glutton glutton

2009-12-03T05:37:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday t0 me :)

2009-11-25T07:31:00.000-08:00

I was running today, my aim was to run finish the whole round of bedok reservoir without stopping.
The whole round would be about 4.8km, i did run most of it.
I ran from the starting to 2km stopped to drink water, then walked to 3km.
3km run all the way to the ending point, another 1.8 km.
I could have done it IF i din't stop and walk.
While running, i actually just plan to stop and walk, really too tiring alr.
However, i keep telling myself, i must and i have to finish this whole "race".
It is just like how i want to push myself to finish the race with God.
But i just realize something.
When i'm about to finish the race, i gave up, and walked.
It was afew cm more just to reach the ending point, and i gave up.
Why?
Because i had super bad stitches.
If we were to look at my spiritual walk, i'm just the same as what happened today.
I pushed myself, I convinced myself, I ALMOST did it, but i stopped.
Because why, pain.
= In my spiritual race, when i'm about to finish the race, i stopped and walked out because i found it too tiring, and because i allowed the devil to overtake me. And thats why i kept going in cycles. One minute on fire, another not.
And then i made up my mind.
No matter how far, how tiring, how painful every race will be, i will finish it up without giving up.
Even if i do not win prizes or whatever, at least i won victory :)
I finished the race, with God.

2009-11-19T17:45:00.000-08:00

Ok so what.

You don't care, we care of you so much for?

So what, we cut our lines off here now?

Ok, i don't mind, seeyou next year soon, Classmate.

2009-11-19T17:43:00.000-08:00

You Don't Own Me.

So stop trying to act like as though you do.

2009-11-19T17:41:00.000-08:00

2009-11-17T16:36:00.000-08:00

“ I'd hold you up to say to your mother, “This kid’s gonna be the best kid in the world. This kid’s gonna be somebody better than anybody I ever knew.” And you grew up good and wonderful. It was great just watching you, every day was like a privilege. Then the time came for you to be your own man and take on the world, and you did.

But somewhere along the line, you changed. You stopped being you. You let people stick a finger in your face and tell you you’re no good. And when things got hard, you started looking for something to blame, like a big shadow. Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place and I don’t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard ya hit. It’s about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward.

That’s how winning is done! Now if you know what you’re worth then go out and get what you’re worth. But ya gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain’t where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody! Cowards do that and that ain’t you! You’re better than that! I’m always gonna love you no matter what. No matter what happens. You’re the best thing in my life. But until you start believing in yourself, ya ain’t gonna have a life.

(via littlemiss)

2009-11-17T16:32:00.000-08:00

“ The way we live our days, is the way we live our lives.

—	Annie Dillard

“ I found out that the things that hurt us the most can become the fuel and the catalyst that propel us toward our destiny. It will either make you bitter or it will make you better.

— T.D. Jakes

“ The only difference between a good day and a bad day is your attitude.

— Dennis S. Brown

(via littlemiss)

2009-11-17T16:28:00.000-08:00

Infatuation is when you find somebody who is absolutely perfect. Love is when you realize that they aren’t and it doesn’t matter.

— Unknown (via littlemiss)

"I can’t help but remember everything. I mean, you see somebody and you think about all they’ve ever said and done. The good and the bad. It all comes back to you, and it feels so right and hurts so bad all at once."

— Unknown (via littlemiss)

"To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful."

— Bess Myerson (via littlemiss)

"The truth is, everyone you meet will hurt you at one point or another. You just need to decide who is worth the pain."

— Unknown (via littlemiss)

(metalmouth.tumblr.com)

2009-11-17T13:27:00.000-08:00

What the fuck much, x20194883925038483258309432749324324327849.
You're a fucking bitch ++++ slut.
Stop acting like as though WOW! YOU ARE FUCKING PRO :O !!!!!!!
I AM SO SHOCK MANNNNNN .
Fuck you bitch.
That time ask you play with us l4d you don't want you think its a lame + shitty game.
Somemore you say, " i don't like lan"
Fuck bitch, go die la slut.
Then when you go with YOUR FRIENDS ( as what you claim on the phone )
" WOW!! l4d IS SUCH A FUCKING FUN GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "
Wtf much you bloody slut.
So yas, khali, nat, talya and all of us not your friends la.
bitch.
_l_

2009-11-13T18:29:00.000-08:00

Fuck you

2009-10-24T18:18:00.000-07:00

Infatuations ;

no i am not interested in guys, guys are the worst creatures on Earth that cheats girls feelings badly,

Excluding the Almight Lord Jesus :)

Teach me how to love a guy and not a girl, teach me the meaning of love, show me the meaning of it .

2009-10-21T04:25:00.000-07:00

Christianity is not a religion but a relationship with God.

I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else. C. S. Lewis

2009-10-20T07:43:00.000-07:00

When your hands touches mine, i skipped a beat .

When your lips touches mine, i skipped twice a beat .

When you smile and look into my eyes, you stopped the beat .

If you call this Love, then show me some feeling ;

My hands only reached for yours, but you were never there .

I Loved You, but you never returned my love .

I Miss You, but you never turn to look at me, not even just a glance .

Because you love her,

Because i have no idea what you're thinking,

Because,

I just want you in my arms now, i want to be next to you forever ;

2009-10-19T20:36:00.000-07:00

I'll enjoy the ride, and never think of you again,

credits to: metalmouth.tumblr.com

2009-10-19T10:14:00.001-07:00

Thinking of these is nothing, without you.

Ever felt alone?

Ever want to have a partner?

Yes, i want you.

You to be my partner.

The moment you are gone, my heart searched everywhere for you.

But you don't seem very interested in me;

If you ever needed, you can talk to me.

Whenever you feel lost, you can count on me, i'll find your way.

I Love You Forever, Like You've Always, Together Will be.

Picture credits to: metalmouth.tumblr.com

2009-10-19T09:02:00.000-07:00

Give up,

it's a long road, so ?

2009-09-30T07:03:00.001-07:00

" Why try so hard trying to fit in when you are born to stand out ? "

- grumbleszxzxzxz -

Tmr is the starting of EOY, grrrrr . I last minute chionging ):

Howwwzzzzz !!!!! Hhahhahaha, okay JYJY Sonia :D

Trying to memorise the format for english now ):

disguise,

2009-09-25T08:19:00.000-07:00

" What's the point of respecting God when you don't respect your own body ? "

*sighs,

I was just pondering if i should get a tattoo .

Seriously, i badly want it because i think its cool and really nice to have a body art .

Your body will feel so .. not empty , you know .. HAHA .

Yea, but then Khalisah sort of woke me up ?

I thought she wanted to go with me put tattoo, but then i misinterpreted her .

Yupz, muslims cannot decorate their body unless they want to go to hell lorhz .

Then when she said about Hell, it sort of struck me ahz .

I felt bad, guilty, etc etc all sorts of feelings .

Then i remembered, our body is the temple of Christ, so if we tattoo/pierce isn't it decorating it ? If we decorate, then it wouldn't even be a temple anymore .

I felt that, if i go for the tattoo without thinking, i will regret & seriously, that could be my forever permanent mark that will be stuck with me forever, and that mark will be ( my disobedience, rebellions, mutiny ) against God .

Which, obviously i do not want to regret for the rest of my life and when one day when God see's me, instead of being happy, he starts to weep and tells me how great my life would be if i had been obedient towards him, and etc .

I want to see Jesus smiling at me and being proud of me, reaching out to thousands and thousands of people, obeying him, listen to his one and only voice ;

How great will that be :)

2009-09-24T05:49:00.000-07:00

Amber Liu, my forever girlfriend :D
HAHAHHAHAHAHAH . *coughs coughs, *winkswinks!! ;)))))

“ I should’ve known you’d bring me heartache, almost lovers always do. ”

- Meiyee tumblr:)

2009-09-23T04:02:00.000-07:00

i won't let go, because everything is nothing without you .

School, exams, EOY .

I really cannot wait for EOY, when i'll start dyeing and cutting my hair :)

Manicure & pedicure done, tsk .

First time i'm trying to be girly okz, now don't laugh .

Dk why, i miss the taste of cigar, shisha all D:

That's weird & funny, maybe because .. i feel far away from God .

Yup i guess so .

Why are people pretending to be someone whom they are not ?

Why are people being so hypocrite infront of someone they hate ?

What the heck are these people doing, goodness .

Tired,

Tired,

Tired,

Glad that i'm not shifted away from ChermaineLek :)
I think she's like the best shepppppyyy i have ! :)
Maybe if i get shifted to Rystine i won't mind larhz, but i'll still totally mizz her :))))
Without her nagging & preaches, i won't wake up onez ):

2009-09-21T07:25:00.000-07:00

Today, Library with Cherina, Claudia & Natz .
Super hillarious because we were sneaky and were often caught eating -.-''
Claudia was like "OH SHIT!" and i was just nice opened up my primary school tidbits wrapper .
THEN, as i was about to put into my mouth and munch, i looked up and ..

VA, VA, VOOOOOOOOOOOOOM .
There goes the Librarian staring @ me . ( ._. )
Zomgggg okz . HAHAHA .
That was the first time she caught, then 2nd was Claudia's lollipop .
Then, noise level, ( LOL LOL LOL , to the maxxxxxxxzzzz ! )
Stayed till 6 pluz and Cherina's mum sent us off to Parkway :)
Saw my shepherd & her, then started running away from them D:
LOL, super funny today ;D
Ate Pepperlunch thenz went to look for my new keyboardzzz :)
Headed home with mother after that ;)
Tmr school, IT project how ?
If she don't grade us i am going to get very very angry at you guys :@ !
Pray i will wake up tmr !

what about the outreach .

idk if i should even attend anm .

we're not needed, isn't it ?

*sighs,

2009-09-20T05:56:00.000-07:00

I desperately want a new keyboard && flute ):

Plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz !!

Service was great today:)

&& i wanna go SPCA soon to visit those kittyzxz !! :))))))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYSTINE TAN :D

MY HARRY POTTER ALARM CLOCK ! :))

MAY THE LORD BLESS YOU ALWAYZZZZZ !! ;D

AND YOU WILL BE A GREAT SHEPHERD ! :)

No Joke, HAHAHA .

I won't die if i am your sheep laz, was just kidding ^^

Seeyou next week service, LOOK FORWARD TO SEE YOUR CUSTOMIZED RAINBOW IPHONE OKZ OKZ !! ;))))))

Luvvvvvvvv youuuuuzzzzzzzz !!!!!!! :))))))

HAHHAHAHAHA, anyway this photo of you really makez me laugh . HAHAHAHAHAHHAAH!

2009-09-19T09:42:00.000-07:00

When everything's gone wrong, not going your way, what are you going to do ?

What am I going to do ?

What will the world see me as ?

Who, What, Why, How ?

hate hate hate

2009-08-13T07:34:00.000-07:00

Hiiiiiiiiii .
So long never blog ~~~
i'm blogging on my LJ btw :)))))))))))))
Kkkkkk go visit my LJ for updatessssssss
hahahahahhahahahahahahha :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))0
Annabel thanks for the crumpler :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))0
luv uuuuuuuuuuu !! :)))))))))))))) (L) .
*winkwinkwink!!!! ;))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
kk bye :))))))))))))))
http://theredlove07.livejournal.com :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

I'm Sorry .

2009-08-03T05:42:00.000-07:00

If you know who you are,
Read http://theredlove07.livejournal.com
I'm really Sorry .

Beautiful Saviour

2009-08-01T09:33:00.000-07:00

because i've decided to give up on you,

and because i've also decided to get my life on track with God .

Decisions, changes everything .

The choices i make, will make things different .

And my choice is, to give up on you :)

Yay, blogger finally can upload photo's :)

Lovelove! (L) .

Very long never blog already, quite alot to blog though D:

I feel, like i'm being dragged into the world again, which i don't want it to happen .

Finally, i've cut my hair, and i'm kind of satisfied with it though:)

Cheryl Lek's sermon was really good :)

Praise the Lord (L.) !

Tmr have Literature project, bake bake :D

But, going to have to miss service, this sucks ok ):

/Jiawei : As i've said, if you think using vulgarities against me scares me then go ahead . Because i am not scared at all . What's with all these gang gang thing . Very cool is it ? So cool then go make up your own chicky club gang la, why want call down your gang here and there ? If you're really not happy with me, i'll wait for you outside my school with the people involved .

Maybe, i'm not literally being involve, but hey you look here . I get myself involve because i cannot stand your best brother, Nathaniel bullying Chermine alright . I know you know what i'm trying to point out because you are also standing up for your own brother because you think we are ganging up on him . Do you see the picture ? Please, view it at a different point of view . Instead, of condemning others and contradicting everything that you assume alright .

/Nathaniel : Same applies to you . If you're seriously not happy with me and wants to settle by calling your gang, go ahead . I will wait for you outside my school, seriously .

And, y'know if you really want to settle and clarify everything, you should come down yourself .

If not, in general term, you're seriously a real coward :)

Calling your bunch of brothers or gang doesn't scare me because right, in the end who wins ? Obviously if you use common sense and logic, i will .

Why ? Is that a question that bugs you ?

I'll tell you why .

Because, Singapore law it states that whoever is caught being seen with a bunch of people approximately more then 7 is counted as an illegal gang .

So right, if you want come find me & Chermine and its only 2 of us vs you'll right .

Then passerby's capture everything send to police and all, who broke the law ? You or Me ? :)

Think twice before you act, because when you say i'm childish, look at how you're reacting to problems and how you are handling it yea .

If in the first place you did not like Chermine, then why you bothered to stead with her ?

Then behind her back you talk bad about her and flirt with other girls ?

Seriously, think before you say anything .

turn your eyes from those who have hurt you,
and to the ones who saved you .

Happy Birthday :)

2009-07-25T09:14:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Levon Lim :D !

Hey ! Let's forget all the past and our grudges against each other ?

Sounds Great ? Cause, i don't want to live my life with hatred/grudges against someone though .

Its kind off weird like we used to be tgt and now we're enemies -.-

So yup, hope we're friends or at least acquaintance yea :D

Today, Cell was indescribable incredible to the max :)

I just needed that breakthrough, and what Madel preached was what i really needed .

I just needed to cry out to the Lord Jesus .

I just needed the annointings .

If you were to ask me " Sonia, would you choose to give up your journey with God and go back to whom you are previously before accepting Christ ? "

I would straight away give you a straight NO NO .

Why would i want to be stupid to sin against Jesus again ?

Why would i want to risk my life getting judge by God and be thrown to Hell ?

Why would i want to destroy my own future and plans that God have created for me ?

Its absolutely insane for me to do so .

God, is the only God that fills what i need .

I don't need any guy/man's love to fill .

Even if i do get one, how much can he fill the love i really need ?

Yes, i won't feel alone because he will be there to text/call me 24/7 or such .

But, when i lie on the bed, i would always have this hole in my heart .

This feeling that no one can ever give me except for God .

I seriously, can't imagine life without you .

1 John 3:16

This is how we know what love is:

Jesus Christ laid down his life for us.

And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers.

deeper in love

2009-07-24T09:06:00.000-07:00

Delirioustouch is opening to their first collection :D !

Yayyyyy, hahahahhaa finally :)

Visit visit and support kk .

The model hot right, of course laaa . Hahhaa *wink wink!

TOMORROW CELLLL YAY :D

TOMORROW HILLSONG CONCERT YAYYYYYYY !

Today, fellowship with Chermaine & Zoe .

Talk about it more maybe tmr, cause need to upload pictures for delirioustouch :D

same side of the moon .

2009-07-23T05:52:00.001-07:00

I'm not talking to you Claire Tan Yi Xuan .

wait one month later on the 23 August then i'll resume talking to you . I'm serious !

Woke up as usual, bathe, went to school .

Got scolded by English teacher D:

Suckszxz man, haha .

Zuo wen CA sure going to fail like mad . HA .

stupid claire, curse you la ! cause of you i failing ):

Yea yea, yada yada ~

I suck at Math big time, i hate linear graphs & algebra .

Anyone care to teach me ? HA .

I don't think annyone would cause they need ALOT of patience cause i suck to the max . Heh .

I think Joan Chen likes Claire Tan .

Oh well, they're the " honey baby cumming little sweetie pie's " HAHAHA .

Claire Tan thinks i don't dare not to talk to her for a month .

I'll prove to you big time !

I'm not going to sms you, talk to you, look at you, or even write a note to you .

If not i'll have to treat the stupid fat pig Joan sake sushi y'know .

Hahahhahahahaha, if want me forgive you then you come kowtow to me . HAHAH . ( joke ah )

My cca clash ._.

Now i have 4 days in one week of cca . AH ~~

Today i went half half for both cca's .

Dance then Badminton :)

After that went off to Siglap deposit money, eat Cafe Cartel and then cab home :)

Now, i need to do finish all my homework, super alot ):

Hais, okay i should get going now :D

Goooooodbye !(:

Birthday Song .

2009-07-22T09:41:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARVEN KER :D

sorry for the late wish though, blogger got problem earlier on ):

Happy Birthday, my friend

Here's to all the years we've shared together

All the fun we've had

You're such a blessing

Such a joy in my life

May the good Lord bless you

And may all your dreams come true

- Corrine May, The Birthday Song dedicated to you :)

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Today, woke up super late 7AM ! Oh my goodness right .

Lucky its raining heavily so got excuse :D

Woke up, chiong bathe etc etc then Joan came to pick me up with cab and send me to school .

Ha, pathetic right .

My school is just a few blocks away but Joan has to come pick me up .

Cause i no umbrella ! Hahha, and today got Eclipse !

Cool you know ! Haha .

