Happy Birthday t0 me :)

I was running today, my aim was to run finish the whole round of bedok reservoir without stopping.
The whole round would be about 4.8km, i did run most of it.
I ran from the starting to 2km stopped to drink water, then walked to 3km.
3km run all the way to the ending point, another 1.8 km.
I could have done it IF i din't stop and walk.
While running, i actually just plan to stop and walk, really too tiring alr.
However, i keep telling myself, i must and i have to finish this whole "race".
It is just like how i want to push myself to finish the race with God.
But i just realize something.
When i'm about to finish the race, i gave up, and walked.
It was afew cm more just to reach the ending point, and i gave up.
Why?
Because i had super bad stitches.
If we were to look at my spiritual walk, i'm just the same as what happened today.
I pushed myself, I convinced myself, I ALMOST did it, but i stopped.
Because why, pain.
= In my spiritual race, when i'm about to finish the race, i stopped and walked out because i found it too tiring, and because i allowed the devil to overtake me. And thats why i kept going in cycles. One minute on fire, another not.
And then i made up my mind.
No matter how far, how tiring, how painful every race will be, i will finish it up without giving up.
Even if i do not win prizes or whatever, at least i won victory :)
I finished the race, with God.

Ok so what.

You don't care, we care of you so much for?

So what, we cut our lines off here now?

Ok, i don't mind, seeyou next year soon, Classmate.

You Don't Own Me.

So stop trying to act like as though you do.

“ I'd hold you up to say to your mother, “This kid’s gonna be the best kid in the world. This kid’s gonna be somebody better than anybody I ever knew.” And you grew up good and wonderful. It was great just watching you, every day was like a privilege. Then the time came for you to be your own man and take on the world, and you did.

But somewhere along the line, you changed. You stopped being you. You let people stick a finger in your face and tell you you’re no good. And when things got hard, you started looking for something to blame, like a big shadow. Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place and I don’t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard ya hit. It’s about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward.

That’s how winning is done! Now if you know what you’re worth then go out and get what you’re worth. But ya gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain’t where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody! Cowards do that and that ain’t you! You’re better than that! I’m always gonna love you no matter what. No matter what happens. You’re the best thing in my life. But until you start believing in yourself, ya ain’t gonna have a life.

(via littlemiss)

“ The way we live our days, is the way we live our lives.

—	Annie Dillard

“ I found out that the things that hurt us the most can become the fuel and the catalyst that propel us toward our destiny. It will either make you bitter or it will make you better.

— T.D. Jakes

“ The only difference between a good day and a bad day is your attitude.

— Dennis S. Brown

(via littlemiss)

Infatuation is when you find somebody who is absolutely perfect. Love is when you realize that they aren’t and it doesn’t matter.

— Unknown (via littlemiss)

"I can’t help but remember everything. I mean, you see somebody and you think about all they’ve ever said and done. The good and the bad. It all comes back to you, and it feels so right and hurts so bad all at once."

— Unknown (via littlemiss)

"To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful."

— Bess Myerson (via littlemiss)

"The truth is, everyone you meet will hurt you at one point or another. You just need to decide who is worth the pain."

— Unknown (via littlemiss)

(metalmouth.tumblr.com)

What the fuck much, x20194883925038483258309432749324324327849.
You're a fucking bitch ++++ slut.
Stop acting like as though WOW! YOU ARE FUCKING PRO :O !!!!!!!
I AM SO SHOCK MANNNNNN .
Fuck you bitch.
That time ask you play with us l4d you don't want you think its a lame + shitty game.
Somemore you say, " i don't like lan"
Fuck bitch, go die la slut.
Then when you go with YOUR FRIENDS ( as what you claim on the phone )
" WOW!! l4d IS SUCH A FUCKING FUN GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "
Wtf much you bloody slut.
So yas, khali, nat, talya and all of us not your friends la.
bitch.
_l_

Fuck you

Infatuations ;

no i am not interested in guys, guys are the worst creatures on Earth that cheats girls feelings badly,

Excluding the Almight Lord Jesus :)

Teach me how to love a guy and not a girl, teach me the meaning of love, show me the meaning of it .

Christianity is not a religion but a relationship with God.

I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else. C. S. Lewis

When your hands touches mine, i skipped a beat .

When your lips touches mine, i skipped twice a beat .

When you smile and look into my eyes, you stopped the beat .

