAH, don't use LAME & CRAPPY excuse for break up la .

So old fashion nia -.-''

K, bye . Idiot . ^^

Oh man, i hate to be sick and be havinf fever :(
I was so fine on Sunday i went for service then later i started coughing badly .
Then during altar call i was crying alot, coughing alot because of the sins that i've made .
After service i felt super super cold .
Then i took my temperature and i had slight fever only . Thought it will be okay but i was wrong
Haissssss, went back home and fell asleep on the couch .
Woke up, took my temperature again and it shot up to 38.7 D:
I din't want to tell my mother cause i wanted to go to school the next day .
So i just continued playing the computer, mother came back and saw my face was super red .
Then she asked if i'm having a fever i denied and went to bed .
But then i woke up halfway cause i felt super cold then took my temperature again and it was 39.9 . Then i very scared i will get brain damage so i went to tell my mother .
And alot of stuff happen luhs .
Yesterday afternoon it became 40.1 . Super high luhs .
Almost fainted cause i couldn't stand it so i slept throughout the whole day .
SOrry guys for not answering your phone calls and smses ):
I still feel very awful feel like vomitting ): ):
After this post i'm going back to sleep .
Okk, bye .

i'm glad you've realised your mistakes .
Again, i am not a person whom holds grudges against people whom i loved & care for .
Also, i still love and care for you as a older brother or a friend .
I hope whatever you've said is from the bottom of your heart and you're sincere alright .
What matters most now is you mend your ways, treat her your best and do well for O's .
I believe in you, and i know every other people like your friends and family do .
So don't let us down especially her . (:
See you and hearing from you soon, Champion ! (:

Today's cell group is awesomeeee(:
I really love hearing Chermaine, my awesome shepard preach :D
She really gives me the inspiration of becoming a Prophet or Evangelist .
Hope i spelled that right . Heeee ;D
She preached about Spiritual Maturity .
Which really hits me alot because Spiritual Maturity doesn't include age .
Doesn't mean that you're like example 16 and you're already super mature .
Age is not a factor of Spiritual Maturity .
No, it doesn't work this way .
It works with God and not on you .
We often only have Faith in God cause of answered Prayers .
But when he doesn't answer to our calls and prayers, we turn away from him .
We're self centered and only want to use God for our benefits .
We run for the call instead for the throne .
Which means, we turn to our Leaders and Pastors or even Music for our troubles but never turn to our Creator, God .
We use Music to subdue our pain, worries and troubles but never turn to God .
Only when we're in desperate situation then we turn to him .
This stage of Spiritual Maturity is called " Babes " -> Salvation . ( where many people are . )
And many Christians think that Salvation is the ending point of your Christian Walk .
Which is not, but it's actually your starting point .
Leviticus 21:20 .
2 Timothy 2:22 .

Tags reply (:
But before that, i would really love to thank all those whom tagged me, encouraging me, and giving me all their moral and spiritual support that they could give . Love you Champs ! (:

Weihan ; Yes i will cheer up (: Thanks gan-stead :) .

Freda ; Don't hate him already okay ? He explained everything le, and i choose to believe him . Make friends ba, don't have vengence and hatred in you okay ? (: Love you too !

Yang ; Haha, sure sure and thanks . (:

Meiyee ; Shut up luhs stupid crab ( crap ) dance . Tsktsktsk .

Mrs SL ; I meant, i'm trying to subdue my vulgarities :D

Louisa ; Thanks love x3 ! (: I am trying to forget it . Hahhaa ;D Last long ! :DDDD

Hey guys, sorry i'm not going to reply the very very old post .
Hahha, i am like so lazy =x
Hahhahahahaha, kkkkkk see you :)