Yup, after school, went ICC and eat with Gwen & Annabel :)

stop brooding over her already Annabel, if she is not meant for you then don't go for her .

there are other better looking bungs then her ( LOL, sorry "her" ) Hahhaha .

but yea, i'm stating the facts .

try going for the upper secondary one, V. HOT ! HAHAH .

okay ? (: we'll always be here for you .

Went back to school after ICC and slack slack, talk talk .

Then saw the gross girl, Claire Tan Yi Xuan . Hahhaha .

Talking about her really make me laugh .

At the times where she shared with us her story of " guaikia-ness & never gone arcade in her whole life before only once with her sister when she was v. young . "

Hahhaa, oh man, seriously .

Get to know this idiot, hahahaha .

I found out something that really hurt me ; :/

Like what have i done ?

I din't provoke her, i din't say anything bout her, then she is angry at me .

I'm not sure if she hates me ):

I've never intended to steal her away from you .

I don't know what i've done wrong, but please listen out to me will you ?

You know that she needs you by her side, you're her best friend !

Have you ever spare a thought for her before throwing your anger ?

Have you ever thought what seriously went wrong before contridicting everything ?

Have you ever tried to solve the problems with us instead of ignoring all of us ?

Have you ever thought of salvaging the friendship with her ?

Have you ever think of how much she needs you by her side as a friend ?

Eight years, and you intend to give up on the friendship over childish stuff ?

Hey, i've got thousand and million words to say to you, i want you to get the picture right .

I don't want you to just continue carrying this thought that, she doesn't care about you anymore, cause she has new close friends like me and her . And, me & her is stealing her away from you . If you're reading this i know you know whom i'm referring to . I've only treated her as a normal friend, though we're close but our friendship can never compare to hers and yours . You get it ?

I don't want to see all of us falling out of the circle of friends .

One by one leaving without a word because we don't get the picture right .

Do you know how much all of us yearn for you back with us instead of going with those people ?

Once a member within us leaves, the whole group scatters .

Please talk to her, and please try and understand what i'm trying to do here .

Instead of thinking i'm going to steal her away :(

I hope to see you soon back, With Us .

Indescribable ♥.

2009-07-21T08:22:00.000-07:00

Today did nothing but to slack at home and stone with the computer .
Mc mc for 2 days :D
Darn, tmr need go schoool .
I 2 days never go school already, tskkkkkkkk .
Miss me or not ? HAHAHAH, and my nonsense .
Hahha :DD
Went to eat Thai Express with mother and then come home ^^
Mummy ♥ put $$ inside my bank account .
YAYYYYYYYY .
I LOVE YOU MOTHERRRRRRR ! ♥
My mummy is the best mom on earth ! :D

Chermine you're chio ;D

2009-07-20T05:34:00.000-07:00

Chermine Guay Wan Yeeeeeeee ;D
You're chio to the max ok :D
Stop saying you're not .
Only chio people have boyf, so you have one you are chio :D
Hahaha, not like me uh .
Boyf don't have, Girlf also don't have :(
So means i super buang, you got it ?
Ha, Last Long babe ! (L.)

O M G !

2009-07-20T05:06:00.001-07:00

O M G .

HAHAHHAA, those people who've been looking for answers of her & her whether they stead, i think they did . HA .

Cause, that was proveee .

Hahah, butbut idk whether true or joke one ._.

Ha ! BUT STILL .

True Repentence .

2009-07-19T06:51:00.000-07:00

" He that speaketh in an unknown tongue edifieth himself; but he that prophesieth edifieth the church. "

Today's service was good :)

Altar call, i responeded and i felt good after that .

Class 101 was even better :)

Chapter 3 : Get Ready To Live ! :D

Chapter 4 : Baptism of the Holy Spirit :)

Then, cell lunch @ Hua Li Xuan .

Ha, after lunch followed Claudia, Sueyuan, Avis & Chilli (JunLin) for Fellowship ;D

Hahahhhaha, and now back home .

Worrying about :

#1 - Homework, NOT DONEEE at all .

#2 - Bad bad crampszxz, don't tell me my period is coming :(

#3 - Uniform not washed/iron ! (LOL !!)

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY :)

I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH .

HOW'RE YOU !

YOU DID NOT COME INTO MY DREAM :(

I miss the days when we have dinner tgt and cutting cake .

Taking photos and all .

Wished those days will happen again .

(L)ove you so much, (x3)

Desert Song .

2009-07-18T07:32:00.000-07:00

" All of my life in every season You are still God I have a reason to sing I have a reason to worship . "

All i did today was stay at home .
Din't turn up for cell because got locked in the house, oh wow .
Supposed to go Joan Chen's house then go Parkway or something then last minute she say she not free and cannot go out, then go her house for what ? -.-
Audition-ed with Natalie, Webcam with Natalie, Msn with people, blog hop and'll .
(Boringtothemax.com.sg) pleasezxz .
I'm thinking if i should continue my walk with God .
And i know i should, because he is the only one whom can pull me through every tough times .
Oh God, please tell me what to do .
You must be wondering ; since i know i should why do i even bother thinking ?
Because of some personal reasons and i don't wish to say it to anyone, cause i know no one will help . Like v. lame tell them then they cannot do anything might as well don't tell -.-
Kay, whatever i'm going to audi because i'm (sianszxztothemax.sg) ok .

Lost but was found .

2009-07-17T09:29:00.000-07:00

Luke 14:1-35 .

Today never go school and then went for Annabel's chalet .

Was quite pissed off cause of some things happen along the way .

So yea, but everything was solved and all .

Today is supposed to be a happy day but in the end, everything turned out wrong .

How great . :/

Firstly the arguements between me & Annabel and sort of Khalisah .

Then something happened to Khailisah, and we were all so worried for her .

Then Gwendolyn emo emo ._. then like she run away and stuff, so we had to run after her .

Like from bus stop to pasir ris reserve park then downtown then chalet then ehub ._.

Tiring y'know . However we don't blame her because she felt depressed uh .

And Gwen, you must know this .

" You Are Never Alone "

We all care for you thats why we ran after you, and thats why i screamed at you .

We care for you untill we had to send you to your doorstep .

So please, don't feel like a lost sheep :(

I don't want you to think no one loves you, and i know saying this won't help but .

Jesus and all of us loves you .

Khalisah, i hope you're alright now .

We din't mean to hurt you, is just that we thought you were joking .

And please forgive us and not like, heck us cause you think we abandoned you :(

Yasmyn was super sad, cause its like first time in history you'll "fight" and ignore .

Cheer up pleasee .

You know we'll always be here for you .

See you soon on Monday and please be back to whom you are again :)

Thanks to Talya & her family for sending me up to my house :D

Tomorrow Sabby is preaching .

I cannot miss cell :)

Yay, get to see airpork again :D

Hahah, okay i'm bushed .

Goodnight :)

Edits .

Joan chen wants me to blog about her .

Okay here it goes .

I think you are a big breasted women .

And squashing me in the car is so unglam (LOL!)

Today running after Gwen, got lose some weight ? (HAHA!)

Okay, go sms your Azel la, don't disturb me .

Only know how to scared scared of ghost . (LOL!!)

And please learn some table manners you stupid ahbeng -.-

Happy i blog about you ? Ok, good .

BYE . (idiottothemax.sg)

it was all for love.

2009-07-15T06:25:00.001-07:00

Primary Six yo ._.

Alright, there's really nothing much to blog except for "reviving" this pathetic blog .

Uh huh, i din't go school today cause overslept and din't want to .

Now, i am stuck with 3 essays and has to handed up by tmr, IT notebook & hw, cina stuffs for cina teacher, literature essay, geography activity book, science, and etc .

Oh man, how am i going to finish all these by tonight ?

And i'm not even starting it yet, tskkkkk .

Cause, currenty i'm over at Nat's with Gen . Cause she's staying over till Friday .

She's so .. that i have no words to describe her -.-

She's just behind me and she asks me to msn her . Wth ._.

Okay, whatever goodbye :)

Luke 14:25-35 :

If anyone comes to me and does not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and sisters—yes, even his own life—he cannot be my disciple. And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple.

2009-07-14T07:47:00.000-07:00

Class Photo @ Nature Park Forest :D

School was rather, boring .

Had I.T lessons and got caught for surfing the net and all .

Like -.-'' so had to stand and etc etc .

Whatever man, now i have to like what give the teacher my journal tmr .

Super sian, grrrr .

After that went for some field trip, fun, indescribable, awesome, interesting but eww also :)

Ants everywhere, how sick !

Went back around 6+ to school, went with partly half the class for dinner @ macs .

I ps-ed myself by shouting Khalisah's name, (sorry) .

Then Macs became quiet for moments cause they stared at me ._.

I hope they won't complain :(

Went Nat's then her mum sent me home :) (thanks) .

Now blogging, d&t portfolio, sian and alot . (How) !

John 8:7 ;

if any of you is without sin,let him be the first to throw a stone at her .
if you have confidence and conviction in what you're saying, you dont have to worry who throws stone at you .

2009-07-13T06:38:00.000-07:00

Changed blogskin & blog url :)

Relink yo ;D

Today's outreach was fun :D

Lunch @ Swensonszxz :)

2009-06-28T06:01:00.000-07:00

I believe everything and anything happens for a reason and not just coincidence .
Before you were born, your life was already planned by God .
Whether or not, if you're poor, rich, educated, not educated and etc etc, its all planned by God .
Before you knew about God's exist, he already knew your exist from the start .
Outreach, is going to be strict from today onwards .
I agree with Chermaine, we don't want a dead outreach and we don't want people coming to outreach just for the sake of coming, if like that what for come ?
And, now we have 3 rules :)
1. If you want to be part of the outreach, you better stay away from secular music .
If you think you can't give up yet, then don't come, because we don't want our outreach to be emotional by secular music . But we want to be emotionally joyful for Praise & Worship .
2. We don't want to have to hear gossips and murmurings of others because its super immature .
3. i forgot already leh -.- shucks . LOL . ask Sueyuan/Chermaine:) hahhaha .
Okay so yea, anyway i'm here to blog for some of you and i really want you to understand .
Firstly, coming to church is not just another social group for you ok .
Cell groups and Zone is not another typical social group of yours .
Church, is a place where you cry out for God, worship and honour him .
And, please don't because of like, friends and'll from church that offended you or made you unhappy then you backslide and shun away .
Hey, look . Church is not your arcade leh, is not a hotel also .
Is not when you want go worship then you go worship, no mood or anything happens along the way then you don't want to go etc etc .
Even if you're some loner in Church, it doesn't matter because Church is not like as if you go there for company of friends and stuff .
And you were never alone from the start, God is always with you .
So what if you think you're alone in Church ?
Praise and Worship and Honour God as usual la, why sian sian just because you think you're alone ?
Hello ? Get this right, you go Church is to praise, worship, honour and encounter God isn't it ?
Then, why should you be thinking so much in the first place and hesitate whether or not to go ?
If you're a true fan of Jesus, you'll never keep silent, if you're a true fan of Jesus you will not hesitate whether of not to go .
And, when Sabby said she was utterly disgusted by Genres just standing there and *worshipping* God, it really gross her out . I feel the same too . Like, wth ? You want to *worship* in that way right, might as well don't come la .
And don't because of your personal emotions you pull the whole atmosphere down .
Please la, people out there really think what you are saying by you're a true fan of God, you worship him and you love him .
Untill you're really sure what you're saying then you acknowledge it k .
If not, don't . Cause its utterly disgusting .

2009-06-26T11:40:00.001-07:00

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2009-06-24T07:53:00.000-07:00

Benefit of the Cross .

Jesus told this parable, using it as a teaching tool to get across a great truth. In the parable, we see the benefit to man clearly — and yet we also see the benefit to God. You see, the parable of the prodigal son is not only about forgiveness of a lost man. Even more so, it is about the delight of the father who runs after him.

You know the story. A young man took his portion of his father’s inheritance and squandered it on riotous living. He ended up broken, ruined in health and spirit, and at his lowest point he decided to return to his father. Scripture tells us, “He arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him” (Luke 15:20).

Note that nothing hindered this father’s forgiveness of the young man. There was nothing this boy had to do — not even to confess his sins — because the father had already made provision for reconciliation. Indeed, it happened all by the father’s initiative: he ran to his son and embraced him as soon as he saw the boy coming up the road. The truth is, forgiveness is never a problem for any loving father. Like-wise, it’s never a problem with our heavenly Father when he sees a repentant child.

So forgiveness simply is not the issue in this parable. In fact, Jesus makes it clear that it wasn’t enough for this prodigal merely to be forgiven. The father didn’t embrace his son just to forgive him and let him go his way. No, that father yearned for more than just his son’s restoration. He wanted his child’s company, his presence, and communion .

Even though the prodigal was forgiven and in favor once more, he still wasn’t settled in his father’s house. Only then would the father be satisfied, his joy fulfilled when his son was brought into his company. That is the issue in this parable.

In the father’s eyes, the old boy was dead. That son was out of his thoughts completely. Now, in the father’s eyes, this son who had returned home was a new man. And his past would never be brought up again. The father was saying, in essence: “As far as I’m concerned, the old you is dead. Now, walk with me as a new man. That is my estimation of you. There is no need for you to live under guilt. Don’t keep talking about your sin, your unworthiness. The sin problem is settled. Now, come boldly into my presence and partake of my mercy and grace. I delight in you!”

- David Wilkerson :)

2009-06-24T00:04:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST MUMMYYYYY (L) ! :D

Motherrrrr, you're important to me . Very :)
Other then Ariane, i only have you & her as my kins .
Mother, you're the greatest mum on earth :)
If there was a next life, i would want you as my mother and be my mother
forever ;D
You're such a great mom that no one can replace you in my heart .
You're such a great mom that i would want to look you up as a noble
heroeine ;)
Despite whatever difficulties or circumstances you've got to go through,
you'll always pull through everything, because you want to bring the best for me
& Ariane .
If i ever meet a genie or any other magical people that would love to give
me 3 wishes, i would wish for, 1 : You&Dad being happily ever after :) 2 :
All 4 of us will standby each other and no matter who falls, we'll always pick
them up tgt as a family :) 3 : I want to be your child again and have a sister
whom is Ariane :)
Mummy, i want to apologise whatever hurt i have done to make you unhappy or
angry .
I'm sorry .

Gah, today is outreachhhh .

Sorry Chermaine for backing out on you :(

2009-06-22T09:43:00.000-07:00

Colossians 3:14-25

And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in
perfect unity.

Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body
you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in
you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing
psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. And
whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord
Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

Met my dinner date today @ Cartel :)
Told my dinner date everything :)
Before that was out with Natalie & Talya, then i went to cut my hair :)
Talya looks like an angmoh ahlian, hahahahaha .
Cause her mother made her cut, LOL .
K, byebye outreach on Wed :)

2009-06-22T00:04:00.000-07:00

A fatherless child is a child that needs extra love.
I give them all I got with the help of the lord above.
A fatherless child can grow up to be a great man,
As long as they place their fate in the Lord's hand.

-Ida D. Mcknight .

Angels were falling for you did not see
They fell from the heavens with their halos and white wings
the tears and cries for your father to come wipe your tears
for he had none no more pain or suffering as he did the pain and agony
is how he lived he looketh down on you with his smile so bright
he knows how you are feeling and soon holds you tight look to the heavens
for you will see your father rewarded with his halos and white wings
you are special to have a father as you did happiness and laughter
he was your best friend be grateful for the time you had and always speak
of him
talk about the good times and the memories shared within
he can hear your voice and see you
that is all he can do close your eyes
and speak of him for your daddy loves you too .

- Christine A. Cooper .

I'm sorry heavenly Father
For all that I've done,
I didn't think it was wrong
I guess I was having to much fun,
Please take away my sins
For I will pray every night,
Please help me stop doing wrong
And help make it right,
I've got my whole life ahead of me
Please help me make the right choices,
I trust you to show me the way
And get rid of all these horrible voices,
Those voices in my head
They just wont go away,
They tell me to do bad
Or the prices I will have to pay,
Please help me Lord
Stay in control,
Please don't let Satan
Take over my soul,
I love you so much Lord
Just please forgive my sins,
Help me be a better person
All the way to the end.

- Andrea .

Dad, this is for you .
I know you've always loved me because i'm your child .
Maybe, the way that you care and show me your love is different .
And maybe, that made me hate you .
But, i realised everything when you left the world without a word to me .
I begun regretting all the things i have done .
Throwing tamtrums at you, going home late and lie to you just because i
din't want to see you, not wanting to visit you when you're admitted to the
hospital because i hated you and thinking it served you right and not even
bothering to give you a call .
Dad, i'm really sorry, and i really really miss you .
The times when you gave me a warm hug when i needed one, the times where
you hit me for bad results and made me so frighten that i want to do better the
next time, and when you knew that i worked hard for my exams but couldn't get
the results you wanted, you just encouraged me .
The times where we go out as a family together every Sunday for family
dinner/lunch .
Shop together and laugh together .
The times where we celebrated your birthday, father's day, mum's birthday,
mother's day, my birthday, my sister's birthday, chinese new year, christmas,
and many others .
Though missing all those moments now cannot salvage everything because you're gone . Our family state has also changed, now, in the house when everyone is out
except for me, I feel lonely, i feel so weird being the only one at home . Because there's no noise at all .
Dad, even when you're gone i just want you to know how much i yearn to tell
you that i love you.
How much i wish you were here, and i don't mind you scolding, hitting and
even blaming me .
However, everything is too late .
Dad, i hope you're resting well in the immortal world, and i know you've
never accepted Christ into your life . Maybe so you did, but i know God will be
there protecting you and watching over you for me . I'm sorry to have let you
down because i've accepted Christ and now attending Church, but you must know
how much happier i am now because God has filled me with all the love i needed .
Now, i don't need to depend on any other guy for love, because i know there's a
God up there loving me unconditionally . I hope you accept and understand this
if you're secretly watching over us, and that applies to jie too, she gave her
life to Christ and i know you knew that.
Whatever it is, daddy, Happy Father's Day and may God bless you always :)
I hope its not too late to wish you, and i'm sorry for not visiting you yesterday .
ILoveYou (L).