If you call this Love, then show me some feeling ;

My hands only reached for yours, but you were never there .

I Loved You, but you never returned my love .

I Miss You, but you never turn to look at me, not even just a glance .

Because you love her,

Because i have no idea what you're thinking,

Because,

I just want you in my arms now, i want to be next to you forever ;

I'll enjoy the ride, and never think of you again,

credits to: metalmouth.tumblr.com

Thinking of these is nothing, without you.

Ever felt alone?

Ever want to have a partner?

Yes, i want you.

You to be my partner.

The moment you are gone, my heart searched everywhere for you.

But you don't seem very interested in me;

If you ever needed, you can talk to me.

Whenever you feel lost, you can count on me, i'll find your way.

I Love You Forever, Like You've Always, Together Will be.

Picture credits to: metalmouth.tumblr.com

Give up,

it's a long road, so ?

" Why try so hard trying to fit in when you are born to stand out ? "

- grumbleszxzxzxz -

Tmr is the starting of EOY, grrrrr . I last minute chionging ):

Howwwzzzzz !!!!! Hhahhahaha, okay JYJY Sonia :D

Trying to memorise the format for english now ):

disguise,

" What's the point of respecting God when you don't respect your own body ? "

*sighs,

I was just pondering if i should get a tattoo .

Seriously, i badly want it because i think its cool and really nice to have a body art .

Your body will feel so .. not empty , you know .. HAHA .

Yea, but then Khalisah sort of woke me up ?

I thought she wanted to go with me put tattoo, but then i misinterpreted her .

Yupz, muslims cannot decorate their body unless they want to go to hell lorhz .

Then when she said about Hell, it sort of struck me ahz .

I felt bad, guilty, etc etc all sorts of feelings .

Then i remembered, our body is the temple of Christ, so if we tattoo/pierce isn't it decorating it ? If we decorate, then it wouldn't even be a temple anymore .

I felt that, if i go for the tattoo without thinking, i will regret & seriously, that could be my forever permanent mark that will be stuck with me forever, and that mark will be ( my disobedience, rebellions, mutiny ) against God .

Which, obviously i do not want to regret for the rest of my life and when one day when God see's me, instead of being happy, he starts to weep and tells me how great my life would be if i had been obedient towards him, and etc .

I want to see Jesus smiling at me and being proud of me, reaching out to thousands and thousands of people, obeying him, listen to his one and only voice ;

How great will that be :)

Amber Liu, my forever girlfriend :D
HAHAHHAHAHAHAH . *coughs coughs, *winkswinks!! ;)))))

“ I should’ve known you’d bring me heartache, almost lovers always do. ”

- Meiyee tumblr:)

i won't let go, because everything is nothing without you .

School, exams, EOY .

I really cannot wait for EOY, when i'll start dyeing and cutting my hair :)

Manicure & pedicure done, tsk .

First time i'm trying to be girly okz, now don't laugh .

Dk why, i miss the taste of cigar, shisha all D:

That's weird & funny, maybe because .. i feel far away from God .

Yup i guess so .

Why are people pretending to be someone whom they are not ?

Why are people being so hypocrite infront of someone they hate ?

What the heck are these people doing, goodness .



Tired,

Tired,

Tired,


Glad that i'm not shifted away from ChermaineLek :)
I think she's like the best shepppppyyy i have ! :)
Maybe if i get shifted to Rystine i won't mind larhz, but i'll still totally mizz her :))))
Without her nagging & preaches, i won't wake up onez ):

Today, Library with Cherina, Claudia & Natz .
Super hillarious because we were sneaky and were often caught eating -.-''
Claudia was like "OH SHIT!" and i was just nice opened up my primary school tidbits wrapper .
THEN, as i was about to put into my mouth and munch, i looked up and ..













VA, VA, VOOOOOOOOOOOOOM .
There goes the Librarian staring @ me . ( ._. )
Zomgggg okz . HAHAHA .
That was the first time she caught, then 2nd was Claudia's lollipop .
Then, noise level, ( LOL LOL LOL , to the maxxxxxxxzzzz ! )
Stayed till 6 pluz and Cherina's mum sent us off to Parkway :)
Saw my shepherd & her, then started running away from them D:
LOL, super funny today ;D
Ate Pepperlunch thenz went to look for my new keyboardzzz :)
Headed home with mother after that ;)
Tmr school, IT project how ?
If she don't grade us i am going to get very very angry at you guys :@ !
Pray i will wake up tmr !

what about the outreach .

idk if i should even attend anm .

we're not needed, isn't it ?