Oh alright then, i've came to blog .
Realised alot alot of stuff and was really disappointed in him .
Firstly i want to really know what is your problem .
Secondly why do you keep lying to me and not be ashamed of what you've did .
Thirdly, why are you so two face .
Why ? Why ? Why ? These questions are haunting me everyday eversince that day .
You've made me screwed up my papers because i was thinking of it during the exams .
You've made me believed you and feel like an total moron .
You've made me an image of being a " bitch " .
And lastly, you've been lying to me & cheating on me on awhile .
On that day i asked you the question " do you like anyone else HONESTLY " .
And my reason for asking you that is BECAUSE if you had told me the truth i would have just forgot about you and just let you move on with her .
You have gave me false statements and made me think i was the one who screwed up this ex relationship .
Not only that, you also made false image of me and Junlin in your own school .
Do you really think i am that moron, that stupid, that dumb, and that NO BRAINS to not know what you're actually doing ?
When we seperated, i've decided to let you go and never talk about you and everything .
However, recently i've just found out everything by bloghopping to one person and got interested in the post the person was saying .
I tried all my best to find out, and i was disappointed, heart broken and my heart sunk when everything was revealed .
How stupid am i to even trust you even untill you've lied untill like that .
Up till now, you really don't seem to be sorry bout it .
And i guess you only apologise to Junlin because you want to gain back people's trust, your image of popularity and gain her back .
You don't want me to spill everything out here do you ?
Or you rather meet up all in person and thrash things out .
I hate it when i am treated like an idiot and walking in circles figuring out why .
At moments like these now i really really feel like giving you an instant tight slap across your face .
Seriously, put yourself in my shoes, in Junlin shoes and in other people's shoes ,
INSTEAD, of being self centered and get yourself into deep shit when the truth is out .
Will you just stop your nonesnse, and all your lies and get on with life ?
Hello, you're having a crucial year this year, and here i am being an idiot wanting you to do your best supporting you all the way and trusting every word you've said to me and there you are wasting your time, wasting your life doing inappropriate stuff behind my back and in school .
Getting offended now with this post ?
I guess you are .
And i won't care how you feel right now because you din't care how i felt !
But, i will still treat you as a friend because of all the help and concern you've given me before and maybe untill now .
Yes i thank you for all those memorable memories and i thank you for everything you've done .
I know feelings like these cannot be helped but unless you've had self control none of these would have happened .
And the truth is, i know that you've liked her during your school's annivesary or maybe way before .
But now everything i ask from you is to stop whatever you're doing, treat her your very best and not repeat your same mistakes, and also do all your best for your O levels (:
Waiting forward to hear news from you of your results and of course your change . (:
Once in a bluemoon i will msg you for something but now you don't have to worry me msging you because i also don't want her to feel wrong or anything .
Yup, all the best friend . :D

Mrs SL : I am sorry for using these vulgarities and being uncivilised . I've tried to mend my ways and stop using vulgarities, if you don't believe you can ask the class . Thanks for teaching us lessons like these and try all your means to make our english improve way better :)

I'm back to blog, because i am shock, amused, delighted .

Why ? Because of many things (:

Firstly is God & friends encouragements (:

Secondly is i have finally found out the truth and your true colours (:

Third is I AM VERY VERY EXCITED FOR TOMORROW'S CELL OUTING ! :D

Freda love just blogged bout ( ) in her post which i think it is no nececcery to because its over .

But anyway, thanks love ♥ .

Oh well, then i bloghopped to other people's blogs and found out something that i totally DID NOT expect . Nope, seriously i TOTALLY did not expect it .

I saw her blog, and i thank her for sorta standing up for me though idk her . Hahaha (:

Thanks girl ♥ .

Then i saw his previous blogpost and i found out how he is like . Tsk, Jerk .

Thanks boy ♥ .

And i found out something even more AMUSING .

Oh well, i guess this puts all to the end but i really REALLY would love to find out more .

Haha, now i don't have to ponder over you anymore !

And i feel free from your lies & broken promises !

Yayyyyyyyyy ;D :D :D

Anyway, what Freda said was right . Maybe you weren't like this before, but changed overtime .

Which i won't blame you because people do change .

Then, what she said was right . Where is your dignity .

& where is your honesty .

Reflect please .

if you din't have feelings for me anymore or if you liked her, you could have just told me the truth .

Instead of LYING to me and giving me false hopes that states that you love me not anyone else .

I know, i may not be that pretty like her, that slim like her, that talented like her & that smart like her .

But it doesn't mean you have to use this method to break up & to look down on me .

However, i am also grateful to you for giving me beautiful memories to look back at .

Also, your helps really enlighten my burdens .

If you had told me the truth i would be less hurt .

If you had not been self centered other people would not look at you that way .

Before you do something, THINK TWICE before you hurt any other people deeper .

Anyway, i love to thank you for everything you''ve done for me .

But i also would love to give you a tight slap for hurting me and being dishonest to me .

I've decided to stay home today instead of going sheesha with them .
Oh well, some also no money so yup (:
Now i am finding the prospective of life @ evotional.com & purposedrivenlife.com .
These links really helped me in moving on with life .
Life is not all about You .
It all starts with God .
If we want to know why we are placed on this earth, we have to begin with God .
Because he is the creator of us . We were born by his purpose and for his purpose .
We often ask self centered questions but by focusing only on ourselves we all never reveal our life's purpose .
We din't create ourself so there is no way we can contridict that we know what we are created for .
If i had handed you an invention that you totally had not seen nor heard it before, you would never know it's purpose and the invention itself wouldn't be able to tell you either .
Only the creator or the owner's manual could reveal its purpose .
We exist only because God wills for your exist, you were made by God and for God and untill we understand that, life will never make sense .
We were all made for God not vice versa . And life is about letting God use you for his needs and purposes, not you using him for your own purposes .
We could all be successful people and reach all our personal goals but still miss the purposes for which God created us .
We first have to discover our identity and purpose through a relationship with Jesus Christ .
Second, God was thinking of you long before you ever thought about him .
Third, the purpose of your life fits into a much larger, cosmic purpose that God has designed for eternity .

Ask yourself .
- Have you ever wondered about, or felt confused about, the purpose of your life ?
- What ways have you tried to discover your life's purpose that haven't worked ?
- Why do you think people try to discover their life's purpose without turning to God, their creator ?
Hope this little post will help some people out there whom is searching for the purpose of life(:

God, i thank you for healing the emotional pain and memories these few days .