2009-06-20T11:12:00.000-07:00

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2009-06-20T09:32:00.000-07:00

It’s not okay that you hurt me, but I am okay. I deserve more, and I know that
now. And maybe you knew that inside, that you couldn’t give me that yet. So you
set me free. We would’ve been so great, you would never have wished for more
than I would’ve given you. But you never gave it a chance. So now you’ll never
know what could’ve been. Maybe someday you’ll regret it, maybe someday you’ll
think it was the best decision you ever made, but maybe someday you’ll see me
walking, smiling and happy, alongside someone who’s also smiling and happy
because he has my heart. Maybe then you’ll stop and realize what you’re missing,
because someday, someone is going to thank you for letting me go .

" Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It
means nothing. It still doesn’t mean anything. What you feel only matters to
you. It’s what you do to the people you say you love, that’s what matters. It’s
the only thing that counts. "

" My affections and wishes have not changed, but one word from you will silence
me forever. If, however, your feelings have changed, I will have to tell you:
you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. I never
wish to be parted from you from this day on. "

" Love is when you shed a tear and still want him, it’s when he ignores you
and you still love him, it’s when he loves another girl but you still smile and
say I’m happy for you, when all you really do is cry. "
- metalmouth.tumblr, meiyee's post:)

2009-06-20T09:20:00.000-07:00

" When you judge someone, you’re judging
yourself. When you understand the true beauty of someone, then you’ll find love, until you understand that, you’ll never find true love and just keep hopping from appearance to appearance. "

L4D today with Meiyee :)

Passed the whole death toll once again(:

Then, played Survival ;D

And headed home .

I hope your apology comes from your heart and its sincere and not just a
word that you don't mean it at all and you said it for the sake of saying it .

2009-06-20T03:08:00.000-07:00

This time, This place

Misused, Mistakes

Too long, Too late

Who was I to make you wait

Just one chance
Just one breath

Just in case there's just one left'

Cause you know,you know, you know

That I love you

I have loved you all along

And I miss you

Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you'll be with me

and you'll never go

Stop breathing if

I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask

Last chance for one last dance

'Cause with you, I'd withstand

All of hell to hold your hand

I'd give it allI'd give for us

Give anything but I won't give up

I'm not leaving you anymore, and don't let me go (L).

2009-06-19T09:17:00.000-07:00

Cell Fellowship & Dinner @ Cheryl,Chermaine,Cherina Lek's .
Thank you Avis & Sueyuan for the dinner :)
I made sushi today lor, nice nice one ^^
HAHAHHA, but the guys spoil it by dipping it into tom yum :@
Tomorrow Cell, prayer meeting should i turn up ?

yea thanks for rubbing it in .
i only wanted opinions but instead i got some other responds from you .
wth, i'm fucking stress ok .
look, i even feel like not going for cell and service already .
for fuck, zzz .
for no reason i get scoldings from people .
fuck la, whatever .
Bye .

2009-06-19T02:06:00.000-07:00

Should i move to Livejournal ?

Hahhaha, i'm kinda bored of blog D:

I think LJ is kewlszxz leh .

Hahhahahahah, should i should i ? :D

2009-06-18T08:46:00.000-07:00

These few days, i don't feel spiritually fed .
And i've been playing lan too much, i'm not concentrating on my spiritual battle /:
Worst, i'm getting back all my vulgarities again, why ?
I don't want, i don't like and i'm starting to hear secular music again .
What is happening to me ? Does this mean i've given up on my spiritual battle ?
And, i'm getting back to my ahlian days again ..
I don't want and i don't like ..
I din't even do corporate prayer just now .
What's happening to me /:

SONIA GOH JIAYI , CAN YOU PLEASE WAKE UP !?
STOP LETTING THE DEVIL'S TEMPTATIONS TO OVERTAKE YOU !
REMEMBER WHAT YOU SAID ?!
YOU SAID NO MATTER WHAT YOU WANT TO BEAT THE DEVIL DOWN .
YOU DON'T WANT TO LOSE, YOU WANT TO WIN HIM !
YOU WANT TO BE A HERIONE AND AWAIT THE RESULTS OF REVIVAL .
YOU ARE HUNGRY FOR GOD, NOW WHAT IS HAPPENING TO YOU !
WAKE UP ! WAKE UP ! WAKE UP !

someone please slap me if this is a dream .
and i almost died today, and God saved my life .
If it wasn't that one more step forward, that glass thing from the ceiling would have just crashed me . God, please help me continue and never give up on my spiritual journey :(

Everyone makes mistakes, stop blaming yourself .
The post maybe for you, but thats because i want to say everything out .
I want you to become a better person, i want you to be who you are and not pretending to be others . I don't want you to be living in the shadows of people .
You're not this way, you're a far way better person .
I know you're hurt by the post, but i really hope you get what i meant .
And what others meant and what they're trying to point out to you and reach out to you .
Blogging that post out is the only way to get your attention .
Sorry, if you find it harsh .
Enjoyed today's L4D ? :D
Hahahahaha, you do not suck ok :)

2009-06-15T10:05:00.000-07:00

Hey girl, look here alright .

I'm not trying to condemn you or anything you okay, but i really got to tick you off manszx .

Quit being immature, you're already 14 years old .

A Teenager, don't you know how to grow up ? You're not 4 years old ok .

Look, people doesn't want to step you, you just think it that way .

People may have the same views of lifestyles and whatever as you, and this doesn't mean that they step you . Who in the world wants to step you ? If they're stepping you, please, means you're stepping others . Because, when they step you, you step others . You get it yo ?

Yea, really seriously, do some self reflection .

I'm not going to reveal who you are in my blog .

I play L4D is because Meiyee taught me how to play and so i found it fun .

FYI, MEIYEE DID NOT STEP YOU ALRIGHT :)

Another thing, i want to pierce labret doesn't mean i step you .

Your english fail or you just plainly don't get what i meant ?

I said, I WANT TO, but i din't say I'M GOING TO .

When i want to, doesn't mean i am going to pierce right ?

So whats with you telling other people about me being a big poser because i want to step you ?

Oh my goodness, -.-'' you're a super laughing stock manszx .

If i want to step you right, i might as well step Chantelle & Cybelle or Xiaxue, Dawn Yang etc ?

They are WAYY PRETTIER then you, WAYY STYLISH then you, WAYY SLIMMER then you .

Hhahaa. seriously, thinking of whatever you said right, make me want to laugh out loud ;)

Oh, if you're saying i step you, so means you step me for playing Audition, DDR, ParaPara and other stuffs la ? LOL .

You say Natalie is not that kind of girl that fits high waisted skirts and all, then what makes you think you fit ? -.-''

You say Talya looks so ugly like and old grandma, then what makes you think you're prettier then her ?

Anyway, honestly speaking, people have said Talya is way prettier and way hotter then you .

Compared to her, you're just one girl no one will take notice of .

You're just jealous of people whom are prettier then you and skinnier then you .

You're just jealous of people when they are noticed by guys and you're not .

You're just jealous of people because the guys you like, don't like you back and like your friends .

And when the guys do like you back, maybe out of pity they date you or maybe they think you're too desperate and you'll go all crazy about them .

You'll be talking your day off about them, and guess what .

YOUR FRIENDS & I DON'T ENJOY IT . ITS ANNOYING . ITS STUPID . IT SOUNDS LIKE AS THOUGH YOU'RE JUST SOME DESPO . YOU GET IT ? Zzzz .

You don't believe ah ? Ask lor, tsk .

Sorry for being so direct, because i really cannot stand you anymore .

You make use of your friends for example, Natalie, Me, Meiyee .

You make use of us to be your company when you have no one to go out with or whatever .

You think we're your entertainer when you're bored, we're not your servants .

And, on one reminder, without Her, you're nothing .

Seriously nothing, want to bet ?

Lets bet that one day your friendship with her broke off, you'll just be some pathetic loner in class and obviously outside too .

Then you'll start to call your "loser" friends .

You think that we're losers, isn't it ?

You think that you're cool .

Look, reflect and have some self respect .

Respect others and they'll respect you .

Calling gang to beat me up after you read this post won't help .

Because, when the news break out, you'll stand win a big trophy of being the worst loser in the world :)

Oh, Meiyee is not lousy @ L4D .

She is WAY BETTER then you :)

So is Natalie, and me ? I suck, and i'm learning and practicing .

STOP DELUDING OTHERS AND LOOKING DOWN ON THEM .

Bye . :)

2009-06-14T18:26:00.000-07:00

i want to be a Heroine and save everyone from the enemy and awaits the results of Revival .

1 Samuel 14:1

Now it came to pass upon a day, that Jonathan the son of Saul said unto the young man that bare his armor, Come, and let us go over to the Philistines' garrison, that is on the other side. But he told not his father .

- A Hero does not wait to be told what to do .
- A Hero doesn't take the easier way out .
People will not care, unless they know how much we care for them .
- Heroes move Heaven .
- Heroes inspire others to come out of hiding .

Stop playing with the cardboard box, and start what you are told to do .

2009-06-11T10:26:00.000-07:00

Yerterday, went to Changi Village Chalet for the Zone bbq :)

Guys served us, but i hate the mosquitos there :(

How can you guys survive there without itching ! OMG -.-''

Hhahaha, Talya & I ate alot of stingray ! :D

I bothered the guys like crazy for stingray . Hahahahhahahaha .

Super funny and fun yesterday :)

Then had performance from the guys .

Hahhaha, Junlin, your ass dance manszxz -.-

Hahhahaha, tsk tsk then today was KC Outreach outing :)

Went cycling/rollerblading @ EastCoast .

With Sueyuan, Chermaine, Sophia, Natalie, Cheryl Khoo, Annabelle Chow, Natasha, Syaza, Jaklyn, Nicole, and alot of the rest .

Fun day :)

Then after that Natalie & I went to meet Meiyee for Lan @ Katong .

We played L4D for 2 hours straight .

Hahahhaa, so famished after playing ah i tell you .

So addictiveeeeeeeeeezxz ! :D

Okk, then Antonette came ( sorry if name spelled wrongly ) we headed off to Meiyee's house to watch movie . Shannon came over and we watch Xmen Wolverine .

Ordered Macs for supper, then watch finish Natalie's mum came to pick us .

But we had to run after the car D:

K, i'm going to watch my show now .

I think i am going on HIATUS for my blog, i feel lazy to blog D:

Bye .

OHOH, I AM DOING ICE BREAKERS ON SATURDAYYYYYYYYYYY ;DDDDDD

COME FOR CELL PLEASEEEEEEE :D

2009-06-09T00:56:00.000-07:00

Ouchhhhh, muscle aches :(
Yesterday training was a torture manszxz .
Run 10 rounds, then need play high ball, then coach not happy with me . ( idiot . )
Whatever manszxz, hope they change coach soon .
Okk, then after training i went Parkway to eat chicken rice with Talya :)
Then met Cheryl Khoo, and waited for Chermaine Lek for Bible Study .
Went Berrylite for Bible Study, then at 3 we went off to meet the others @ KC bus stop .
Cheryl Lek, as usual was late . ( hahahahahha . )
Samantha, Taferine, Cheryl Lek, Chermaine, Jessica, Talya, Sasha, Nicole Clara and Cheryl Khoo boarded bus 16 to Kallang Leisure for Ice Skating ;)
Met Claudia and Shannon, and went off for Ice skating .
Super fun i tell you ! Hahha, we played tag ! And i fell alot of times :( But nice la when fall . HA !
My first fall was because of CLAUDIA LIM !
She sat in the middle of somewhere and i tried to save her by not letting the ice skates to hit her back and so i lifted my leg to move but in the end it was too high so i fell backwards and fell with both my legs sliding ok . So unglam -.-''
Took many many photos with them ;D
Guys, you're missing out so much ah ! HAHAH .
Then went to eat, then take bus go Ice cream chef .
What a tiring day, oh and Rystine came for Ice cream chef .
Then mother came pick me up cause i was too tired .
Went home and immediately fell on my bed and sleep .
Woke up @ 1250 cause received messages and so i read .
Read Junlin's and was like shock cause Kimsiong and Johnny fought .
D: , somemore is Johnny's birthday . ):
Then they went around finding Kimsiong, and so i got worried and called Kimsiong .
Wlao, then i realised it was actually planned out . HAHAHHAH .
Actually KS went to buy dinner & dessert for them . Hahhahahahah .
Then i had to participate in tricking Junlin and the rest .
Hahhaha, SORRY JUNLIN !
Soccer today, and i'm still waiting for Cheryl Lek/ Rystine's call . Hahahhah .

2009-06-07T07:37:00.000-07:00

Today i went for Service ! :)

I am very very happyyyyyy, hahahahhaa .

Cause i get to pray for school revival, salvation and others ;)

Then had Class after Service .

YEON JUNLIN, YOU CAME TODAY . YOU ARE SO HAPPENING ! HAHAHA !

Our cell 2.2 went over to Katong Shopping Centre to eat :)

Actually ah, not really eat leh, no one ate -.-

Only sat and crap and talk talk talk . HAHHAHA .

Benjamin Sng, stop annoying me you crazy little ahbeng ! AHHAHAHAHA

Ben was like annoying me like crazy that i felt like whacking him, as in play play la -.-

Wanted to slap him manszxz ! So annoying ! Hahhahahahahahha .

JUNLIN ! YOU DIN'T STAND UP FOR ME ! ARGH, NEVER STOP BEN YOU IDIOT ):

Rystine keeps calling me Ahlian, ( ._. ) I am (underline) SO NOT lor .

So i keep disturbing Rystine, then she made a public announcement that no one can call me Ahlian anymore, except her ( -.-!!! )

So we were like talking and crapping super loud at the foodcourt, ( LOL! )

Then we planned that for the girls tmr going Ice Skating ! :D *wink wink! ;)

Then the guys going for camp tmr . D: Byebye guyszxz . hahahhahahah . we won't miss you! =x

The leaders had some meeting which our dear cell leader Cheryl Lek, said it will be 5 mins only .

Guess what, it ended up Claudia, Nicole, Me, Junlin, Ben, Natty, Cherina waited for 1 hour plus plus . Wow, Cell Leader ! YOU POWER ! HAHAHAHHAH .

They came back and we took cell photo ;)

OHOH, THE CELL IS GETTING INFLUENCED BY MY WINK WINK! :DDDDD *wink wink wink! ;))))))))

HAHAHAHHAHAHAH, i went over to Lan to meet Meiyee & Genevieve .

Watched them play L4D . COOL OK . I WANT PLAY NEXT TIME, SO FUNSZXZ !

After that, we went over to Parkway cause Genevieve wants to eat PastaMania .

Wanted to pierce ear, but then Stege & 77th street close ):

I wanted to pierce back my tragus and pierce my left earlobe 3rd hole ;)

Sian, hahahahahhaha .

Jalan jalan awhile then stopped at Cotton On, i bought shorts .

I DESPERATELY NEED GOING OUT SHORTS AH TELL YOU ! HAHAHAH .

TOMORROW ICE SKATING, SO HAPPENING ! :DDDDD

WHO GOING FOR BBQ @ CHANGI 10 JUNE ?! HAHHAHAHAHA .

YEON JUNLIN, I SHALL SEE YOU OVER THERE ! HAHAHHAHA *WINK WINK! ;)

Ah, bye Junlin, going to miss you . Hhahahahah, honoured being missed by me your own Christ like sister ? *wink wink! ;)

I wanna see what you'll do @ the camp kkkk, blog bout it hor ! ;)

Ok, i am quite tired, i need to turn in soon cause tmr i have training for 4 hours ):

Then going to have Bible Study with my beloved Shepard Chermaine Lek & my junior Cheryl Khoo !!! :D

HEHEHEHEH, ok bye . ;D

HI GENEVIEVE, I KNOW YOU LOVE ME, CAUSE YOU SAID SO .

HAHAHAHAH, OK, BYEBYE .

SEEYOU SOON ! LOVE YOU BABE ! ;)

YOU'RE NOT FAT, BUT I AM . HAHAHAHAHHA .

2009-06-06T09:00:00.000-07:00

Define; Beauty .

I am just wondering, how to people define beauty ?

Well, 90% of people define beauty by looks .

How can we define true beauty by looks ?

You maybe a super hot, super pretty, super sexy women in the world .

You maybe a super hot, super handsome, super muscular guy in the world .

Yea, that's what we call the Outer Beauty .

However, you have not seen the Inner Beauty and how can you conclude that he/she is beautiful ?

People condemn others for their looks, their shape, but never thought of the heart .

We often misjudge people for the way they look .

A super innocent sweeet pretty sexy looking girl stands infront of you and ask for your number .

How are you going to react ?

Are you going to react like " Gosh! She's asking for my number, i must be lukiest guy manszxz! "

Or will you think, " She's pretty good looking, but what if i've misjudged her ? Maybe she ain't what she look like . "

Question is, Why do people misjudge and judge others for how they appear ?

Someone once told me " When you judge someone, you're judging yourself . When you understand the true beauty of someone, then you'll find love, untill you understand that, you'll never find true love and just keep hopping from appearence to appearence "

Beauty,

We see it in such a blatant manner,

The girl with no pimples on her skin,

Not a cut on her fingers,Spotless, no blemishes,

Face looking like she walked out of a magazine,

No other like her can be,

Because she is the cutest in the world,

And that

My friends

Not

True

Beauty

She's placed at the back of the audience because

They can't stand her sight,

She is made to scrub the floors of her oppressors,

She doesn't believe she is beautiful,

She says she won't be able to find love,

No man can quench her thirst.