*sighs,

I desperately want a new keyboard && flute ):

Plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz !!

Service was great today:)

&& i wanna go SPCA soon to visit those kittyzxz !! :))))))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYSTINE TAN :D

MY HARRY POTTER ALARM CLOCK ! :))

MAY THE LORD BLESS YOU ALWAYZZZZZ !! ;D

AND YOU WILL BE A GREAT SHEPHERD ! :)

No Joke, HAHAHA .

I won't die if i am your sheep laz, was just kidding ^^

Seeyou next week service, LOOK FORWARD TO SEE YOUR CUSTOMIZED RAINBOW IPHONE OKZ OKZ !! ;))))))

Luvvvvvvvv youuuuuzzzzzzzz !!!!!!! :))))))

HAHHAHAHAHA, anyway this photo of you really makez me laugh . HAHAHAHAHAHHAAH!

When everything's gone wrong, not going your way, what are you going to do ?

What am I going to do ?

What will the world see me as ?

Who, What, Why, How ?

hate hate hate

Hiiiiiiiiii .
So long never blog ~~~
i'm blogging on my LJ btw :)))))))))))))
Kkkkkk go visit my LJ for updatessssssss
hahahahahhahahahahahahha :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))0
Annabel thanks for the crumpler :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))0
luv uuuuuuuuuuu !! :)))))))))))))) (L) .
*winkwinkwink!!!! ;))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
kk bye :))))))))))))))
http://theredlove07.livejournal.com :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

I'm Sorry .

If you know who you are,
Read http://theredlove07.livejournal.com
I'm really Sorry .

Beautiful Saviour

because i've decided to give up on you,

and because i've also decided to get my life on track with God .

Decisions, changes everything .

The choices i make, will make things different .

And my choice is, to give up on you :)

Yay, blogger finally can upload photo's :)

Lovelove! (L) .

Very long never blog already, quite alot to blog though D:

I feel, like i'm being dragged into the world again, which i don't want it to happen .

Finally, i've cut my hair, and i'm kind of satisfied with it though:)

Cheryl Lek's sermon was really good :)

Praise the Lord (L.) !

Tmr have Literature project, bake bake :D

But, going to have to miss service, this sucks ok ):

/Jiawei : As i've said, if you think using vulgarities against me scares me then go ahead . Because i am not scared at all . What's with all these gang gang thing . Very cool is it ? So cool then go make up your own chicky club gang la, why want call down your gang here and there ? If you're really not happy with me, i'll wait for you outside my school with the people involved .

Maybe, i'm not literally being involve, but hey you look here . I get myself involve because i cannot stand your best brother, Nathaniel bullying Chermine alright . I know you know what i'm trying to point out because you are also standing up for your own brother because you think we are ganging up on him . Do you see the picture ? Please, view it at a different point of view . Instead, of condemning others and contradicting everything that you assume alright .

/Nathaniel : Same applies to you . If you're seriously not happy with me and wants to settle by calling your gang, go ahead . I will wait for you outside my school, seriously .

And, y'know if you really want to settle and clarify everything, you should come down yourself .

If not, in general term, you're seriously a real coward :)

Calling your bunch of brothers or gang doesn't scare me because right, in the end who wins ? Obviously if you use common sense and logic, i will .

Why ? Is that a question that bugs you ?

I'll tell you why .

Because, Singapore law it states that whoever is caught being seen with a bunch of people approximately more then 7 is counted as an illegal gang .

So right, if you want come find me & Chermine and its only 2 of us vs you'll right .

Then passerby's capture everything send to police and all, who broke the law ? You or Me ? :)

Think twice before you act, because when you say i'm childish, look at how you're reacting to problems and how you are handling it yea .

If in the first place you did not like Chermine, then why you bothered to stead with her ?

Then behind her back you talk bad about her and flirt with other girls ?

Seriously, think before you say anything .

turn your eyes from those who have hurt you,

and to the ones who saved you .

Happy Birthday :)

Happy Birthday Levon Lim :D !

Hey ! Let's forget all the past and our grudges against each other ?

Sounds Great ? Cause, i don't want to live my life with hatred/grudges against someone though .

