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I was running today, my aim was to run finish the whole round of bedok reservoir without stopping.
The whole round would be about 4.8km, i did run most of it.
I ran from the starting to 2km stopped to drink water, then walked to 3km.
3km run all the way to the ending point, another 1.8 km.
I could have done it IF i din't stop and walk.
While running, i actually just plan to stop and walk, really too tiring alr.
However, i keep telling myself, i must and i have to finish this whole "race".
It is just like how i want to push myself to finish the race with God.
But i just realize something.
When i'm about to finish the race, i gave up, and walked.
It was afew cm more just to reach the ending point, and i gave up.
Why?
Because i had super bad stitches.
If we were to look at my spiritual walk, i'm just the same as what happened today.
I pushed myself, I convinced myself, I ALMOST did it, but i stopped.
Because why, pain.
= In my spiritual race, when i'm about to finish the race, i stopped and walked out because i found it too tiring, and because i allowed the devil to overtake me. And thats why i kept going in cycles. One minute on fire, another not.
And then i made up my mind.
No matter how far, how tiring, how painful every race will be, i will finish it up without giving up.
Even if i do not win prizes or whatever, at least i won victory :)
I finished the race, with God.