She is an outcast.S

he wants to know when she will ever be beautiful,

Alone.

Forgotten.

Her crooked smile,Scorned.Loathed.

There is

Where you

Find

True Beauty

She cares, but no one cares about her,

She helps, but know one acknowledges it,

She is the pest.

Aside from life,A veil over herself.

They laugh.

But my friends,

Here is

Where

You

Find

True Beauty

To help her understand, its not only about her face but her heart,

Not her doubt in herself but her faith to keep on,

Not the model in the newspapers but the attitude she portrays,

Not the hate that she recieves but the love she gives,

There my friends

Where

She

Knows

That

She

The

Most

Beautiful

Girl

The

World

The wise man said,

"Beauty shows itself when you tell youreself you are beautiful and believingthat amidst all doubt "

And she believes this and people

Start to watch her differently,

Respecting her

For

she

Not

Silent.

She is no super model

Designed to turn men's heads

She cannot make the world stop

With lips stained ruby red;

Her lips tremble inwardly

Based on years of shame

Her eyes don't see the beauty

Hidden behind her thick frames.

But she has thoughts you've never seen

From love to religion and things in between,

Depths to delve into;

she's no petri dish

A chance to be known is her only wish -

She's more than just products

And a body that's thin

But the silent corner

Is all she has ever been.

He is no half nude model

No Abercrombie & Fitch

He cannot be an actor

Girl's screams don't make him rich.

His ego suffers silently

Through rejections so unfair

Always Clark Kent and never

Superman; no one seems to care.

But he has thoughts you've never seen

From love to religion and things in between,

Depths to delve into;

he's no petri dish

A chance to be known is his only wish -

He's more than just muscles

And a heart stopping grin

But the silent cornerIs all he has ever been.

Ode to the girl in the corner

Ode to the guy no one sees

Because actually they're perfect

In personality,

But sadly humans are caught up

In physicality.

If only people's souls and dreams

Were visible in their face,

And bodies would show morals

With delicate, divine grace.

Then it would be obvious

Where real beauty lies;

No evil could be concealed

Behind a beautiful disguise.

A young girl tries to play with a group of girls .

The group of girls stares at her, eyes thats says " you're ugly, you're gross . "

She tries to shake hands with them .

They push her to the ground and said

" You're so ugly, we don't want to have a ugly friend like you neither do we want to play with an ugly girl, you are just simply gross ! "

With that, they left her there crying .

The girl ran home and asked her mother

" Mummy, why do people dislike me so much ? Why do they say i am ugly ? Am i that ugly to be hated ? "

The mother stroke her hair and said

" Daughter, you're not ugly, people just don't appreciate your beauty, be strong, cause beauty does not lie within the outer appearence but the inner appearence . "

1 Corinthians 13

1If I speak in the tongues[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,[b] but have not love, I gain nothing.

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

2009-06-06T07:33:00.000-07:00

" We can be reasonably happy here on Earth, but thats not the goal of life . The goal is to grow in character, in Christ likeness . "

Well, Saturday is supposed to be having Cell with the cell members .

And also spending time with them and eating dinner and all .

However, today there is Shepards Retreat :)

There should be Sheeps Retreat too ! Hahhahaha ;D

Wanted to Kayak today, but then woke up too late laaaaa ):

Anyway, i was chatting with the most nonsense girl in my class ~~Khalisah Sulaiman~~ Baby KukuJiao .

Hahahha, tell you ah, she super nonsense untill cannot nonsense already .

You know " diao " -> ( -.- ) right ?

She tell me say " diao " in ancient Taiwan is penis, dick, lanjiao . ( LOL!! )

Kkk, then Chiong, you know we all always like to use Eg; " i'm Chioing hw la . " that kind ?

Yea, she come out with a English CHIONG which defines stuff . ( LOL!! ) I C&P here kk .

chiong 22 up, 11 down A sexual act which involves two gay men.
One man inserts his penis into the pants of another and masturbates furiously, while the other does the same to the other one.
The chiong is over when both men ejaculate on each others testicles while their pants are still on. This crude process is usually followed by both men urinating in each others mouths while grabbing their chest and ass. Michael and his gay lover both performed the legendary chiong maneuver for the cameras ten times in a row, leaving them with soar palms and penises.
If one is able to perform a chiong with their girlfriend, their girlfriend is a man. chiong penis cock gay fag homo sex sexual homosexual urinating ejaculating semen skeet pissing by Defco Mar 13, 2008 share this 2. chiong 2 up, 5 down The act of inserting toys into the anus.
This act is best carried out my two men (one submissive, one dominating) using things including fingers, vibrating didlos, strap ons, anal beads, frozen turds or frozen condoms filed with semen, carrots, cucumbers, beer bottles or any other shaft.
The first man should initially lick the anus of his partner whilst massaging his cock. If his partner recepriocates this act, then the two move on to the next step.
Both men should now have no underwear on and should be slowly touching each others cock. The submissive male will then turn around whilst the dominating man will proceed to jerk off on the other's back.
He then licks some of the cum off his partner's back and rubs the rest near the anus, providing lubricant for the sex toy into the anal passage. Using an item like the frozen turd, the dominatring male then slowly inserts it into his partners ass and hits him in the back of the head. The anal passage should tighten, making the turd (or other sex toy) more difficult to pull in/out, hence making the experience more pleasurable for the submissive male.
Note: If at any stage either of the men feel uncomfortable with the idea of chionging, a swift blow to the back of the neck is carried out. The man who hit his partner then proceeds to get dressed and visit a female hooker with whom he has normal, man-woman sex. Gregg and I were gonna chiong the other day, but then I felt like some tight pussy instead, so I hit him in the back of the neck and went to Amanda's place. chiong choinging anal submissive dominating bdsm by I Never Chiong Sep 12, 2008 share this 3. chiong 4 up, 18 down a titty raping whore who is a fat useless fuck who likes to masturbate on niggers. he enjoys watching porn on his psp and licking cock "Wtf is that chiong doing licking his boner."

Okay, that was what ~~Khalisah Sulaiman~~ Baby KukuJiao sent to me, i was like super AMAZED okkk .

Hahhahaha, then right she come say she very high now talking about these . ( ._. )

Horny ah you ~~Khali~~ KukuJiao ! Hahha, tell you, she very touchy one . HAHAHHA .

In our class right, if you fight with her you sure lose one, and you'll lose in pain .

Cause right, the procedure of her tormenting you is super super pain i swear .

She will, pinch your ( . . ) then she will squeeze and twist it . ( think about it manszxz )

Pain lor, super super pain . I kena alot of times by her before ):

And ~~Khalisah~~Baby KukuJiao, i do not have a penis or what you call it, DIAO . LOL .

So, i don't have it big or small & don't ask me anymore ! Hahhahahah .

[b][c=4][c=13][c=9][b][c=8][c=#FF5B0D][c=11]feeling[/c] the[/c] ELECTRIC BOLTS[/c][/b] running[/c] through[/c] my veins[/c]![/b] says:
lan jiao ah you.
thats what my mum like to say.
haha.
hahahahaha.
so funny.
i'm going high now.
haha.
just by saying this kinds of things.
i thing i'm going crazy.

[b][c=4][c=13][c=9][b][c=8][c=#FF5B0D][c=11]feeling[/c] the[/c] ELECTRIC BOLTS[/c][/b] running[/c] through[/c] my veins[/c]![/b] says:
si mi.
lan jiao.
haha.
i like to say the word.
lan jiao.
lan jiao.
lan jiao.
lan jiao.
lan jiao.
lan jiao,

[b][c=4][c=13][c=9][b][c=8][c=#FF5B0D][c=11]feeling[/c] the[/c] ELECTRIC BOLTS[/c][/b] running[/c] through[/c] my veins[/c]![/b] says:
wth
wth
penis
penis.
hahahahahahahahaha.
u so funny.
do u like chionging?

[b][c=4][c=13][c=9][b][c=8][c=#FF5B0D][c=11]feeling[/c] the[/c] ELECTRIC BOLTS[/c][/b] running[/c] through[/c] my veins[/c]![/b] says:
-.- means diao and diao means penis.
haha.
hahahehehahaha.

So there, that was what ~~Khalisah~~ Baby KukuJiao said to me, actually there's more horny ones -.-

But i've decided to be kind and not to post this up .

HAHAHAHHAHAHA, okkkkk .

Thanks Junlin for giving me those verses .

Yea, i am trying not to be tempted ):

Tomorrow Service, you coming right ? Hahha, please come though ;)

You're SO HAPPENING AH ! Hahhahahahahahah .

Ask Kimsiong to define it for you, and i tell you Kimsiong always bully me ):

Hahhahaha, and i am gonna stalk Kimsiong dry ! ( LMAOS ! ;D )

~~I really really cannot stand it .~~

~~I think i am really falling for you, and i know its wrong .~~

~~Its a sin, a super great sin !~~

~~Why can't i just like other guys instead of you ?!~~

~~Why must you be so nice to me when i encounter difficulties ?!~~

~~And i know you feel the same way for me through the way you treat me .~~

~~But, i'm not sure how you feel towards me anymore .~~

~~Gosh, i wonder how am i going to face you when school reopens .~~

~~Anyway, meet up soon .~~

~~I really miss you badly, and i feel uneasy without your love, care and concern around .~~

~~When i'm shedding tears, you'll always be there for me .~~

~~When i'm not in the right mood, you'll always be there to cheer me up .~~

~~And when i had relationship encounters, you'll always be there to help me .~~

~~You're not a bung, you said it yourself, but why must you make yourself look like one ?!~~

~~Indeed, you are very hot looking in both girl and bung form .~~

~~Urgh, sorry babe .~~

~~Even if i love you dearly, and even if you feel the same way for me i don't think i can ever accept you, because i will feel weird and i will feel like a great sinner .~~

~~I don't want to hurt both of us, we'll remain as friends, very close friends right ?~~

~~You asked me to bring you go sheesha, yea i will .~~

~~We'll have dinner soon, (:~~

~~Seeyou love.~~

2009-06-05T09:00:00.000-07:00

Ah ! Hello, i am so tired .

I realised that i have readers, unknown readers :)

Yay, do tag more aye ?

I tried to put the nuffnang survey thingy but it doesn't work on meee :(

So yea, i shall conduct my survey here :)

Closing the survey on 09 June :D

Tag to choose options okay ? (:

1. Do you want to read with more contents, pictures or both ?

2. Are you a babe or dude ? HAHAHHA .

3. How old are you .

4. What do you expect from my blog ? Eg; Bibical, World, Music, Fashion or ?

5. Are you a daily reader of my blog, mostly or just randomly bloghopped ?

6. How did you come across my blog ?

Kkkk, survey done . Please answer okkkkkkkk, so i can improve my blog :D

Anyway, i changed blogskin, yay . Took with 2 hours plus to do ok . :)

Today, went for KC outreach, so happening uh i tell you :)

Sueyuan preached on Trails :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONG TINGXIN ! :D

Okkk, i am too lazy to blog about everything today so tmr i will blog .

Anyway, for 201 i am organising either a class 3 days 2 nights chalet or just a normal bbq party .

Oi, is a class thing please do make an effort to come :D *wink wink ! ;)

Ohoh, and tomorrow is KC Outreach's outing ! :D :D :D HAPPENING RIGHT RIGHT !?

HAHAHAHAH, OKKKK . WE GOING EAST COAST I THINK . TO KAYAK/CYCLE/ROLLERBLADE BUT IDK HOW ROLLERBLADE ! HAHAHAHAHHA .

Kkkk, text me for confirmation :)

Okk, Hi Yeon Junlin, i saw you today at church ! Yay, how's bible studies ? :D You are SO HAPPENING ! That's what Chermaine and the rest agreed to :D Seeyou soon, sorry did not meet up with you ): ): ): Next timee text me on when you want to meet kkkkk . :D

Choo Meiyee, you got so ps today ! HAHAHAHAHHA .

SERVE YOU RIGHT, HAHAHAHAH . SASHA DOESN'T LIKE YOU !

MUAHAHAHHAHAHA, stupid idiot . HAHAHHAH .

Subway, is a place that embarrass you ! tsktsk !
PON CHA NOK . Idc if i spelled it right, hehehehehehehehhe .

2009-06-04T08:45:00.000-07:00

'Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.'

The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.

'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?'

'Yes sir,' the student says.

'So you believe in God?'

'Absolutely.'

'Is God good?'

'Sure! God's good.'

'Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?'

'Yes.'

'Are you good or evil?'

'The Bible says I'm evil.'

The professor grins knowingly.

'Aha! The Bible!'

He considers for a moment.

'Here's one for you, let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?'

'Yes sir, I would.'

'So you're good...!'

'I wouldn't say that.'

'But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'

The student does not answer, so the professor continues.

'He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?'

The student remains silent.

'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says.

He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

'Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?'

'Er...yes,' the student says.

'Is Satan good?'

The student doesn't hesitate on this one.

'No.'

'Then where does Satan come from?'

The student: 'From...God..'

'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?'

'Yes, sir.'

'Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything, correct?'

'Yes.'

'So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'

Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues: 'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?'

The student: 'Yes.'

'So who created them?'

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question.

'Who created them?'

There is still no answer.

Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom.

The class is mesmerized.

'Tell me,' he continues onto another student.

'Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?'

The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'

The old man stops pacing.

'Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?'

'No sir. I've never seen Him.'

'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'

'No, sir, I have not.'

'Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelled your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?'

'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'

'Yet you still believe in him?'

'Yes.'

'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?'

'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'

'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats.

'And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of his own.

'Professor, is there such a thing as heat?'

'Yes,' the professor replies.

'There's heat.'

'And is there such a thing as cold?'

'Yes, son, there's cold too.'

'No sir, there isn't.'

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested.

The room suddenly becomes very quiet.

The student begins to explain. 'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'.
We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest-458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat. You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.'

Silence across the room.

A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.

'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?'

'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation.

'What is night if it isn't darkness?'

'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him.

This will be a good semester.

'So what point are you making, young man?'

'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time.

'Flawed? Can you explain how?'

'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student explains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.'

'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?'

'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do.'

'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?"

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going.

A very good semester, indeed.

'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?'

The class is in uproar.

The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided.

'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'

The student looks around the room. 'Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?'

The class breaks out into laughter.

'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?'

Now the room is silent.

The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity,the old man answers.

'I guess you'll have to take them on faith.'

'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,'

the student continues. 'Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?'

Now uncertain, the professor responds,

'Of course, there is. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'

To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.'

The professor sat down.

2009-06-04T08:26:00.000-07:00

Yes ! I iceskated today(:

Idk how to rollerblade but i know how to iceskate now ! Yayyyyyy, love you guys manszx .

I want to pierce back my tragus and maybe labret ;)

I realised i need you by my side, as a friend maybe ? I can't let go, and i am trying hard to .

Its hard, yea i know . All these while i am deceiving myself, but the fact is i am trying hard to forget you, though my feelings faded, but memories are always whirling around my mind . I'm sorry, it really takes time for everything . I'm doing everything i can to forget the memories .

Okay, so back to where i was .

Meiyee wanted to play ParaPara to show off her crab ( crap ) dance ;D HAHHAHA .

But, no more stages . Hehehhee, sorry ponchanok . Teeheeee ;D

I got a document in this computer of Assurance Of Salvation & i want to blog one column out .

YOU WERE A SINNER
Being a sinner means that you have failed to do what God requires for you to be in right relationship with Him. You have failed to do God’s law.
“For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God” (Romans3:23)
Sin includes those things you do that are not acceptable to God, as well as your tendency to walk in disobedience to God.

AS A SINNER,YOU CANNOT PLEASE GOD.
“As it is written; ‘There is no one righteous, not even one; there is no one who understands, no one who seeks God. All have turned away, they have become worthless; there is no one who does good, not one” (Romans3:10)
Most of us live our lives without even considering what God may expect from us.

Yup, that's what i want to blog about .

I am and was a Sinner, that failed to do what God required me to do and be in the right relationship with him . I have failed him and the law .

People say, Sinners do not go to Heaven to meet God, but go to Hell to meet the Devil .

Everyone in this world is/was a sinner but why do God still accept people into Heaven ?

Because God is a forgiving father that forgives his children without conditions and he is with us always and will never leave nor forsake us . So why are we seeking for mans love instead of God?

I was reading Chantelle's blog, the really pretty girl .

She had this blogpost, i am going to C&P over here and i hope she won't mind .

That post really made me understand everything, maybe not everything but literally :)

2009-06-03T02:34:00.000-07:00

Starting off with today, i went cycling with Genevieve, Natalie, Talya (:

I tried to roller blade okk, but failed ): ): ):

I suck at rollerblading, ): ): ): WHO CAN TEACH ME LEHHHHHHHH . Haaaaaaaaaa ;D

Okay, so then later we took photo's and stuff . Hehhhhh .

Then Genevieve and I went to Mc's use computer and drink Mc Cafe (:

Gen walked me home then went to meet her Zain all . Hahaha .

Went home, napped awhile then mummy called me for dinner .

Went dinner with Mummy & Sister :)

Today not a very long day laaaaa, tmr is Girls Night Out with Meiyee, Jamie, Gen, Talya, Nat :)

Haha, not sure what time meeting yet .

But i feel like going to Tampines the arcade there play ParaPara . ( LOL! )

Okkkk, yes ! I am happy :D My dress arrived . Woohooooooooo{:

I want to reply my tagszxz ! ;)

Hahhaha, love you guys manszxz .

Louisa - Haha, thanks babe ! Love you too !(: Stay pretty okkkkk .

Victoria Anne - Hey girl, don't feel so bad about it cause i'm also in the wrong, i wasn't in a good mood though, so suddenly you just talked to me about it then later i vented my anger on you .