Its kind off weird like we used to be tgt and now we're enemies -.-

So yup, hope we're friends or at least acquaintance yea :D

Today, Cell was indescribable incredible to the max :)

I just needed that breakthrough, and what Madel preached was what i really needed .

I just needed to cry out to the Lord Jesus .

I just needed the annointings .

If you were to ask me " Sonia, would you choose to give up your journey with God and go back to whom you are previously before accepting Christ ? "

I would straight away give you a straight NO NO .

Why would i want to be stupid to sin against Jesus again ?

Why would i want to risk my life getting judge by God and be thrown to Hell ?

Why would i want to destroy my own future and plans that God have created for me ?

Its absolutely insane for me to do so .

God, is the only God that fills what i need .

I don't need any guy/man's love to fill .

Even if i do get one, how much can he fill the love i really need ?

Yes, i won't feel alone because he will be there to text/call me 24/7 or such .

But, when i lie on the bed, i would always have this hole in my heart .

This feeling that no one can ever give me except for God .

I seriously, can't imagine life without you .

1 John 3:16

This is how we know what love is:

Jesus Christ laid down his life for us.

And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers.

deeper in love

Delirioustouch is opening to their first collection :D !

Yayyyyy, hahahahhaa finally :)

Visit visit and support kk .

The model hot right, of course laaa . Hahhaa *wink wink!

TOMORROW CELLLL YAY :D

TOMORROW HILLSONG CONCERT YAYYYYYYY !

Today, fellowship with Chermaine & Zoe .

Talk about it more maybe tmr, cause need to upload pictures for delirioustouch :D

same side of the moon .

I'm not talking to you Claire Tan Yi Xuan .

wait one month later on the 23 August then i'll resume talking to you . I'm serious !

Woke up as usual, bathe, went to school .

Got scolded by English teacher D:

Suckszxz man, haha .

Zuo wen CA sure going to fail like mad . HA .

stupid claire, curse you la ! cause of you i failing ):

Yea yea, yada yada ~

I suck at Math big time, i hate linear graphs & algebra .

Anyone care to teach me ? HA .

I don't think annyone would cause they need ALOT of patience cause i suck to the max . Heh .

I think Joan Chen likes Claire Tan .

Oh well, they're the " honey baby cumming little sweetie pie's " HAHAHA .

Claire Tan thinks i don't dare not to talk to her for a month .

I'll prove to you big time !

I'm not going to sms you, talk to you, look at you, or even write a note to you .

If not i'll have to treat the stupid fat pig Joan sake sushi y'know .

Hahahhahahahaha, if want me forgive you then you come kowtow to me . HAHAH . ( joke ah )

My cca clash ._.

Now i have 4 days in one week of cca . AH ~~

Today i went half half for both cca's .

Dance then Badminton :)

After that went off to Siglap deposit money, eat Cafe Cartel and then cab home :)

Now, i need to do finish all my homework, super alot ):

Hais, okay i should get going now :D

Goooooodbye !(:

Birthday Song .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARVEN KER :D

sorry for the late wish though, blogger got problem earlier on ):

Happy Birthday, my friend

Here's to all the years we've shared together

All the fun we've had

You're such a blessing

Such a joy in my life

May the good Lord bless you

And may all your dreams come true

- Corrine May, The Birthday Song dedicated to you :)

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Today, woke up super late 7AM ! Oh my goodness right .

Lucky its raining heavily so got excuse :D

Woke up, chiong bathe etc etc then Joan came to pick me up with cab and send me to school .

Ha, pathetic right .

My school is just a few blocks away but Joan has to come pick me up .

Cause i no umbrella ! Hahha, and today got Eclipse !

Cool you know ! Haha .

Yup, after school, went ICC and eat with Gwen & Annabel :)

stop brooding over her already Annabel, if she is not meant for you then don't go for her .

there are other better looking bungs then her ( LOL, sorry "her" ) Hahhaha .

but yea, i'm stating the facts .

try going for the upper secondary one, V. HOT ! HAHAH .

okay ? (: we'll always be here for you .

Went back to school after ICC and slack slack, talk talk .

Then saw the gross girl, Claire Tan Yi Xuan . Hahhaha .

Talking about her really make me laugh .

At the times where she shared with us her story of " guaikia-ness & never gone arcade in her whole life before only once with her sister when she was v. young . "

Hahhaa, oh man, seriously .