Because of you, i'm able to pull through everything .

Dreams that are not planted by you and by the devil .

Memories that are haunting me and i've tried to get rid of them, but only you whom can do so .

Sometimes, i've been thinking what on earth am i here for ?

But God, you've just given me the answers yesterday .

This breakup is definitely a calling from you, and is also definitely a wake up call .

Lord, take me deeper then i've been before .

Take me deeper that i long for .

Take me higher that i've been before .

Jesus, i want more, Jesus i need more .

I need more of you Jesus, more of you & your strength .

Because of this breakup, i'm definitely not turned on by guys and relationship .

Though the devil has been tempting me with guys texting me, asking me for numbers however, because i believe in your strength and that is why i am able to shook them off .

I've learnt from Pastor Jiancong and i really thank him for that preach last Sunday's service .

Why should i give everything to someone who does not have the same goal, same target as me and let the relationship take control of everything and get emotionally hurt .

Instead, my calling should be focussing on you God, and not any other man .

Because only You, whom will not harm me, and we have the same goal and target .

I really thank you for giving me such great friends, seniors, shepards and family members for being there for me and giving me moral and spiritual support during this period of toughness .

I've learnt something from this, " when we decides to let go of something that do not belong to us, we have something more then it takes . When we decides to cling onto something that do not belong to us, what it takes is the unnececcery emotional pain that takes time to subdue it . "

What pains and troubles me the most is that, Saturday after cell when i've decided to repent before you God, i went out drinking, sheesha-ing and smoking . Next morning, i was struggling whether or not to go for service . However in the end i did .

I cried before you God, i repentted before you God and now i want to do something that will ease this trouble and pain away .

Which is, i've decided to give a small "preach" on Thursday to the god chasers in KC about you, about your calling and about the purpose in life .

I've never done this before, but i have the sudden urge to do it .

Is it because you're motioning to me that this is one of my callings ?

As what Cheryl said, each step we are taking, is a step towards our future .

I want to save KC, i want to save other people .

Even if i wasn't given the opportunity to be incharge of the outreach when the seniors graduate next year, i still want to bring in more people, and giving tem spiritual support that they may need .

I've decided to let go of everything and focus on you God .

I don't want to let these memories keep haunting me and hurting me .

I don't want to cry over spilt milk because what's done is done .

I don't want to have anything involve with ( ) during the period of time & just let me focus in you .

I don't want to hear news from people about ( ) and start to have the emotional hurt all over again .

I want you, I want more of you .

I want to let these memories be kept somewhere which i will never remember .

I want to accept the calling .

I want to move on with you .

I want to focus on you .

I want to hear more of you instead of ( ) .

I want to be spiritually strong .

I want you to guard my heart deeply .

Lord, Take me deeper, Take me further, Take me higher then i've been before .

Also, please help Junlin to clear his doubts about you, allow him to be spiritually strong and also morally strong, and clear his hurt, clear everything that hurts and troubles him, let him annoint you even more, and also please do make him come for this Wednesday cell outing because i know starting from that day, you'll be able to talk to him further more, able to guide him further more, able to guard his heart . God, you're powerful . And i know Junlin is one of the chosen ones . (:

Praise you Lord :) .

Oh gosh, finally exams are over .
I screwed up both my Math paper one and two .
Then is my Art and Oral .
Tsk, damn .
Okay, so yea i'm now having issues in my life that i''m trying to deal with .
Sucks, and painful .
Anyway, i really have to thank for those people who've always been there for me and helping me :)
Yasmyn, Khailisah, Talya, Gwendolyn, Joan, Denise, Chermine, Aisyah, Natalie, Junlin, Chermaine, Sueyuan, Gayle, Annabel, Muneera, and alot of the others .
Thanks so much for being here when i needed someone to lean on :)
Love you'll so so muchhh ;D !

You : Hey, im really sorry for everything i've done, i know i've hurt you by causing misunderstandings and so you had to do this . But, seriously i only love you and no one else . He is just one of them who has been here for me when i'm down that's all . I know you might have like think that he is trying to jio me or hong me or something . But seriously, there is nothing between us . Nothing at all . And about yesterday night, i seriously did not tell her anything . She only asked why the seperation and i only told her why about what he and the rest said . And about your side of thinking, the rest is all she anyhow bomb de . I'm serious . Now i think you're gonna think that i'm like one of those bitches out there who bitch about their ex, but i don't . You should know me, together for 9 months and 2 days do you think i am this kind of girl ? I love you so much and you've helped me so much even as a friend . Do you really think i will do this just to ps you and get you into unneccesary troubles ? Think about please . I don't want to have any deep hatred of misunderstandings between us because of what she said . And i''ll also say i've never regretted being with you . Infact, i'm happy that we've been tgt . I just hope that you won't think the wrong way and start hating me for the rest of your life . If you're reading this, i hope you truly truly understand . Text me if you must or something, so that i won't have to let this incident keep haunting my mind . S O R R Y . . =/