Sorry dear, ):

Keith - Hey, thanks(:

Natalie - Yea, i know i know :)

Freda - (: What laaaa, Hahhaaha, love you too ! :)

Huda - Hahhaa, thanks cantikkk!(: Yay, i am fine physically and mentally ^^ Yeap, i meant what i say, he is just so not worth my missingness ! I would rather miss my dad then him though .. ;}

JunLin - Hahhahahahaha, ask Kimsiong or Johnny to teach you luhs ! Haha, anyway thanks for standing up for me though(:

Chuanshen - Yes, indeed . God is awesome :)

Sheryl - Hello Sheryl ! :D

x: - Haha, thanks :)

Freda - Where got . Lols, sorry then if you think that way . You're way prettier laaaa :)

Nadia - Haha, i'm never pretty and i am not pretty . I am just a fat ugly idiot :) Hahahhaha . You're prettier okkkkkkk . You're so cute luhs . Hahaha .

Muneera - Heh, girl . Chill laaaaaa :) I am not hot, neither pretty . Hahahha . You're way hotter and prettier then me la loveeeee :) Seeyou soon ! :D

Passerbyx - Hahha, thanks thanks . But really i am not pretty laaa, you are a common reader of my blog is it ? Hahhaha .

Cher - Chermineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I am not chio luhs, i am an super super fat & ugly luhs .

You joker sia, Hahah, if i guy i would also jio youuuuuu! ;D hahahahahah .

2009-06-02T06:21:00.000-07:00

2009-06-02T05:42:00.000-07:00

Beforeee everything:DOkayyyyy, i know i look weird but i love my shades ;D

Okay, Hello, here it is my shades with my curly hair ;D

There are more photo's actually ;D

2009-06-01T09:06:00.000-07:00

I just came back from a super tiring Girls Night Out :)
It was supposedly be a TNS outing, but now it's TNSG :)
Love you girls for making my day a brighter one :)
Took over more then 200 plus photo's, but now too tired to upload them ):
Anyway, i looked quite not me because my hair was curled and i wore a dress with make up D:
So yea, i look like a typical taiwanese :)
Good or Bad ? Pretty or Not ? Decide yourself . Hahaha ;)
Today while out with these girls, i've realised something that i have and got to change about me .
My temper and my patience .
Because i lost my temper and patience i started swearing and using vulgarities .
Now i'm trying to reflect, why should i lose my temper and my patience just because the shops are closing ? Is it because i cannot spend my money or ?
Now it struck me, Jesus did not die on the cross for me to lose my temper and patience and start swearing and all just because i cannot shop . Because of this, i am being really immatured .
And because i allowed the devil to overtake me by not guarding my mind and heart, i ended up hurting my friend, a friend that has stick with me through thick and thin since primary one .
Sorry Talya ):

David Wilkerson - The Lord Is Merciful And Good To Those Whom Trust Him .

While I was praying about this message, the Holy Spirit whispered to me: “SOMEBODY READING THIS IS IN NEED OF ENCOURAGEMENT. SOMEBODY NEEDS TO BE REFRESHED AND DELIVERED FROM MENTAL AND PHYSICAL PAIN AND CONFUSION. SOMEBODY NEEDS A SPECIAL WORD OF HOPE EVEN WHILE READING THIS.”

Is that somebody you? I am thinking of someone who is facing trouble on all sides. Someone nearly overwhelmed by fears within and fightings without. Most likely this person has no one to talk who would fully understand, no one to trust in such an hour of trial.

I know in my spirit that God is using my pen right now to bring a word of hope and refreshment to someone near the end of their patience and endurance. Please hear the word of the Lord as I write this to you under the anointing of the Holy Spirit. God has heard your cry, and the following words to you are from his loving heart:

Satan is trying to implant lies in your mind in your time of weakness and trouble. He will try to convince you God is not with you. If you believe that lie, you can never escape Satan’s trap.

If you will quiet yourself before the Lord, and call on him in secret prayer, the Holy Spirit will tell you clearly: God is with you. He has not forsaken you. He sees you and knows what you are suffering. Jesus said, “Lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world” (Matthew 28:20).

You are loved – and you are needed. Satan is a liar, hoping you will give in to despair by believing you are alone in your struggle. No, you are not alone – not ever. God has someone praying for you in your time of need.

You are going to come out of your trial victorious. But you must believe God has heard your cry. Just lean on the Lord. If he could show you all the good things ahead for you, you would rejoice with gladness.

Finally, hear God’s heart through his pure Word:

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall seek for me with all your heart” (Jeremiah 29:11-13).

2009-05-31T07:05:00.000-07:00

Generations :)

Alright, so here it is .
People have been asking me to blog and post what i've preached the other day .
Purpose of Life (:
I will C&P here then :D

What on Earth are we here for .

Firstly it all starts with God.

It’s not all about us.

And the purpose of our life is far greater than our own personal fulfillment, peace of mind, or even our happiness. If we really want to know why we are placed on this planet, we all must begin with God. We were born by his purpose and for his purpose .

Many people has been searching for the purpose of life and it also has puzzled many people for many years. Because why ? We’re typically beginning at the wrong starting point which is ourselves. We always ask self centered questions like, "what do I want to be?" "What should I do with MY life?" "what are MY goals?" "what are MY ambitions, my dreams, my future?"
However we have NEVER thought and ask questions like "what do GOD want me to be?" "what is GOD doing with my life?" "what are my goals to GOD?" "what did GOD set for me, my dreams, my future and my ambitions?"

By focusing on ourseleves will NEVER reveal on our life’s purpose.

The Bible says " It is God who directs the lives of his creatures; everyone’s life is in HIS power."

We won’t discover our life’s meaning by looking within ourself. Why? Cause we did not create ourselves so there was no way we can tell ourselves what we were created for. If i were to hand you an invention that you have never seen it before in your life, you wouldn’t know it’s purpose and how it works.
The invention itself wouldn’t be able to tell you either. Then who would reveal the purpose of this invention?

The only person whom can reveal this invention is the creator of this invention or the owner’s manual.

Example; I once got lost in the mountains and started asking for directions to the other side. I stopped by at someone and asked how to get to the other side but i was told "You can never get there from here, You must start from the other side of the mountain."

Same thing as we cannot arrive at our life’s purpose by starting a focus on ourselves.

But, we must begin with God, our Creator.

We exist only because God wills that you exist.

You were made by God and for God.

And untill you understand that, life will never make sense.
It is only in God that we discover our origin, our identity, our purposes and meaning.

Our significance, and also our destiny.

If you have tried any other means, it’ll only lead you to an dead end :)

We were made for God and not otherwise.

Life is about letting God use you for his purposes and not you using him for your own purposes. The bible says " obsessions with self in these matters is a dead end; attention to God leads us out into the open, into a spacious, free life."

We’ve often hear and figure out what we’re good at, and clarify our values.

We set goals and we aim high.

We believe we can achieve and be discipline to never give up.

Of course, all these are often good and lead great successes.

We usually succeed in reaching a goal if we put our mind and soul into it.

However, being successful and fulfilling our life’s purposes are not at all the same issue.
We could all reach our personal goals and becoming a raving success by the world’s standard and still miss the purposes for which God created us.

Jesus Christ once said, "self help is no help at all. Self sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self."
Knowing your purpose will allow you to do less in life, by focusing on what matters most.

It is about becoming what God created you to be. Well, How, then, do we discover the purpose we are created for?

You have only two options for this.

And your first option is; Speculation.
Speculation is where most people are.

They just guess or speculate the purpose of life. When someone says "I’ve always thought the purpose of life is ..." actually what they’re really saying is that "This is the best guess what i can really come up with"
There is better alternative to speculation about the meaning and purpose of life.

The easiest way to discover the purpose of an invention is to ask the creator to explain it.

Which is also the same method that works for discovering your life’s purposes.

We can always find what God, our Creator, has revealed about life in his Word which also means the Bible. Revelation beats spevulation anyday.
God has not left us in the dark to wonder and guess. (Why?) – Cause he has clearly revealed his five purposes for our lives, through the Bible ( if you have read, if not go home and read bout it :) )
It is our Owner’s Manual explaining why are we alive, how life works, what to avoid and what to expect in the future. It explains what no self help or philosophy book could know. "God’s wisdom, goes deep into the interior of his purposes, it’s not the latest message, but more like the oldest.

What God determined as the way to bring out his best in us.

God is just no a starting point of your life, but he is the source of it.

To find out the purpose of life we must turn to God’s Word not the world’s best guesses.

You must build you life on unchanging, eternal truths, not the everchanging opinions of talk shows, pop psychology fads, success motivation seminars.
Bible says "It’s in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ and got our hopes up, he had his eyes on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose he is working out in everything and everyone."

Through this verse we can point our 3 insights into your purpose.
First, discover your identity and purpose through a relationship with Jesus Christ.
Second, God was thinking of you long before you ever thought about him.
His purpose for your life predates your conception. He planned it all before you even existed without your input. You may choose your career, your spouse, your hobbies, and many other parts of your life but you don’t get to choose your purpose.
Thirdly, the purpose of your life fits into a much larger, cosmic purpose that God has designed for eternity.

Questions to consider ;
Have you ever wondered about of felt confused about the purpose of your life?
What ways have you tried to discover your life’s purpose that haven’t worked ?
Why do you think people try to discover their life’s purrpose without turning to God, their creator?

I hope this helps :)

Though i am not here to preach, but i hope what you've read from here depicks what you want to know ? (:

He is the Holy Spirit, who leads into all truth." John 14:17
I think most of us wish the Holy Spirit led us into all comfort. We might even settle for partial truth. But all truth? Most of us would rather surround ourselves with people who will simply validate what we falsely believe about ourselves. That isn't the Holy Spirit. Like a good counselor, He'll take you places you don't want to go so you can get where He wants you to go. He'll reveal things you don't want to know so you can become who He wants you to be.
I think many of us get frustrated at times because it seems like God is silent. Here's a thought: if you cannot hear the voice of God maybe it's because you aren't willing to hear everything He has to say?
You can't tune out His convicting voice and still hear His guiding voice or wise voice or comforting voice. You cannot listen to half of what the Holy Spirit has to say. It's a package deal. If you tune out His convicting voice you won't hear anything He has to say.

2009-05-30T05:12:00.000-07:00

Truth is found in the tension of opposite .

I am really really worned out from today & yesterday .

Yesterday finished school @ 1130 cause of founder's day, as usual it was a bore to me .

Then bussed down to Tampines with, Gwendolyn, Talya, Victoria Anne, Joan, Weizhen and the others but i am not sure whom else gone, Sorry . Watch Night at the Museum 2 .

Then went to Century to window shop, but bought a shades :)

Totally was obsessed with this beautiful bag wich cost $22 @ Bluez, had cash with me but din't want to spend it :( :( so yea, i'm still not sure if i should buy it . D:
So today was KC Family Day, fun & exciting :)

I woke up late ( argh ) and had to rush for duty but realised my duty is the 2nd shift ._.

So stone and walked around, went Haunted House four times :)

First time i was freaked out, they grab my leg and all pull my shorts and i was like annoyed, Hah.

Alright, so i had to stay there and around 345 we started packing till like 430 .

430 headed down to Ocean Park for Zone Service & Sabby preached today :)

We heard about Secular Music, that's the music where alot people are listening to .

Yes, i agree that it affects people's emotions, feelings and it is a great effect to the world, the society to us and our souls .

Sometimes, we don't know why when we hear certain Secular Music we tend to be emo .

Ever wondered why ? That's because of it's great impact of music .

When these composers write their songs, it is on how they really felt and what mood they are .

Take example, Just So You Know - JesseMcartney .

Isn't that song somehow relate to a fact of a failed, broken relationship or rather we say heart ?

Lyrics goes like ; I shouldn't love you, but i want to .

I don't know how to be fine when i am not . How to make a feeling stop . I've tried my best to let go . Do you want me to hide the feelings . This feeling is taking control .

From these lines we're able to conclude what he was trying to write and express in his song .

Isn't it ? Everything is written black and white on his song and lyrics .

But do you know by playing it Back Mask, it is actually DIFFERENT from what you hear ?

Jonas Brother's song We're the kids of the future .

Forward Lyrics are ; We're the kids, we're the kids, we're the kids of the future .

Backward Lyrics ( Backmask ) are ; Satan, Satan, you're the one, you're my father .

Amazing isn't it ? Do you believe it ? Obviously you will not . If you don't believe, feel free to add me on my MSN email and ask me to send the soundwav to you . It is heard clearly . And also, in order to Backmask a music, you need a backmasking software .

I DID NOT MAKE THIS UP, IT IS REAL . Don't believe ? Just ask and you will receive .

Another one, Pokemon's rap, Gonna catcha in the head .

Playing is forward will be ; Gonna catcha, catcha in the head .

Backmasking it will be ; Satan, Satan, i love Satan .

Go Youtube search " Backmask Stairways to heaven " .

I swear you will get super super freaked out .

Anyway, i have stopped listening to Secular Music, or rather maybe seldom .

Because only Christian songs anoints love and power into my life and also into me .

I also would love to ask Christians and Catholics out there reading my blog .

When the day of Revelation arrives, will you still be looking at the noise of the devil and the world or flesh or would you be looking at the The Calling Of Holy ?

By listening to the noise of the devil, you'll never be able to be the sheep of God .

To be listening to your own flesh and to the world, you'll always be rebuking your rights .

Only by hearing and looking at The Calling Of Holy then you will be able to be the sheep of God, and only then you will be able to the Revival and Salvation of your family, friends, and school .

You can always rebuk with me now by saying " But Sonia/Jiayi ! I have the rights to not look at The Calling Of Holy, i have the rights to listen to Secular Music, i have the rights ... etc etc "

But think of this, did Jesus our Saviour rebuk at his father and said " But Father ! I've never sinned, i'm pure, i'm holy, why should i be misjudged and not worshipped ? Why must i be tortured and be hanged at the cross and be nailed to death ? Why ? " No, but Jesus in the end DID NOT rebuk for his rights and go with it . 3 days later he rose and now he is alive !

Start running with God, start to focus your eyes and love on God, start to yearn for his anointings .

Revival and Harvest is round the corner .

However, firstly YOU HAVE TO FIGHT A SPIRITUAL WAR to see the success .

The devil is attaking us very very soon because we do great things for God .

Run with God with Faith .

Be the Lord's son/daughter's Champion(:

2009-05-28T07:23:00.000-07:00

Ah yes, i'm finally recovering :D :D :D

I can skip, hop, jump, walk, talk, run and eat maybe not eat la but IM LIKE A NORMAL PERSON ! YAY YAY YAY YAY YAYYYYYYY :DDDDDDD

Okkkk, i would really really love to thank kakak Huda & Sha ( if i spelled it right D: ) , Junlin, Chermaine, Sueyuan, Claudia, Generations 2.2 and Zone 2, Mummy, Jiejie, Talya, Natalie and all my lovelest friends and classmates for taking care of me and wishing me the best :D

Also, by filling in details for meeeeeeee (:

I so love you guys manszxz !

Especially you,

i really love you & i'm glad you love me too(:

I've decided to move on with you & only you .

I want to spend the rest of my life with you, even when i die i want to be with you .

When there is revelation, i will stick with you through thick and thin .

Of couse the devil is tring to deceive and tempt me, but he'll never get me .

I've moved on because you helped me to .

I've done well and being a happy going person again because of you .

You never failed to let me go and catch me when i fall .

If it weren't for you, what am i supposed to do ?

Seriously, i should have love you way before i loved him .

I should have considered on how you feel, and i know you're jealous .

Hahhahaa, you wouldn't want to share your women with other guys isn't it right ? (:

OI . YOU . I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS .

HAHAHAHHAHA, I HAVE GOTTEN OVER YOU .

YAY , YAY , YAY .

YOU ASSHOLE .

HAHAHAHAHAHHA .

WITHOUT YOU I REALISED THAT MY LIFE IS MUCH HAPPIER ;DDD

*no offence ^^

BUT NOT IN A BAD WAY LAR . HAHAHHAHAHA

MAYBE MISS THE MEMORIES, BUT WON'T MISS YOU !

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA .

OKKKKKKKKK, AND TREAT HER GOOD OR ELSE YOU DIE .

YOU SEE WHAT I DO, YOU KNOW . HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA .

DO WELL FOR YOUR O LEVELS, IF NOT I WILL CURSE TILL YOU FAIL .

TSK TSK, EVIL RIGHT . HAHAHAHHAHAHA

SO YOU BETTER GET YOUR ASS UP AND START TO BUCK UP ON YOUR STUDIES AND STOP JUST FOOLING AROUND AND PULLING PEOPLE DOWN !

LOL . OKK, NOT THAT WAY BUT STUDY .

STUDY ! STUDY ! DON'T KEEP THINKING OF PLAY LA IDIOT .

DON'T KNOW HOW TO MANAGE YOUR TIME AH , ASS .

I may be hurt BEFORE, but not now .

Though reading her blog on occasionally may hurt me a little, but it doesn't affect me anymore because i don't care and i don't love you anymore !

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I realised when i open my eyes wider there are other suitors out there .

Ha, now i won't get into relationship because of your damn hurt you gave to me and of course of him also . YOU BETTER REMEMBER THIS GUILT ASS !

HAHHAHAHAH, don't use LAME & CRAPPY excuse for break up la .