Get to know this idiot, hahahaha .

I found out something that really hurt me ; :/

Like what have i done ?

I din't provoke her, i din't say anything bout her, then she is angry at me .

I'm not sure if she hates me ):

I've never intended to steal her away from you .

I don't know what i've done wrong, but please listen out to me will you ?

You know that she needs you by her side, you're her best friend !

Have you ever spare a thought for her before throwing your anger ?

Have you ever thought what seriously went wrong before contridicting everything ?

Have you ever tried to solve the problems with us instead of ignoring all of us ?

Have you ever thought of salvaging the friendship with her ?

Have you ever think of how much she needs you by her side as a friend ?

Eight years, and you intend to give up on the friendship over childish stuff ?

Hey, i've got thousand and million words to say to you, i want you to get the picture right .

I don't want you to just continue carrying this thought that, she doesn't care about you anymore, cause she has new close friends like me and her . And, me & her is stealing her away from you . If you're reading this i know you know whom i'm referring to . I've only treated her as a normal friend, though we're close but our friendship can never compare to hers and yours . You get it ?

I don't want to see all of us falling out of the circle of friends .

One by one leaving without a word because we don't get the picture right .

Do you know how much all of us yearn for you back with us instead of going with those people ?

Once a member within us leaves, the whole group scatters .

Please talk to her, and please try and understand what i'm trying to do here .

Instead of thinking i'm going to steal her away :(

I hope to see you soon back, With Us .

Indescribable ♥.

Today did nothing but to slack at home and stone with the computer .
Mc mc for 2 days :D
Darn, tmr need go schoool .
I 2 days never go school already, tskkkkkkkk .
Miss me or not ? HAHAHAH, and my nonsense .
Hahha :DD
Went to eat Thai Express with mother and then come home ^^
Mummy ♥ put $$ inside my bank account .
YAYYYYYYYY .
I LOVE YOU MOTHERRRRRRR ! ♥
My mummy is the best mom on earth ! :D

Chermine you're chio ;D

Chermine Guay Wan Yeeeeeeee ;D
You're chio to the max ok :D
Stop saying you're not .
Only chio people have boyf, so you have one you are chio :D
Hahaha, not like me uh .
Boyf don't have, Girlf also don't have :(
So means i super buang, you got it ?
Ha, Last Long babe ! (L.)

O M G !

O M G .

HAHAHHAA, those people who've been looking for answers of her & her whether they stead, i think they did . HA .

Cause, that was proveee .

Hahah, butbut idk whether true or joke one ._.

Ha ! BUT STILL .

True Repentence .

" He that speaketh in an unknown tongue edifieth himself; but he that prophesieth edifieth the church. "

Today's service was good :)

Altar call, i responeded and i felt good after that .

Class 101 was even better :)

Chapter 3 : Get Ready To Live ! :D

Chapter 4 : Baptism of the Holy Spirit :)

Then, cell lunch @ Hua Li Xuan .

Ha, after lunch followed Claudia, Sueyuan, Avis & Chilli (JunLin) for Fellowship ;D

Hahahhhaha, and now back home .

Worrying about :

#1 - Homework, NOT DONEEE at all .

#2 - Bad bad crampszxz, don't tell me my period is coming :(

#3 - Uniform not washed/iron ! (LOL !!)

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY :)

I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH .

HOW'RE YOU !

YOU DID NOT COME INTO MY DREAM :(

I miss the days when we have dinner tgt and cutting cake .

Taking photos and all .

Wished those days will happen again .

(L)ove you so much, (x3)

Desert Song .

" All of my life in every season You are still God I have a reason to sing I have a reason to worship . "

All i did today was stay at home .
Din't turn up for cell because got locked in the house, oh wow .
Supposed to go Joan Chen's house then go Parkway or something then last minute she say she not free and cannot go out, then go her house for what ? -.-
Audition-ed with Natalie, Webcam with Natalie, Msn with people, blog hop and'll .
(Boringtothemax.com.sg) pleasezxz .
I'm thinking if i should continue my walk with God .
And i know i should, because he is the only one whom can pull me through every tough times .
Oh God, please tell me what to do .
You must be wondering ; since i know i should why do i even bother thinking ?
Because of some personal reasons and i don't wish to say it to anyone, cause i know no one will help . Like v. lame tell them then they cannot do anything might as well don't tell -.-
Kay, whatever i'm going to audi because i'm (sianszxztothemax.sg) ok .