So old fashion nia -.-''

K, bye . Idiot . ^^

2009-05-25T21:30:00.001-07:00

Oh man, i hate to be sick and be havinf fever :(
I was so fine on Sunday i went for service then later i started coughing badly .
Then during altar call i was crying alot, coughing alot because of the sins that i've made .
After service i felt super super cold .
Then i took my temperature and i had slight fever only . Thought it will be okay but i was wrong
Haissssss, went back home and fell asleep on the couch .
Woke up, took my temperature again and it shot up to 38.7 D:
I din't want to tell my mother cause i wanted to go to school the next day .
So i just continued playing the computer, mother came back and saw my face was super red .
Then she asked if i'm having a fever i denied and went to bed .
But then i woke up halfway cause i felt super cold then took my temperature again and it was 39.9 . Then i very scared i will get brain damage so i went to tell my mother .
And alot of stuff happen luhs .
Yesterday afternoon it became 40.1 . Super high luhs .
Almost fainted cause i couldn't stand it so i slept throughout the whole day .
SOrry guys for not answering your phone calls and smses ):
I still feel very awful feel like vomitting ): ):
After this post i'm going back to sleep .
Okk, bye .

2009-05-23T06:29:00.000-07:00

i'm glad you've realised your mistakes .
Again, i am not a person whom holds grudges against people whom i loved & care for .
Also, i still love and care for you as a older brother or a friend .
I hope whatever you've said is from the bottom of your heart and you're sincere alright .
What matters most now is you mend your ways, treat her your best and do well for O's .
I believe in you, and i know every other people like your friends and family do .
So don't let us down especially her . (:
See you and hearing from you soon, Champion ! (:

Today's cell group is awesomeeee(:
I really love hearing Chermaine, my awesome shepard preach :D
She really gives me the inspiration of becoming a Prophet or Evangelist .
Hope i spelled that right . Heeee ;D
She preached about Spiritual Maturity .
Which really hits me alot because Spiritual Maturity doesn't include age .
Doesn't mean that you're like example 16 and you're already super mature .
Age is not a factor of Spiritual Maturity .
No, it doesn't work this way .
It works with God and not on you .
We often only have Faith in God cause of answered Prayers .
But when he doesn't answer to our calls and prayers, we turn away from him .
We're self centered and only want to use God for our benefits .
We run for the call instead for the throne .
Which means, we turn to our Leaders and Pastors or even Music for our troubles but never turn to our Creator, God .
We use Music to subdue our pain, worries and troubles but never turn to God .
Only when we're in desperate situation then we turn to him .
This stage of Spiritual Maturity is called " Babes " -> Salvation . ( where many people are . )
And many Christians think that Salvation is the ending point of your Christian Walk .
Which is not, but it's actually your starting point .
Leviticus 21:20 .
2 Timothy 2:22 .

Tags reply (:
But before that, i would really love to thank all those whom tagged me, encouraging me, and giving me all their moral and spiritual support that they could give . Love you Champs ! (:

Weihan ; Yes i will cheer up (: Thanks gan-stead :) .

Freda ; Don't hate him already okay ? He explained everything le, and i choose to believe him . Make friends ba, don't have vengence and hatred in you okay ? (: Love you too !

Yang ; Haha, sure sure and thanks . (:

Meiyee ; Shut up luhs stupid crab ( crap ) dance . Tsktsktsk .

Mrs SL ; I meant, i'm trying to subdue my vulgarities :D

Louisa ; Thanks love x3 ! (: I am trying to forget it . Hahhaa ;D Last long ! :DDDD

Hey guys, sorry i'm not going to reply the very very old post .
Hahha, i am like so lazy =x
Hahhahahahaha, kkkkkk see you :)

2009-05-22T23:28:00.000-07:00

Oh alright then, i've came to blog .
Realised alot alot of stuff and was really disappointed in him .
Firstly i want to really know what is your problem .
Secondly why do you keep lying to me and not be ashamed of what you've did .
Thirdly, why are you so two face .
Why ? Why ? Why ? These questions are haunting me everyday eversince that day .
You've made me screwed up my papers because i was thinking of it during the exams .
You've made me believed you and feel like an total moron .
You've made me an image of being a " bitch " .
And lastly, you've been lying to me & cheating on me on awhile .
On that day i asked you the question " do you like anyone else HONESTLY " .
And my reason for asking you that is BECAUSE if you had told me the truth i would have just forgot about you and just let you move on with her .
You have gave me false statements and made me think i was the one who screwed up this ex relationship .
Not only that, you also made false image of me and Junlin in your own school .
Do you really think i am that moron, that stupid, that dumb, and that NO BRAINS to not know what you're actually doing ?
When we seperated, i've decided to let you go and never talk about you and everything .
However, recently i've just found out everything by bloghopping to one person and got interested in the post the person was saying .
I tried all my best to find out, and i was disappointed, heart broken and my heart sunk when everything was revealed .
How stupid am i to even trust you even untill you've lied untill like that .
Up till now, you really don't seem to be sorry bout it .
And i guess you only apologise to Junlin because you want to gain back people's trust, your image of popularity and gain her back .
You don't want me to spill everything out here do you ?
Or you rather meet up all in person and thrash things out .
I hate it when i am treated like an idiot and walking in circles figuring out why .
At moments like these now i really really feel like giving you an instant tight slap across your face .
Seriously, put yourself in my shoes, in Junlin shoes and in other people's shoes ,
INSTEAD, of being self centered and get yourself into deep shit when the truth is out .
Will you just stop your nonesnse, and all your lies and get on with life ?
Hello, you're having a crucial year this year, and here i am being an idiot wanting you to do your best supporting you all the way and trusting every word you've said to me and there you are wasting your time, wasting your life doing inappropriate stuff behind my back and in school .
Getting offended now with this post ?
I guess you are .
And i won't care how you feel right now because you din't care how i felt !
But, i will still treat you as a friend because of all the help and concern you've given me before and maybe untill now .
Yes i thank you for all those memorable memories and i thank you for everything you've done .
I know feelings like these cannot be helped but unless you've had self control none of these would have happened .
And the truth is, i know that you've liked her during your school's annivesary or maybe way before .
But now everything i ask from you is to stop whatever you're doing, treat her your very best and not repeat your same mistakes, and also do all your best for your O levels (:
Waiting forward to hear news from you of your results and of course your change . (:
Once in a bluemoon i will msg you for something but now you don't have to worry me msging you because i also don't want her to feel wrong or anything .
Yup, all the best friend . :D

Mrs SL : I am sorry for using these vulgarities and being uncivilised . I've tried to mend my ways and stop using vulgarities, if you don't believe you can ask the class . Thanks for teaching us lessons like these and try all your means to make our english improve way better :)

2009-05-19T10:34:00.000-07:00

I'm back to blog, because i am shock, amused, delighted .

Why ? Because of many things (:

Firstly is God & friends encouragements (:

Secondly is i have finally found out the truth and your true colours (:

Third is I AM VERY VERY EXCITED FOR TOMORROW'S CELL OUTING ! :D

Freda love just blogged bout ( ) in her post which i think it is no nececcery to because its over .

But anyway, thanks love ♥ .

Oh well, then i bloghopped to other people's blogs and found out something that i totally DID NOT expect . Nope, seriously i TOTALLY did not expect it .

I saw her blog, and i thank her for sorta standing up for me though idk her . Hahaha (:

Thanks girl ♥ .

Then i saw his previous blogpost and i found out how he is like . Tsk, Jerk .

Thanks boy ♥ .

And i found out something even more AMUSING .

Oh well, i guess this puts all to the end but i really REALLY would love to find out more .

Haha, now i don't have to ponder over you anymore !

And i feel free from your lies & broken promises !

Yayyyyyyyyy ;D :D :D

Anyway, what Freda said was right . Maybe you weren't like this before, but changed overtime .

Which i won't blame you because people do change .

Then, what she said was right . Where is your dignity .

& where is your honesty .

Reflect please .

if you din't have feelings for me anymore or if you liked her, you could have just told me the truth .

Instead of LYING to me and giving me false hopes that states that you love me not anyone else .

I know, i may not be that pretty like her, that slim like her, that talented like her & that smart like her .

But it doesn't mean you have to use this method to break up & to look down on me .

However, i am also grateful to you for giving me beautiful memories to look back at .

Also, your helps really enlighten my burdens .

If you had told me the truth i would be less hurt .

If you had not been self centered other people would not look at you that way .

Before you do something, THINK TWICE before you hurt any other people deeper .

Anyway, i love to thank you for everything you''ve done for me .

But i also would love to give you a tight slap for hurting me and being dishonest to me .

2009-05-19T02:52:00.000-07:00

I've decided to stay home today instead of going sheesha with them .
Oh well, some also no money so yup (:
Now i am finding the prospective of life @ evotional.com & purposedrivenlife.com .
These links really helped me in moving on with life .
Life is not all about You .
It all starts with God .
If we want to know why we are placed on this earth, we have to begin with God .
Because he is the creator of us . We were born by his purpose and for his purpose .
We often ask self centered questions but by focusing only on ourselves we all never reveal our life's purpose .
We din't create ourself so there is no way we can contridict that we know what we are created for .
If i had handed you an invention that you totally had not seen nor heard it before, you would never know it's purpose and the invention itself wouldn't be able to tell you either .
Only the creator or the owner's manual could reveal its purpose .
We exist only because God wills for your exist, you were made by God and for God and untill we understand that, life will never make sense .
We were all made for God not vice versa . And life is about letting God use you for his needs and purposes, not you using him for your own purposes .
We could all be successful people and reach all our personal goals but still miss the purposes for which God created us .
We first have to discover our identity and purpose through a relationship with Jesus Christ .
Second, God was thinking of you long before you ever thought about him .
Third, the purpose of your life fits into a much larger, cosmic purpose that God has designed for eternity .

Ask yourself .
- Have you ever wondered about, or felt confused about, the purpose of your life ?
- What ways have you tried to discover your life's purpose that haven't worked ?
- Why do you think people try to discover their life's purpose without turning to God, their creator ?
Hope this little post will help some people out there whom is searching for the purpose of life(:

2009-05-18T23:40:00.000-07:00

God, i thank you for healing the emotional pain and memories these few days .

Because of you, i'm able to pull through everything .

Dreams that are not planted by you and by the devil .

Memories that are haunting me and i've tried to get rid of them, but only you whom can do so .

Sometimes, i've been thinking what on earth am i here for ?

But God, you've just given me the answers yesterday .

This breakup is definitely a calling from you, and is also definitely a wake up call .

Lord, take me deeper then i've been before .

Take me deeper that i long for .

Take me higher that i've been before .

Jesus, i want more, Jesus i need more .

I need more of you Jesus, more of you & your strength .

Because of this breakup, i'm definitely not turned on by guys and relationship .

Though the devil has been tempting me with guys texting me, asking me for numbers however, because i believe in your strength and that is why i am able to shook them off .

I've learnt from Pastor Jiancong and i really thank him for that preach last Sunday's service .

Why should i give everything to someone who does not have the same goal, same target as me and let the relationship take control of everything and get emotionally hurt .

Instead, my calling should be focussing on you God, and not any other man .

Because only You, whom will not harm me, and we have the same goal and target .

I really thank you for giving me such great friends, seniors, shepards and family members for being there for me and giving me moral and spiritual support during this period of toughness .

I've learnt something from this, " when we decides to let go of something that do not belong to us, we have something more then it takes . When we decides to cling onto something that do not belong to us, what it takes is the unnececcery emotional pain that takes time to subdue it . "

What pains and troubles me the most is that, Saturday after cell when i've decided to repent before you God, i went out drinking, sheesha-ing and smoking . Next morning, i was struggling whether or not to go for service . However in the end i did .

I cried before you God, i repentted before you God and now i want to do something that will ease this trouble and pain away .

Which is, i've decided to give a small "preach" on Thursday to the god chasers in KC about you, about your calling and about the purpose in life .

I've never done this before, but i have the sudden urge to do it .

Is it because you're motioning to me that this is one of my callings ?

As what Cheryl said, each step we are taking, is a step towards our future .

I want to save KC, i want to save other people .

Even if i wasn't given the opportunity to be incharge of the outreach when the seniors graduate next year, i still want to bring in more people, and giving tem spiritual support that they may need .

I've decided to let go of everything and focus on you God .

I don't want to let these memories keep haunting me and hurting me .

I don't want to cry over spilt milk because what's done is done .

I don't want to have anything involve with ( ) during the period of time & just let me focus in you .

I don't want to hear news from people about ( ) and start to have the emotional hurt all over again .

I want you, I want more of you .

I want to let these memories be kept somewhere which i will never remember .

I want to accept the calling .

I want to move on with you .

I want to focus on you .

I want to hear more of you instead of ( ) .

I want to be spiritually strong .

I want you to guard my heart deeply .

Lord, Take me deeper, Take me further, Take me higher then i've been before .

Also, please help Junlin to clear his doubts about you, allow him to be spiritually strong and also morally strong, and clear his hurt, clear everything that hurts and troubles him, let him annoint you even more, and also please do make him come for this Wednesday cell outing because i know starting from that day, you'll be able to talk to him further more, able to guide him further more, able to guard his heart . God, you're powerful . And i know Junlin is one of the chosen ones . (:

Praise you Lord :) .

2009-05-15T20:41:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh, finally exams are over .
I screwed up both my Math paper one and two .
Then is my Art and Oral .
Tsk, damn .
Okay, so yea i'm now having issues in my life that i''m trying to deal with .
Sucks, and painful .
Anyway, i really have to thank for those people who've always been there for me and helping me :)
Yasmyn, Khailisah, Talya, Gwendolyn, Joan, Denise, Chermine, Aisyah, Natalie, Junlin, Chermaine, Sueyuan, Gayle, Annabel, Muneera, and alot of the others .
Thanks so much for being here when i needed someone to lean on :)
Love you'll so so muchhh ;D !

You : Hey, im really sorry for everything i've done, i know i've hurt you by causing misunderstandings and so you had to do this . But, seriously i only love you and no one else . He is just one of them who has been here for me when i'm down that's all . I know you might have like think that he is trying to jio me or hong me or something . But seriously, there is nothing between us . Nothing at all . And about yesterday night, i seriously did not tell her anything . She only asked why the seperation and i only told her why about what he and the rest said . And about your side of thinking, the rest is all she anyhow bomb de . I'm serious . Now i think you're gonna think that i'm like one of those bitches out there who bitch about their ex, but i don't . You should know me, together for 9 months and 2 days do you think i am this kind of girl ? I love you so much and you've helped me so much even as a friend . Do you really think i will do this just to ps you and get you into unneccesary troubles ? Think about please . I don't want to have any deep hatred of misunderstandings between us because of what she said . And i''ll also say i've never regretted being with you . Infact, i'm happy that we've been tgt . I just hope that you won't think the wrong way and start hating me for the rest of your life . If you're reading this, i hope you truly truly understand . Text me if you must or something, so that i won't have to let this incident keep haunting my mind . S O R R Y . . =/

2009-04-26T06:09:00.000-07:00

Freakkkkk youuuuuuuuuuuu .

I feeeeeeel very very sick :( :(

I'm having a super high fever now, fuck .

& tmr is like my Mid Year's already, i can't afford to be sick ! :(

Oh God, help me please , heal me ! :(

Today, woke up and bathe wanted to go for service .

But don't know what happen, i suddenly collasped onto my bed .

So i found out that i'm running a high fever .

But i got to study, because tmr is chinese mid year .

Though my chinese is not bad, i am ranked around the top 5 but still .

Need to study . Shoooooots :(

There are like so many cheng yu to like remember :(

And zao ju . Gahhhhhhhhhh .

Okay, so i met baby in the afternoon and he helped me with chinese . D:

Hahha, i felt superr awful la .

Like any moment will vomit, then when i stand i very giddy :(

And since like what, Friday i haven't been munching onto anything .

And i feel bloated and full . My stomach is rejecting food :(

When i smell food, i will straight away vomit . ( LOL )

Weird stomach i have . Howwwwwwww . :(

Okkk, anyway i am going to study again :(

Three weeks of torment ! ):

Welcome back Natalie cheah, you're a faggot . :D

2009-04-25T06:24:00.000-07:00

What an ass day yesterday .

I went home with a superrrr bad stiff neck .

Slept all the way till this afternoon around 12 plus .

Bathe and then halfway bathing i blanked out .

Wtf mans, cause i was super dizzy and idk how to explain that feeling .

I couldn't breathe and all, then i ran out of bathroom and ran into the toilet .

I puked like hell . Then i went back to the bathroom and finish up my bathing .

Then, i change everything and rested .

Smsed Talya to go study tgt .

Went out of the house around 2 plus to meet Talya .

Weather was blazing hot manszxz .

Then went Parkway the Yogurt thingy to study .

Walk walk, then went home .

On the way met Jonathan & Benson .

Fell asleep on my sofa awhile then woke up ate my dinner .

Now waiting for my shepard to meet me downstairs my house .

I feeeeeel very very lethagic .

Dammit, argh .

Whatever you stupid fuck face Choo Mei Yee . :D

2009-04-24T06:47:00.000-07:00

Wow, i haven't been really updating manszxz .
Seriously, been too busy with work, performances and studies .
Tuesday we were told we can't perform for Gala because of some juniors .
Then Wednesday we were told that we are performing .
I am suppose to feel overjoyed, however i felt like i don't want to perform .
What is wrong with me .
So, on that day i was really letagic .
I looked like a cina typical malay and there were like too many accessories .
I'm glad many people did not regconise me, because i felt dumb .
But some of my friends were able to regconise me which it sucks, ALOT .
Tsk, Joan Chen's SOLO PERFORMANCE eh, her CO with the "gong" . ( LOL )
Everyone is teasing her now :) :) :) Yay .
Okay, so Baby and his friend Shawn went for the performance .
Yay, they din't regconise me ^^ ^^ ^^
Then bla bla bla, curtain call then finale then bla bla bla .
Miss Sue is leaving KC Family :(
So sad luhs, wlao she's like a superrrrrrrrrrr nice teacher okayyyyyy !
She teaches me Geography, though she is fierce but she is nice and super nice & funny . :)
Miss Sueeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ! We'll miss you so so so so much ! :(
Okkk, then went back to our changing rooms change everything bla bla bla .
No time to take off make-up so ran off to Auditorium for debrief .
Roses were given out to the performances .
Then we got dismissed . Went out to look to Meiyee but couldn't find her .
Went off with Baby and Shawn walk walk around clarkquay to find food cause they were hungry ( -.-'' ) .. Then took my flowers from Meiyee, that fucking cheebye . Yea, so then later took cab to Geylang then they ate their Satay .
Walked down some lane and took bus home .
Started to rain heavily, like . ( WTF ) .
Shawn broke my rose ( -.- ) ..
Oh well, whatever . LOL .
Baby walked home with me and then he went off .
Reached home i took 45 mins to bathe because of the damn hair . I swear, i hate hairsprays .
Washed it 3x then later change everything and dry hair .
By the time i slept it was already 2am D:
Alarm rang at 7, because school starts at 825 specially for that day only .
But i was TOOOOOOO tired so i din't go to school .
Well, most performers din't go . ( LOL )
Friday, had a super bad stiff neck .
Go to school lessons as usual and we had to sit in our register numbers for Monday's starting Mid Years . :(
Then later during Science i slept throughout the whole thing because i felt really awful and had a super bad headache . My face was very pale and i was on the verge of fainting .
But i din't, instead i slept .
Bla bla bla long day .
I don't want to blog anymore, my neck hurts like hell .
Fuck you neck . _l_
Oh, and Natalie says HI . -.-

I miss you, I need you, I love you .

I don't want this moment of us to ever end,
Where everything's nothing without you,
Through it all, i've made my mistakes,
I stumble and fall, i mean those words,
I want you to know, i won't let you go .
You're my heart and soul, i'll hold on to these moments and won't let go .

2009-04-21T05:04:00.000-07:00

There's no words to describe how i feel now .
Sad, Disappointed, Angry, Frustrated and idk idk .
I am disheartened :(
I will not be performing for the Gala Night tmr because the Juniors pulled us down .
Even those good good one's got pulled down because of em .
They fucking forgot their steps and countings and all .
Fuck larh, do you all know how hard mdm rauda convinced the fucking school to let us perform ?
Do you know how much fucking time and effort mdm mas sacrificed for us ?
Do you know that we've been training like fucking hard everyday and now we can't perform ?
Sian, now Gala Night only for the SYF's . ZZZ .
It's true, we will pull down the SYF dancers because some of the juniors don't know their steps .
Don't behave like performers . Instead, behave like kindergarden childrens . Argh .
So now, we'll only be performing Matinee .
Whatever it is, i feel really bad for our seniors and SYF dancers .
Sorry if all of us din't do well :(

2009-04-20T08:14:00.000-07:00

wo xiang fei /

Today was a superrrrrr tiring day :(

Morning had the stupid level exercise, shiet ass . Hahha .

Ran one round around VJC, then come back i was sweating like a pig -.-

Like as though i just came out of the showers k.

Then we had to do 3 sets of crunches, pushup's and that leg up down thingy -.-

I was soooooo worned out and felt SUPER letagic during math lesson .

LOL . I scolded everyone in class today , hehheheheh .

Then i called everyone bitches . LOL ! Like, eh bitch . LOL .

But obviously is playing one lar ! Wlao eh . Hahhaha .

Yasmyn is a fuckerrrrrrrr . Hahhahaha . Meiyee is an isolated person whom we cannot trust her in the hands of FOOOOOOOOOOD . Hahha, her ONE BITE is the WHOLE THING . ( ROFL )

Okay, whatever .

So had practice from 230 till 630 . Tired tired tired .

Went Parkway to buy pins and rubberbands and whatever for tmr's rehersal .

And Natalie and her side people are arseholeszxz . They took our corsets ! :(

My baju ! :( :( :(

Now i'll be wearing some purple baju . I look like a typical Malay . LOL .

Okkkkkkkkk, Yay .

Wednesday i'll have to report to school @ 930 ^^

Get to wake up later ! :D :D

Thursday report to school @ 825 . YAYYYYYY .

Awesomenesszxz ! :) :) :)

KCCO went for SYF Central Judging today and have clinched a Silver :)

Great work girl's :D

KC Choir went for SYF Central Judging and have clinched a GOLD ! :D :D

YAY YAY YAY .

Hahahha, so happy :) :)

Okkk, whatever i want to shui jiao . Saya want to tidur . HAHAHHA :D

GUD NITE . :)

2009-04-19T02:48:00.000-07:00

Hello dear readers .

I am super exhausted .

Yesterday woke up super early & went to school for rehersal .

Then reherse then practice dance . Tired manszxz :(

Dance steps everything changed :( :(

& super it's super tiring :(

Helpppppppppppp D:
Then Meiyee asked to meet cause she got kicked out of Kareb's tuition & was bored . ( LOL )

Loser sia you . Tsk !
Met her at Library, walked over to Parkway then ate Pastamania . OMG GOOD FOOD MANS !

I was SUPER FAMISHED ! :(

Walked around Parkway, Meiyee wanted to play pools but i din't feel like .

Then wanted to play lan @ Katong but decided to go Funland to play ddr . ( LOL )

I din't really play ddr, tsk tsk . Lost interest . Well, sort of D:

Deproved alot for ddr & para para . Hahha, Loser .

Then, we stonned @ Funland awhile went down to Bowling Center and sat there .

Talk talk talk . LOL .

Untill 7 plus . Hehhehehe .

Then we did angkong :)

HAHAHAH, REAL ONE OK! *wink wink .

Hahahhahahaahahha .

Then went eat Fei Fei Wan Ton Mee :)

Reminds me of my daddy though .. hais ..

Then slept over at Natalie's . LOL .

& Just came back .

Tmr still have practiceeeeeeee D:

Tuesday Full Dress Rehersal from morning till night :(

Wednesday is the performance already :)

Who want gooo ? :D

$10 Matinee ( afternoon )

$15 Gala Night ( Night )

It'll be fun k . Will see the SYF dance :)

K, i am tired . GUD BAI . :)

i want you to know, that you're everything to me .

with you around, i feel secure, loved, fulfilled .

2009-04-16T07:52:00.000-07:00

Today, was an exceptionally scary and unexpected day D:

First, there were moths everywhere in our class . ( Eew )

I detest moths, ALOT .

Then i got shocked out of my life cause when i wanted to take my books out underneathe my table, a moth came flying out . I screamed at the top of my lungs . LOL .

AND NOW WHEN I'M BLOGGING THERE'S A MOTH IN MY ROOM ! I AM SCARED ! :(

I AM TAKING THE HANGER THINGY THE LONG LONG THING TO HANG YOUR CLOTHES BEATING AND CHASING THE MOTH OUT OF THE ROOM . BUT IDK WHERE IT WENT TO :( AND I AM SUPER SCARED :( :( :( GO AWAYYYYYYYYYYYY ! :(

Kk, then i tried to scare Joan . I shouted " EH MOTHHH ! " then she scream . LOL .

Was damn funny ;D . But in the end the REAL MOTH came to get me after a few seconds :(

Victoria started shouting " OMG MOTH ! " after a few seconds i scared Joan .

Then i thought she was just pulling my leg, LOL . & wanted to say " you think you cute ah . "

BUT IT ENDED UP REAL CAUSE EVERYONE AT MY AREA STARTED SCREAMING !

Then i had a bad feeling bout that . My friend screamed and say " THE MOTH IS ON YOUR BLOUSE ! "

And when she said that, today wa my fastest reflexes ! LOL .

Milliseconds or less then what my friend screamed to me that the moth was on me, i started screaming like a mad women, pushing and trying to get out because i was sitting at the corner .

I tried the push Vic Anne off cause she was beside me blocking my way . & i wasn't thinking what i was doing but then i realised i was pushing Vic Anne off the chair and she was falling off with her chair . ( LOL ! ) Then, the table almost topple on top of me while most of her books came out . Eh, it was scary lor .

Then our science teacher just looked at us, LAUGHING ! :( lol.

I ran to the front and started screaming till my teacher calmed me down . LOL .

Then i realised my whole class was starring at me cause i was sobbing ! HAHAHAHAH .

tsktsk, it was scary lor .

Anyway, then had dance practice for EMDD .

Talya & I was put back inside because the seniors helped us and they reselected some people .

Yup, but Muneera i felt so bad for her . She din't get selected =/

Anyway, it's going to be a busy day for me for Saturday ( full day rehersal ) , Tuesday ( full day rehersal ) And finally the actual day with half rehersal and the performance till 10 or 11 plus . D:

Tiringggggggggggggggggggggggggg . Hahhaha .

Natalie & I bussed down to Eunos and tk MRT to Jurong East . Super crowded i swear . -.-

Then took another bus to Choa Chu Kang MRT then LRT to Teckwhye to collect stuffs .

Cabbed to Parkway to buy my contact lens then Macs .

Natalie brother came and send us home .

Yay, the end of the day :) LOL .

THE STUPID MOTH IS STILL HIDING SOMEWHERE OK!

IT FLEW TO MY BED AND THEN TO MY UNIFORM :( :( :(

FUCK YOU DAMN MOTH ! :( UGLY SHIETZXZ ! :(

Labels; Scary & Tiring day :(

2009-04-14T07:30:00.000-07:00

~~I feel betrayed by you girl, seriously i do . =/~~

You knew how much i want to do it, but because of your " not able to specify " properly got me out of it . I want the cca points, i need it . Not only that, i want to be in it too . You know what i mean . Can you get any idea how hurting, disappointing and sad i am ? Or at least, spare a thought for how i felt ? A dancer, got kicked out of the dance floor because of her friend's words . I'm beginning to question myself . Did you do it intentionally or unintentionally ? Because you knew how much this performance meant to me . Last year we couldn't perform because we were still young back then and there weren't enough space for all dancers to be there . But this year, however, it's at Victoria Theatre . You get any idea how big the stage is ? That will fit all of us in ? Of are you just being selfish, self centered and jealous because i was sort of in the first row ?

And what about Talya being kicked out of it ? Why are we getting kicked out of the dance floor without any reasonable reason ? This is toally UNREASONABLE . You claim that it was your mistake, yes it really was your mistake . However, you DID NOT clarify with the teacher on that day that what you meant was i am not participating that day's practice because i wasn't feeling well ! But, you din't . 2 weeks later, when the list came out . My heart sunk . Seriously . It sunk totally . You know how hurting it is to not see your name getting listed because of your mistake ? And you said, you forgot . YOU CAN ACTUALLY FORGET TO CLARIFY WHEN IT WAS YOUR BLOODY FUCKING MISTAKE . I have totally no words to describe you & your actions . But i feel UTTERLY DISAPPOINTED . Betrayed by you, my own close friend You're the one that stood by me all the time, we've gone through thick and thin together, you're the one whom saved me out of trouble, you're the one whom lied for me, you're just like my sister . And countless times, i get betrayed and backstabbed by you . Not to mention one of the things you've ever done to me and not many knew bout it excep you & I . And maybe afew others . That online thing . You know what i'm talking about . And now, you're trying to use all excuses to tell me that, you're going to tell the teacher in charge to put me in the dance instead of you vice versa . Do you think that's easy !? Do you really think it is !?

~~DO YOU GET THE FUCKING FEELING WHEN THE TEACHER ACTUALLY GOES UP TO YOUR FUCKING FACE AND TELL YOU, YOU'RE NOT IN THE PERFORMANCE ETC ETC ?!~~

~~AND WHEN THE SENIORS SHOT BACK AT US WITH THE ANSWER, NO YOU'RE NOT IN THE PERFORMANCE, DO YOU KNOW HOW FUCKING HURT I WAS ?! DO YOU KNOW !? No, you don't . Because you ain't I .~~

~~For no reason, Talya got kicked out .~~

~~For a plain mistake caused by you, I got kicked out .~~

~~And, you seriously have no idea how it feels like when a dancer is being thrown out of the dance floor .~~

To you ; I'm seriously very very disappointed to you . No matter how much you apologise to me, you'll never fill up that gap of hurt . You caused it, but tries to ammend it . If you really meant well, you would have done what you're supposed to do on the day itself when you've made the mistake . Do you know how hurting and sad to see all of you all practicing infront of me ? It's like, you din't care how i felt . Din't care whether i existed . I seriously have nothing to say much to you anymore . When we're at the side sitting, Talya actually said " I am sad . " For the first time she admits it because you know that all of us dreams to be inside since secondary one . I know me & you have been performing EMDD since primary 3 cause of Choir . But now, it's not . It's Dance . It's TOTALLY different . Muneera actually almost cried . & I , shed a few tears while watching you'll . Thanks for hurting me once again girl .

2009-04-12T05:23:00.000-07:00

Hey girl, fcuk you .

Seriously, -.-

What's your bloody fcuking problem siol .

Got problem with me ? Come settle in school, do you think i'm scared ?

Well, firstly my settling isn't some any fcuking fight with you lar .

Please, grow up . You're already like what, secondary two .

Still not yet mature ? Haven't wake up is it . Wake up lar, nabei . _l_

Stop going around and telling people something that is fcuking untrue bout me please ? -.-

Now those people see me, then run . Like as if i monster . Cheebye .

You want find trouble with me, come to me one on one lei .

Don't wuji behind my back then do some dummy stuff -.-''

Really sia, firstly you go around telling people saying that i'm a chao ahlian, then if i see your faces very guailan i call people come beat you up . Then, you say i very guailan all ? LOL .
Firstly right, you're in express, I DO NOT hang around with express .

Though i have close friends or rather former classmates and primary school friends in the stream i don't hand around with them .

They study too much, that's one of the reason .

Then, they totally don't click with me cause of what you say .

Now for some reason when i call this girl Xiaohan, then she SO SCARED of me untill like what -.-

And i've figured why you did all those things . LOL .

Firstly you thought that i am not worthy of the Class Commitee badge, is that right ?

Cause you think someone like me, with bad records of gang fights, smoking, stealing, police cases and all actually can be a Class Commitee ?
Well, have you EVER THOUGHT of people changing huh .

Fcuk, seriously, i don't like to use vulgarities now , unlike last time .

Sian, and i din't change for anyone .

I changed for myself, & for god .

Because i know that the rate i'm going with life, wasting my youth and time on being an ahlian is totally not worth it . I have ambitions and goals too you know .

FYI, doesn't mean that those ahlian's out there have no goal's in life alright .

Stop looking down on people that is lower ranking then you .

Because you have no rights to .

What give's you the right to judge other's by their appearence and behaviour .

Don't judge a book by it's cover , haven't you heard that phrase before ?

Behaviour, does not mean they behave that way that mean's that is the true them .

Do you have brains by thinking they can actually be acting ? tch.

Count yourself in the best class . Shame .

And another thing, before you judge other's, look at yourself .

Because the way you judge them, is the way you judged yourself .

Get a life, you simply just earn my sympathy by posting this post bout you .

Fcuk off . :)

2009-04-11T07:41:00.000-07:00

We tried to be angel's with our new bands ;D

Batwomen ;D !

I was trying to be a warrior :D ! ( LOL ! )

She vanished when i took the scrn shot ! -.-

Yoooo,

Webcammed with Natalie .

Yesterday was me & baby's 8th month :)

& It's Gud Fryday . HAHHAHA .

K, wanted to go Haw Par Villa with baby, but decided not to cause itz raining supa heavily &

it'll close by the time we reach . Sian .

K, so took bus to Suntec, wanted to watch the unborn but mei you .

So bussed to Vivo , ( LOL ) then also mei you -.-

So watched Fast & Furious . Nice lor . :D

Hhaha, then baby sent me home (:

Reached home around 1.30 plus i think . LOL .

Slept through half the afternoon till 3 plus . ( LOL )

Then slack at home cause din't feel like going out . TOO LAZY :D

Then waited for Natallayzxz to come ova .

Bathed, and went out .

But then saw mummy downstairs w my dinner so Natallayszxz went off and i ate at home :)

Babyyyyyy :)

Eight Months had just passed so quickly D: !

Time really fliesssss :)

I love youuuuuuuu ! x3

& i really do (:

Thank you for the kitty candy ! :D

It's so cuteeeeeee . When you said there was 188 of em in there, i will believe you :D

From now on, i'll never doubt you alright ? :)

When you say you'll earn your first million and buy a house and 3 sports car for me, i'll believe :D

& i'll wait for the day to come ^^

And i believe that when you said you want to design a house for me you were serious ^^

Hhaha, i loveee youuuuu so so so so muchhhhhh ! {:

Despitee me being fatttttttt, ugly, and really dumb you did not despise meeeee ! :)

This proves that you don't go for looks ! :D

Hahha, one out of a million rare guy , (:

& i also love you because you're not one of those typical guy's out there .

Trying to get girl's attention by acting cool or being dumb infront of em :)

Yup, i hope we last even longer ! :D

2009-04-09T04:57:00.000-07:00

Results for SYF was bronze .

Sian, worked so hard, trained so hard and we got bronze .

We've let down our KC TARIAN dance instructor .

Hais, but not because of that we give up on Tarian .

Lucky i'm only sec2 :)

I still have 2 more years to work hard and get Gold With Honour .

Sian, 2 years ago we had Gold, and now Bronze . Haissssssss .

Just because one of our seniors dropped the candle/plate .

It's okay la, since we've already did out best .

Oh, and i'm so upset because i may not be performing for EMDD .

Sucks eh . Cause 2 weeks ago i went for Tarian but then i was sick, sat at the side and watched .

Then, CCA teacher asked ( friend ) where am i , and she said ' she not participating ' .

Right, and so CCA teacher thought that i am not participating for EMDD .

So dissappointed and sad . :(

Din't have the mood & emotion to dance .

Tarian finished early today cause dance instructor sheng bing le . LOL .

K, so went Parkway with Natalie bought headband and bla bla bla .

Then walked home and now stonning, k bye .

Oh ya, my phone got confiscated , FUCK .