Lost but was found .

Luke 14:1-35 .

Today never go school and then went for Annabel's chalet .

Was quite pissed off cause of some things happen along the way .

So yea, but everything was solved and all .

Today is supposed to be a happy day but in the end, everything turned out wrong .

How great . :/

Firstly the arguements between me & Annabel and sort of Khalisah .

Then something happened to Khailisah, and we were all so worried for her .

Then Gwendolyn emo emo ._. then like she run away and stuff, so we had to run after her .

Like from bus stop to pasir ris reserve park then downtown then chalet then ehub ._.

Tiring y'know . However we don't blame her because she felt depressed uh .

And Gwen, you must know this .

" You Are Never Alone "

We all care for you thats why we ran after you, and thats why i screamed at you .

We care for you untill we had to send you to your doorstep .

So please, don't feel like a lost sheep :(

I don't want you to think no one loves you, and i know saying this won't help but .

Jesus and all of us loves you .

Khalisah, i hope you're alright now .

We din't mean to hurt you, is just that we thought you were joking .

And please forgive us and not like, heck us cause you think we abandoned you :(

Yasmyn was super sad, cause its like first time in history you'll "fight" and ignore .

Cheer up pleasee .

You know we'll always be here for you .

See you soon on Monday and please be back to whom you are again :)

Thanks to Talya & her family for sending me up to my house :D

Tomorrow Sabby is preaching .

I cannot miss cell :)

Yay, get to see airpork again :D

Hahah, okay i'm bushed .

Goodnight :)

Edits .

Joan chen wants me to blog about her .

Okay here it goes .

I think you are a big breasted women .

And squashing me in the car is so unglam (LOL!)

Today running after Gwen, got lose some weight ? (HAHA!)

Okay, go sms your Azel la, don't disturb me .

Only know how to scared scared of ghost . (LOL!!)

And please learn some table manners you stupid ahbeng -.-

Happy i blog about you ? Ok, good .

BYE . (idiottothemax.sg)

it was all for love.

Primary Six yo ._.

Alright, there's really nothing much to blog except for "reviving" this pathetic blog .

Uh huh, i din't go school today cause overslept and din't want to .

Now, i am stuck with 3 essays and has to handed up by tmr, IT notebook & hw, cina stuffs for cina teacher, literature essay, geography activity book, science, and etc .

Oh man, how am i going to finish all these by tonight ?

And i'm not even starting it yet, tskkkkk .

Cause, currenty i'm over at Nat's with Gen . Cause she's staying over till Friday .

She's so .. that i have no words to describe her -.-

She's just behind me and she asks me to msn her . Wth ._.

Okay, whatever goodbye :)

Luke 14:25-35 :

If anyone comes to me and does not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and sisters—yes, even his own life—he cannot be my disciple. And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple.

Class Photo @ Nature Park Forest :D

School was rather, boring .

Had I.T lessons and got caught for surfing the net and all .

Like -.-'' so had to stand and etc etc .

Whatever man, now i have to like what give the teacher my journal tmr .

Super sian, grrrr .

After that went for some field trip, fun, indescribable, awesome, interesting but eww also :)

Ants everywhere, how sick !

Went back around 6+ to school, went with partly half the class for dinner @ macs .

I ps-ed myself by shouting Khalisah's name, (sorry) .

Then Macs became quiet for moments cause they stared at me ._.

I hope they won't complain :(

Went Nat's then her mum sent me home :) (thanks) .

Now blogging, d&t portfolio, sian and alot . (How) !

John 8:7 ;

if any of you is without sin,let him be the first to throw a stone at her .
if you have confidence and conviction in what you're saying, you dont have to worry who throws stone at you .

Changed blogskin & blog url :)

Relink yo ;D

Today's outreach was fun :D

Lunch @ Swensonszxz :)

I believe everything and anything happens for a reason and not just coincidence .
Before you were born, your life was already planned by God .
Whether or not, if you're poor, rich, educated, not educated and etc etc, its all planned by God .
Before you knew about God's exist, he already knew your exist from the start .
Outreach, is going to be strict from today onwards .
I agree with Chermaine, we don't want a dead outreach and we don't want people coming to outreach just for the sake of coming, if like that what for come ?
And, now we have 3 rules :)
1. If you want to be part of the outreach, you better stay away from secular music .
If you think you can't give up yet, then don't come, because we don't want our outreach to be emotional by secular music . But we want to be emotionally joyful for Praise & Worship .
2. We don't want to have to hear gossips and murmurings of others because its super immature .
3. i forgot already leh -.- shucks . LOL . ask Sueyuan/Chermaine:) hahhaha .
Okay so yea, anyway i'm here to blog for some of you and i really want you to understand .
Firstly, coming to church is not just another social group for you ok .
Cell groups and Zone is not another typical social group of yours .
Church, is a place where you cry out for God, worship and honour him .
And, please don't because of like, friends and'll from church that offended you or made you unhappy then you backslide and shun away .
Hey, look . Church is not your arcade leh, is not a hotel also .
Is not when you want go worship then you go worship, no mood or anything happens along the way then you don't want to go etc etc .
Even if you're some loner in Church, it doesn't matter because Church is not like as if you go there for company of friends and stuff .
And you were never alone from the start, God is always with you .
So what if you think you're alone in Church ?
Praise and Worship and Honour God as usual la, why sian sian just because you think you're alone ?
Hello ? Get this right, you go Church is to praise, worship, honour and encounter God isn't it ?
Then, why should you be thinking so much in the first place and hesitate whether or not to go ?
If you're a true fan of Jesus, you'll never keep silent, if you're a true fan of Jesus you will not hesitate whether of not to go .
And, when Sabby said she was utterly disgusted by Genres just standing there and *worshipping* God, it really gross her out . I feel the same too . Like, wth ? You want to *worship* in that way right, might as well don't come la .
And don't because of your personal emotions you pull the whole atmosphere down .
Please la, people out there really think what you are saying by you're a true fan of God, you worship him and you love him .
Untill you're really sure what you're saying then you acknowledge it k .
If not, don't . Cause its utterly disgusting .

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Benefit of the Cross .

Jesus told this parable, using it as a teaching tool to get across a great truth. In the parable, we see the benefit to man clearly — and yet we also see the benefit to God. You see, the parable of the prodigal son is not only about forgiveness of a lost man. Even more so, it is about the delight of the father who runs after him.

You know the story. A young man took his portion of his father’s inheritance and squandered it on riotous living. He ended up broken, ruined in health and spirit, and at his lowest point he decided to return to his father. Scripture tells us, “He arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him” (Luke 15:20).

Note that nothing hindered this father’s forgiveness of the young man. There was nothing this boy had to do — not even to confess his sins — because the father had already made provision for reconciliation. Indeed, it happened all by the father’s initiative: he ran to his son and embraced him as soon as he saw the boy coming up the road. The truth is, forgiveness is never a problem for any loving father. Like-wise, it’s never a problem with our heavenly Father when he sees a repentant child.

So forgiveness simply is not the issue in this parable. In fact, Jesus makes it clear that it wasn’t enough for this prodigal merely to be forgiven. The father didn’t embrace his son just to forgive him and let him go his way. No, that father yearned for more than just his son’s restoration. He wanted his child’s company, his presence, and communion .

Even though the prodigal was forgiven and in favor once more, he still wasn’t settled in his father’s house. Only then would the father be satisfied, his joy fulfilled when his son was brought into his company. That is the issue in this parable.

In the father’s eyes, the old boy was dead. That son was out of his thoughts completely. Now, in the father’s eyes, this son who had returned home was a new man. And his past would never be brought up again. The father was saying, in essence: “As far as I’m concerned, the old you is dead. Now, walk with me as a new man. That is my estimation of you. There is no need for you to live under guilt. Don’t keep talking about your sin, your unworthiness. The sin problem is settled. Now, come boldly into my presence and partake of my mercy and grace. I delight in you!”

- David Wilkerson :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST MUMMYYYYY (L) ! :D

Motherrrrr, you're important to me . Very :)
Other then Ariane, i only have you & her as my kins .
Mother, you're the greatest mum on earth :)
If there was a next life, i would want you as my mother and be my mother
forever ;D
You're such a great mom that no one can replace you in my heart .
You're such a great mom that i would want to look you up as a noble
heroeine ;)
Despite whatever difficulties or circumstances you've got to go through,
you'll always pull through everything, because you want to bring the best for me
& Ariane .
If i ever meet a genie or any other magical people that would love to give
me 3 wishes, i would wish for, 1 : You&Dad being happily ever after :) 2 :
All 4 of us will standby each other and no matter who falls, we'll always pick
them up tgt as a family :) 3 : I want to be your child again and have a sister
whom is Ariane :)
Mummy, i want to apologise whatever hurt i have done to make you unhappy or
angry .
I'm sorry .

Gah, today is outreachhhh .

Sorry Chermaine for backing out on you :(

Colossians 3:14-25

And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in
perfect unity.

Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body
you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in
you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing
psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. And
whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord
Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

Met my dinner date today @ Cartel :)
Told my dinner date everything :)
Before that was out with Natalie & Talya, then i went to cut my hair :)
Talya looks like an angmoh ahlian, hahahahaha .
Cause her mother made her cut, LOL .
K, byebye outreach on Wed :)

A fatherless child is a child that needs extra love.
I give them all I got with the help of the lord above.
A fatherless child can grow up to be a great man,
As long as they place their fate in the Lord's hand.

-Ida D. Mcknight .

Angels were falling for you did not see
They fell from the heavens with their halos and white wings
the tears and cries for your father to come wipe your tears
for he had none no more pain or suffering as he did the pain and agony
is how he lived he looketh down on you with his smile so bright
he knows how you are feeling and soon holds you tight look to the heavens
for you will see your father rewarded with his halos and white wings
you are special to have a father as you did happiness and laughter
he was your best friend be grateful for the time you had and always speak
of him
talk about the good times and the memories shared within
he can hear your voice and see you
that is all he can do close your eyes
and speak of him for your daddy loves you too .

- Christine A. Cooper .

I'm sorry heavenly Father
For all that I've done,
I didn't think it was wrong
I guess I was having to much fun,
Please take away my sins
For I will pray every night,
Please help me stop doing wrong
And help make it right,
I've got my whole life ahead of me
Please help me make the right choices,
I trust you to show me the way
And get rid of all these horrible voices,
Those voices in my head
They just wont go away,
They tell me to do bad
Or the prices I will have to pay,
Please help me Lord
Stay in control,
Please don't let Satan
Take over my soul,
I love you so much Lord
Just please forgive my sins,
Help me be a better person
All the way to the end.

- Andrea .

Dad, this is for you .
I know you've always loved me because i'm your child .
Maybe, the way that you care and show me your love is different .
And maybe, that made me hate you .
But, i realised everything when you left the world without a word to me .
I begun regretting all the things i have done .
Throwing tamtrums at you, going home late and lie to you just because i
din't want to see you, not wanting to visit you when you're admitted to the
hospital because i hated you and thinking it served you right and not even
bothering to give you a call .
Dad, i'm really sorry, and i really really miss you .
The times when you gave me a warm hug when i needed one, the times where
you hit me for bad results and made me so frighten that i want to do better the
next time, and when you knew that i worked hard for my exams but couldn't get
the results you wanted, you just encouraged me .
The times where we go out as a family together every Sunday for family
dinner/lunch .
Shop together and laugh together .
The times where we celebrated your birthday, father's day, mum's birthday,
mother's day, my birthday, my sister's birthday, chinese new year, christmas,
and many others .
Though missing all those moments now cannot salvage everything because you're gone . Our family state has also changed, now, in the house when everyone is out
except for me, I feel lonely, i feel so weird being the only one at home . Because there's no noise at all .
Dad, even when you're gone i just want you to know how much i yearn to tell
you that i love you.
How much i wish you were here, and i don't mind you scolding, hitting and
even blaming me .
However, everything is too late .
Dad, i hope you're resting well in the immortal world, and i know you've
never accepted Christ into your life . Maybe so you did, but i know God will be
there protecting you and watching over you for me . I'm sorry to have let you
down because i've accepted Christ and now attending Church, but you must know
how much happier i am now because God has filled me with all the love i needed .
Now, i don't need to depend on any other guy for love, because i know there's a
God up there loving me unconditionally . I hope you accept and understand this
if you're secretly watching over us, and that applies to jie too, she gave her
life to Christ and i know you knew that.
Whatever it is, daddy, Happy Father's Day and may God bless you always :)
I hope its not too late to wish you, and i'm sorry for not visiting you yesterday .
ILoveYou (L).

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