Just for taking pictures of the Art Tiles . Cheebye . Sian .

& My friend got expelled and sent back to her country, hais .

Girl, i'm going to miss you & your nonsense so muchhhhhh :(

Babyy, it's a few more moments to our Eight Month :)

So fast yea ?

Time flies so fast D:

I love youuuuuu :)

2009-04-07T01:51:00.000-07:00

I am so so tireddddd D:

Tomorrow is SYF, hope to get Gold with honour ! :)

Gahhhh, i am so angry ! I studied SO HARD for my Math CA2 k .

& Then i got sick, then my friend smsed me say the paper is after school .

So i heng lor, then i thought of going to school take paper then go off .

Wtffff, then my other friend call & tell me say '' exam finished long time ago lo ''

WLAO, i so angry lor . Cheebye . Sian, effort wasted . zzz .

Then today stayed back and finished up Art , the stupid mandala tiles thingy -.-

I screwed it up , tsk .

And it's going to be displayed at Victoria Theatre on the 22 April .

EHEH, WHO WANT BUY EMDD TICKETS ? HAHAHAH :D

$10 for Matinee an $15 for Night :)

Night is nicer , cause got light effects x:

Hahhaha, see me perform manszxz, tsk tsk .

It's been one year since i performed for EMDD .

EMDD = Evening Music Dance & Drama :)

Okkkk, i'm not going to elaborate anymore of my day today .

I'm going to study & sleeep ^^ ^^ ^^ LOL .

Claire you suck.

I Hate YOU. ):

2009-04-04T08:42:00.000-07:00

I'm superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr exhausted .

I feel very very stress ):

Sick, Stress, Super exhausted .

I'm very very tired of life . I feel like just ending everything here and go into a super deep sleep and never ever wake up manszxz .

Wednesday i had cca , Badminton .

Irritating coach did a April Fool's joke on me, wtf lar _l_ .

Only he & my co form tricked me . LOL .

The rest is all i trick oneee :DDD

He made me do 100 push ups , 100 sit ups . Wlao . Then i really do sia i thought he serious -.-

Then i do already i pissed off i shout ' EH I DO ALREADY LAR HAPPY . '

Then he was like, ' why you do ? do only when you happy lar, you do means you happy ah . ' Then he laugh -,- ... then i super super angry i say ' WLAO ! IS YOU ASK ME DO LEH ! '

He started laughing even harder and say ' Today April Fool ma, Happy April Fool . '

NOT FUNNY LOR , NOT FUNNY AT ALL ! URGH .

Then met baby after Badminton(:

Thursday, din't go school . Din't have the energy to get up , felt very sick . So slept till afternoon .

Then i changed and went for CCA Dance . Then they changed position and all . EMDD is coming D: . Lucky this year is at Victoria Theatre . Bigger space, if not can really die sia . LOL .

Friday, had History Test . Wtf ! I forgot about the riots of Maria Hertogh the last part , Source D.

So angry can ! Then Monday is my Math, i veryyy scared x_x . Is on Chapter 3 , Expansion and don't know don't know what Algebra D: !

Arghhhhhh . Kkk, then Friday went to the Lagoon to meet Sueyuan & Chermaine .

They ordered super lots of food larrrrr . Hahha, then got alot of things lar , then walked home :)

Today went for Cell Group, Combine Cell with 2.3 (:

I too tired to talked bout today, shall try and update tmr .
Gud Bai .

2009-04-02T07:40:00.000-07:00

When you're gone .

Today i din't go to school, idk why .

Maybe cause i'm really falling sick soon .

Coughing everyday, voice changed or i say losing it soon, runny nose, giddyness .

What's this . World's changing, people changing . I've had enough of all these nonsense lar .

Fuck, is the only word i can describe . Or rather, Screwed .

Tomorrow will be my History CA , Source Base Question , Soon it'll be my MID YEARS .

Fuck, and i want to aim for going 3o2 or express cause i want to take A Math and Combine Humanities . But fuck, i'm beginning to fall behind . My studies are like crap k . I feel super fucking useless alright . My SYF is coming soon, V E R Y S O O N . Performance for EMDD is 20 more days, and i fucking din't get my steps right , or rather i say I DID but my position and all .

Next, i want to take part in 2010 YOG . But i wonder if i even have the rights to participate .

My mother just asked me to resume my piano lessons, told her maybe end of year she said might as well do now . But fuck, i'm already screwed up , and very stress already .

Streaming, Study, Guitar, Dance, Performance, SYF, and now come out with PIANO & TUITION . Yea, i always yearn for tuition to cope up with my studies, but now SQUEEZING all these into 1 week in my everyday like is totally too much . =/

Asked my mother why with the sudden thought of resuming piano and she said that cause my teacher called and told her i should excel in music because she thinks i am musically talented .

Like, NO . I don't agree with my teacher's statement . Just because my family comes from a Music background does not mean i am musically talented . To me, my singing and voice sucks k .

When i play Piano, it's totally nonsense lar, Guitar i am still learning . I want to take drums , i want to learn other things then to just stick to one thing . Urgh, fuck .

Everyone is expecting the best out of me like my form teacher, just because i am a class commitee member, she expects the best of out of me . My mother, though my studies sucks she don't expect me to get all A1 just want me to pass, but i know she wants me to do well ..

What's this sia .. Then my cca's . Badminton the coach trained me like some crazy idiot just because he think's i can play well, but there is other better player's isn't it ? .. Then dance, not say expect the best out of me , but from everyone .
Hais, what if one day i decided to menopause . That will be great .

Whatever, i have to study for History .

Got this photo through my friend's blog . Well, those are the teachers (:

They were playing a April Fool joke on us , which totally din't fool us please :)

Then were given a DC slip for being 'late' and had to run the field cause late . LOL .

2009-03-31T04:44:00.000-07:00

Today was Inter Class Games Competition .

There were 4 category .
; Floorball, Captains Ball, Soccer, Telematch .

I was in Soccer, and was appointed to be the Captain .

I cannot guarantee that our team will win because we don't have sporty people except 4 .

And we're really short of members, while our opponent teams are like, yea look strong .

201 vs 207 . Elizabeth that group . Really, i was super angry at them .

Talya, Me, Victoria Anne, Victoria Jong are the only one's in sport's cca . & one of my team members, does not do anything . But though we had Aisyah, at least she scored for us .

And we have to thanks you Nahlah, the goal keeper for being really active not letting the opponent team to kick the ball in . Thanks Nahlah, (:

To cut the story short, Elizabeth thinks highly of herself JUST BECAUSE we're short of members . Well, who say's that more member's will win ? Besides, her member's mostly are really VAIN and din't want to get dirty . Kk, so we were on the field, and started playing .

I was playing really friendly untill they started ramping us, like wtf .

So we too started ramping, they handballed and the teacher saw, and so they din't get the point i guess, i have no idea . And suddenly our game stopped, we had 10 mins to play continuas .

So yea, the score was 1-0 . We were happy cause we got into the semi finals .

Then, Elizabeth started bitching around just because she is a fucking sore loser k.

Thinking bout it really makes me flared up, cheebye .

( Fight Starting )

She was telling me : Eh, maybe we'll have a rematch later cause Mr Farhan was being bias .

I was like : Huh, rematch ? Okay, why bias ?

I WAS FUCKING TALKING TO HER POLITELY LOR . CHEEBYE .

Then she say : Just because you all are fucking NA and we're NT and that is why he bias . Wtf, NA very big meh, you all also don't know how play .

Then i got really angry at her, so i started shouting in the middle of the courtyard cause we were literally in the middle lar, then the teacher's the student's was all there .

I shouted alot of vulgarities, cause i was fucking angry, then surprisingly the teacher's din't stop me cause i was literally shouting my fucking ass off at her, fighting and argueing with her .

Then she got nothing to say she ps, she still can say bitchy stuff, ARGH .

Then i really lose control already, i already raised my fist and wanted to give her a real hard punch k . But Charlene, Charmaine, Chan all hold me back . Thankfully they did because if i did punch her i swear i will keep hitting her untill she cry . ARGH .

Everyone was staring at me and her fighting then some was even scared and backed off -.- ..

Charlene & Charmaine (twins) they tried to control me and consoled me, pulled me away from the courtyard then to the field . Then as i was walking towards the canteen i saw her, she stare stare at me then i went to shout " kua simi kua , fuck off lar cheebye . think you fucking big is it . fucking sore loser, knn, your mother no cheebye is it, come out a fucking sore loser daughter like you, or maybe your father's sperm is spastic ah, come out some buang and sore loser girl like you ." Then she fight back, then i fight back and shout like hell , my DM was just sitting 2 tables across the table and looking at us -.- .. Then Linda, and one of my seniors came looked at me dumb founded . & said " chill omg chill, i have never seen you so angry and fierce before .. " my senior said lar, cause normally i don't get THAT angry in school before that in every sentence there has to be more then 10 vulgarities , and seriously i was shouting at the top of my voice .

Some even stopped playing their games and looked at us . LOL .

Linda was like " eh! why so fast end ! i want to see more show lei ! " -.- .. Then all of us laugh .

Elizabeth as usual, a super sore loser, went to Mrs Sim and told her bout me -.- ..

Then i lost control and sweared at Mrs Sim BY ACCIDENT . -.-

She just looked at me smile & laugh and said " relax, it's just a game . " then she laugh again -.-

Then Elizabeth was like " she was swearing at me , ONE WHOLE LONG LINE that i cannot even get what she is saying cause she swear too much " ( lol -.- )

The only problem we fought is because SHE IS A FREAKING SORE LOSER THAT DONT WANT TO ADMIT DEFEAT PLEASE(:

K, enough talking about her .

Our class got into the Finals and the Semi Finals for all games .

Soccer sadly we lost to the other team by ONE PENALTY KICK . ):

Floorball, literally the teacher was bias(:

Captains ball, we lost by one point but they really played very well(:

Telematch, we had 3rd in place ah ? LOL idk . -.-

OH AND WE HAD A PUPPET SHOW, YOU KNOW LIKE THE DEAD SILENCE MARY SHAW THE PUPPETS ?! OH GOSH, IT IS SOOOOO FREAKY KKKKKKKKKK . THE PUPPET NAME IS CHARLIEEEEE D: HAHAHAHHA . BUT IT WAS SUPER FUNNY I SUMPA ! :D

After school went Parkway with Natalie & Talya .

Ate Pasta Mania, Yummmmm :D

Walked around and talked talked, LOL .

I feel like piercing tongue leh, o.o HAHAHA .

Kkkk, whatever then later i took bus home by myself , then i had to walked by the overhead bridge, which is argh, so tiring cause i was superrrrrrrrrrrrrr tired today ):

Then my bag got my name marhh, then got a few guys behind me disturb me -.-

Zzz, assholeeeeeees! Then they keep calling " jiayi , jiayi , jiayi "

Then i din't turn back, then i just keep walking then they say '' eh, jiayi jiayi, '' then something something, i din't really hear what they say so yea i think they were being annoying :)

Attention seeker guys :D

I have no idea whether they were the St Pats guys or those ahbengs behind me -.- .

Well who cares, got home, switch on aircon and fell on my bed :D

Hahha, kkk whatever :)

2009-03-30T06:02:00.000-07:00

Today is the most embarrassing day of my life, oh gosh .
Spelling Beeeeeeee D:
Anyway, thanks to those who've encouraged me & cheered me on when i was on stage(:
Love you guys ! :D
Kk, and i bet those people were, Joan, Dianty, Talya, Genevieve, Khailisah, Yasmyn, Jamie and alot more, i think is my whole class bahhh, Yayyy(: Thanks you 201 ! :D
Then i think some of my seniors like, Sueyuan, Chermaine, Annabel all cheered for me also cause i saw Sueyuan waving from me from above . Hahahha, okkkk, thanks to you all also ! :DD
Well, Natalie she picked the wrong number which gave her a super hard word that she got eliminated out from the first round . While i picked 2 and got LEGACY . HAHAHAHAH .
Kay, so 2nd round i picked 10 , whch is DISCIPLINARY . WAHAHHAHA .
So easy please! :D , then the 3rd round i chose 17, which is JUVENILEEEE . HAHAHHA .
When i was sitting down i was wondering, if i know the word should i spell it correctly or purposely be wrong so i can get out of the stage, Firstly i have stage fright, Secondly i was the ONLY PERSON sitting in the first row on the left by myself cause the rest got eliminated =/ .
When i spoked into the mic, i said Juvenile softly then they asked to repeat so i decided, ahhh forget it lar, so i purposely spell as Juvinial :D
So now everyone is making fun of JUVINIALLLL . HAHAHAHAH .
Okkkkkk, i am so bored . Bye :)

wait wait ! I remembered something lor .
_l_ you sia Khailisah ! You know how freaking pain my bust is now or not ! I think i later get bust cancer ! WLAO ! HAHAHAHAH .
Kkk, cause right today i busted Khaili for her EZ LINK card photo, then she very ps . LOL .
Strangle me and all, we had like a war sia .
Then we went up to the upper secondary classes for coral speech and drama, which we got chosen larh, Hahhahaa . Sucks, okkk but we ciao-ed . Hahhaha .
Then outside the 3/5 classroom , Khaili started pinching, squeezing and did ALOT of things to my bust kkkk . So i did it back to her, LOL . And then she kick my ass everything -.-
THANKS AH JOAN, YOU STILL CAN LAUGH . LOL .
IS SO FREAKING PAIN PLEASEEEEEE! ):
Then both of us stopped cause we're suffering in major pain . tskkkk .
Afterawhile, Khaili started saying, 'eh eh, my bust very hot now sia, burning , super pain !'
Then Yasmyn all started laughing, is like out of nowhere she suddenly say lor .
Now mine is still very pain , thanks ah Khaili ! ):

2009-03-29T06:08:00.000-07:00

We're all God's child .

Okkkkkk, i came back from service . However, i was in pain for like maybe 2 hours .

Like yea, super very very pain lor . Cannot describe the pain, HAHHA .

Natalie was there to tkcare of me, thanks Nat(:

But after awhile when i was holding the Bible, i suddenly feel all pain is gone k!

Believe it or not, but it's true ! God healed me ! (:

Thank You God ! :D

Kkkkk, so after service Chermaine bought me fish porridge cause she knew i wasn't feeling well .

So nice of her(: Hahha, then had alot of things lar, then went Parkway slack bit then cabbed home with Natalieeeee{:

I'm still worrying about the damn Bee tmr. LOL .

Yeszxz, you're so right , S P E L L I N G B E E ! ):

Well, goodluck to me of being infront of the whole school looking like a damn joker -.-''

& Goodluck to Natalie and the rest of the participants (:

K, i bet my spelling sucks ok. LOL .

I WANT MY CAT BACK !

I MISS YOU PUDDING !

kkkk, i went to the SPCA webbehhh, AND I SAW SO MANY CUTE CUTE FELLA'S !

GO TO THE SPCA WEBSITE K .

http://www.spca.org.sg/

http://www.spca.org.sg/gallerydog1.html

GO UNDER ADOPTIONS AND LOOK AT THE DOGS ! I SHOW YOU THE CUTE DOGS !

Piper is cute k! , Roy looks so blurrrr so kute!!!!!! , Spirit is lovely!!!!!! GO SEE K!

http://www.spca.org.sg/gallerycat1.html

Kkkk, now is the Cats ! SO MANY CUTE ONESSSSSSSSSS !!!!

Becky is awesomely blur & cuteeeee !!! , Benji, Boy, Bulat, Chase, Fiona(1st one), Julius, Milo, Zimba, IS SO SO SO SO SO SO SO VERY VERY CUTE .

I WANT TO SQUISH ALL OF THEM IN MY LOVING ARMS NOWWWWWWWW !

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA .

2009-03-28T20:38:00.000-07:00

when we don't get our way, we get desperate.

I am superrrr sickkk ):

Having a real bad sore throat, maybe cause sung too much ?

Fluuuuu & Runny nose ): ): ):

Urghhhhhhs .

I'm going for service like later, which is soon .

Don't actually feel like going cause i don't feel well, but because i promised my shepard .

So have to, cannot break promise ma .

The video below is yesterday i make derh(:

Very bored that's why, Hahahhaha .

Comment & Watch kkkk :D

I shall update later when i come home(:

Spelling Bee tmr ! ! Infront of the damn whole school, super ps ok! ):

2009-03-28T09:31:00.000-07:00

2009-03-28T05:48:00.000-07:00

Beforeee, :D

After ! :D

Alot of people has been asking me , why din't i see you before when you're in your school uni .
And i was like, maybe you have seen just that you don't regconise ? LOL .
Then on request, i have decided to show the photo :)
The first one is before, which is in school and the second one is after ! (:
Friday.
School as usual, alright then i got called up by a teacher .
Thought was going to be a bad thing but ended up i got into the Spelling Bee finals .
Which i totally din't expect and really don't want to be in it .
I losts my voice so now i sound like a super old lady who is about to die .
Right, then i skipped my cca and went home find my clothes then went off to Nat's .
Bathe , got changed over there and waited for Genevieve .
Went to take bus 13 and alot of people were looking at us like as if never seen people wear untill so nice like that , *ps, it's not being thick skin but yea, we were dressed nicely(:
I wore a high waisted skirt with Genevieve, Natalie wore a dress .
Met Khali, she look's awesomely hot please (:
Meiyee was wearing something unusual, like she just woke up from her sleep -.-
Then came Yasmyn, waited very very long for her .Off we go for a Girl's Night Out .
Meiyee went high and started kissing me ON THE CHEEK .
Not anywhere else k!
Then she wanted to kiss Khaili but she was so scared untill she cover her face like don't know what sia . HAHAHHA .
Then Yasmyn also, then Khaili was being such an idiot please :)
Alright done, i am done with my post and 2nd blog . Yay(: